You may be interested in these trip reports I've posted, they deal with some of my spiritual experiences;
DPT:
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/776463-(DPT-120-140mg)-First-time-I-am-a-mouse-among-giants
Parasomnia:
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...BA-and-Parasomnia-experienced-a-Retrospective
DMT (accepting death):
http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads...t-Time-Quitting-Methadone-and-accepting-death
I'm mostly linking them so I don't have to re-explain everything contained within them. I think like you do that spiritual experiences/finding a higher power aka God is best kept between the person and whatever they find through exploration of the topic. I've started meditating again for the same reasons you do it. I've also been doing a lot of reading as of late on the subject of religion and attempting to connect dots in those old texts with other subjects that I read about. I was an atheist for most of my young life and was never really forced to attend church. I did go as a kid but I never took it serious or read the Bible until I was a young adult. My Grandmother is very religious, does bible study every day, and has total faith in Christianity. However, she will not force it on anyone else including her own kids/Grand Children. One of her sons became a preacher and the other never attends church.
I recently was baptized in that church and I will admit a lot of what made me do it was her and my Grandfather requesting that I do it shortly before he died. He said it was good insurance, and that he was baptized as an adult and helped to baptize someone else. He wasn't afraid of dying, I didn't understand it at the time but he told me before he went into the hospital that "I'll survive the surgery but I'm not going to come back out of there alive son". It turned out he was correct but he still went because he wasn't afraid. I never knew he even believed and he said that it was something between him and God. He told me if I simply explored the subject I would find peace with myself and the world. So I went through with it while grieving (it was only a week after he died). The entire day was planned around it and none of the regulars knew aside from a few in the know. I was baptized by my uncle and was only told the routine right before I was dunked in the water. There was a lot of happy people and tears of joy in the church that day. When I came home I sat in my Grandfather's chair and was at total peace for a good hour. It only felt like a few minutes, and I wasn't asleep, but before I knew it I was begin called for lunch and over an hour had passed.
The next weekend I would take DMT for the first time, it was something I'd be interested in for some time but never found locally. It just seemed right so I took it and I consider that experience to be my true baptism. I can't really explain what went on during that trip but afterwards I felt at peace for the first time in my adult life and was determined to continue a long a path I said I'd take when my Grandfather died. I took it on day 8 of opioid withdrawal and have stayed the course since then. DMT made me feel the same way I did the Sunday before, it was amazing.
Now all that said one would assume I have accepted Christ. I will say that no, I really haven't at least not in the way most would interpret it. However, I have accepted that there is something greater than myself out there. I do not attend church every weekend but I do go because it makes my Grandmother happy and the sense of community down there is really good. They are good folks, I will fix anything for them in there for free all they have to do is ask. I'll work on the computer, I'll roof, I'll mow, I'll cook...whatever. I want to help to provide an environment for people to be at peace in. The day I was baptized there was a kid of maybe 5 or 6 running around the back rooms just like I did all those years ago. Right after I was baptized this was the first person I saw, he said; "That's sooo cool, I want to get baptized to!" and I told him some day he'd could do it if he really wanted. So I mostly go down there for that because in this terrible place I call home it's one of the few places with an actual community. Plus, the church I go to doesn't teach the fire and brimstone Christianity. Hell to them is, in the words of my Grandmother; "Eternal separation from God". This is compatible with my own views on spirituality, hell is eternal separation from the community of people you care about.
I believe psychedelics are the true flesh of God, the spirit, or whatever you want to call it. They are gifts/tools for personal exploration that are here to be used and respected. Even when casually taking something like LSD I show it respect because I know there is the power within it to provoke a strong experience. Some substances are better for this than others; DMT, DPT, and Mushrooms are probably my top three for this. LSD is a bit more casual, the 2Cs are more about having fun than a head trip, MDMA is more about finding common ground with other people than exploring the self. MXE/K are good for traveling and exploring but for me lack the spiritual push of a Tryptamine. I'm sure this will differ for everyone. There are some substances like Iboga that I look forward to exploring that I know are good for this as well but it's hard to find the time.
I should mention before finishing this that I am a person that believes in the scientific method. I'm a programmer by trade, I work with technology every day, I'm the type of person you'd least expect to believe in a higher power. It's something I don't discuss with most folks and I don't spend much time around folks that have made it their entire lives. I explore these things in the privacy of my own home, mostly at night after my work is done for the day, and begin that I question everything I think long and hard about what I read when dealing with this or any other subject. As I said before I just try to be a good person, and while I don't try to force others to walk the same path as me I try to be an example to others and hope they may share my path for a little while and be better for it. I've come a long way in the last couple of years, I'd like to see friends make it out of the junkie life too, but I can not force them to change.
Keep meditating, only you can find the answers. I'm still looking for a lot of those too.