Spending all his time looking for an ethanol replacement in the benzo scaffolding.
i figured it out
-- a little background -- long time booze hound, bzd popper, abuser of all types of gaba agents. CPTSD diagnosis, long term major anxiety problems, whole family has defective GABA system/gets ethanol DTS super easily and are just generally anxious people.
Years back now I was nearing the point of no seizure threshold, and bit the bullet. Came off all of them, and have stayed off. However - I have still had the itch for a "drink" a relaxy, GABA oriented liquid, and been on a quest to find that. I think today I finally discovered the holy grail.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7701051/ https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27332705/
Amanita muscaria is something I've been experimenting with since the bzd wd. It's a fantastic plant ally, and one of the only true gaba-a agonists in the pharmacopeia. However, there's a fine line with it between too little buzz and drooly delerium, I wanted a way to increase it's lower level
activity but not by dumping a bunch of extra-cellular GABA (as it can be converted into glutamate readily. which is unpleasant AF) --- turns out, kavain increases the binding of muscimol at gaba sites by up to 358%!!!
So I prepared -- approx 400mg kavalactones (extract and lyophilized powder) and a squirt of tincture in glass with approx 3 squirts (.75g) decarboxylated amanita tincture. (the decarbed part is important!! don't want ibotenic acid!) I added some lemon la Croix, a dash of bitters,
and a base of ginger lemonade. garnished w lil salt, lemon rind rubbed round the edge and hung on glass. The result: GODDAMN PERFECTION. I am sitting here relaxed and amazed, i made another one a bit ago (1 squirt, only 2 of nita, this is potent and i don't want to overdo it).
muscles are relaxed, I'm singing and grinning. Took my pain meds (little bit of kratom and oxycodone), potentiated nicely.
All the positive ups id want out of a couple pints of beer. And the best thing is that I know specifically i will not get GABA rebounds from one off amanita or kava. (hopefully the combo does not change that at all).
It's a bit self limiting, kava gets weird at super high doses so this is a 2 - 3 pints of beer thing that can be maintained. but you know what? I should never a been drinking more than that in a sitting anyhow.
weed plays nice. Thinking to add 25mg kanna and see if that is ok. Going to string my guitar and watch these senate hearings with the rest of my night, maybe make a couple more weaker ones to tail out the experience.
This was exactly the experience i was looking for, I'm so grateful to have figured this out.
i figured it out

Years back now I was nearing the point of no seizure threshold, and bit the bullet. Came off all of them, and have stayed off. However - I have still had the itch for a "drink" a relaxy, GABA oriented liquid, and been on a quest to find that. I think today I finally discovered the holy grail.
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/7701051/ https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27332705/
Amanita muscaria is something I've been experimenting with since the bzd wd. It's a fantastic plant ally, and one of the only true gaba-a agonists in the pharmacopeia. However, there's a fine line with it between too little buzz and drooly delerium, I wanted a way to increase it's lower level
activity but not by dumping a bunch of extra-cellular GABA (as it can be converted into glutamate readily. which is unpleasant AF) --- turns out, kavain increases the binding of muscimol at gaba sites by up to 358%!!!
So I prepared -- approx 400mg kavalactones (extract and lyophilized powder) and a squirt of tincture in glass with approx 3 squirts (.75g) decarboxylated amanita tincture. (the decarbed part is important!! don't want ibotenic acid!) I added some lemon la Croix, a dash of bitters,
and a base of ginger lemonade. garnished w lil salt, lemon rind rubbed round the edge and hung on glass. The result: GODDAMN PERFECTION. I am sitting here relaxed and amazed, i made another one a bit ago (1 squirt, only 2 of nita, this is potent and i don't want to overdo it).
muscles are relaxed, I'm singing and grinning. Took my pain meds (little bit of kratom and oxycodone), potentiated nicely.
All the positive ups id want out of a couple pints of beer. And the best thing is that I know specifically i will not get GABA rebounds from one off amanita or kava. (hopefully the combo does not change that at all).
It's a bit self limiting, kava gets weird at super high doses so this is a 2 - 3 pints of beer thing that can be maintained. but you know what? I should never a been drinking more than that in a sitting anyhow.
weed plays nice. Thinking to add 25mg kanna and see if that is ok. Going to string my guitar and watch these senate hearings with the rest of my night, maybe make a couple more weaker ones to tail out the experience.
This was exactly the experience i was looking for, I'm so grateful to have figured this out.