SomeYoungGuy
Greenlighter
So I had a 60-70 gram day habit using Kratom for the past 6 months. It got so bad I had days where I couldn't go to the bathroom, would get the cold sweats 2 hours after ingesting it. I'd wake up in the middle of the night with withdrawals and horrible stomach cramps. You're probably wondering how one could get to such a point so I'll do my best to shortly explain.
When I firsts found Kratom I thought I had found my miracle drug. I've had substance abuse problems my entire life. Before my first Kratom use I had 3 years clean. After ingesting "DA PIMP BOMB(what the package said" I felt subtle opiate like high(my favorite drug). After upping the dose the high felt like the perfect mix of vicodin and a very light dose of aderall(without the paranoia.) So from then on, I fell in love. I started taking the drug 2 days on, 2 days off. The days off I felt a slight hangover. I knew that "opiate-like" high too well to believe the claims that Kratom wasn't addictive. So I tried my best to deal with it like it was. Eventually I caved in and that's when it became a daily ritual. The higher the doses got, the less effective the drug became and the more prevalent the side effects were.
So eventually I tried to quite cold turkey. BBAAAADDD idea. I couldn't work or do anything productive. By the 6th day of insomnia I hopped back on the Kratom train and sought psychiatric help. The first doc had no idea what to do and gave me .25 dose of klonopin for one week.
The second doc thought I was exaggerating the withdrawals and gave me an SSRI and powerful antihistamine to help me sleep. After 2 days of ineffective hell I wrote the doc an e-mail in hopes of some help. She called me back in. Turns out she did some research and found out I wasn't lying.
Now she's got me on 4mg of Klonopin, so that's 2mg twice a day. It's got me down to 10g of Kratom a day but getting off of it is so friggen hard. I now am at a dose that gives me the positive effects again without the negatives. Another problem is the being on the Benzos created some unforeseen drug seeking behavior. I've scored some other and benzos, shit I never would have done had I been sober, and now am fully engulfed by the positive feelings side of getting high on things recreationally. The thing is, for a guy like me, it never stays recreational. I don't want any full blown Blues or Xan addiction so I want off the Klonopin as fast as possible because I know that's what is engaging my drug seeking behavior. I have all these lame excuses like "life is so boring" and "harder" without drugs but I know they're lies. It's not that bad. I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?
When I firsts found Kratom I thought I had found my miracle drug. I've had substance abuse problems my entire life. Before my first Kratom use I had 3 years clean. After ingesting "DA PIMP BOMB(what the package said" I felt subtle opiate like high(my favorite drug). After upping the dose the high felt like the perfect mix of vicodin and a very light dose of aderall(without the paranoia.) So from then on, I fell in love. I started taking the drug 2 days on, 2 days off. The days off I felt a slight hangover. I knew that "opiate-like" high too well to believe the claims that Kratom wasn't addictive. So I tried my best to deal with it like it was. Eventually I caved in and that's when it became a daily ritual. The higher the doses got, the less effective the drug became and the more prevalent the side effects were.
So eventually I tried to quite cold turkey. BBAAAADDD idea. I couldn't work or do anything productive. By the 6th day of insomnia I hopped back on the Kratom train and sought psychiatric help. The first doc had no idea what to do and gave me .25 dose of klonopin for one week.
The second doc thought I was exaggerating the withdrawals and gave me an SSRI and powerful antihistamine to help me sleep. After 2 days of ineffective hell I wrote the doc an e-mail in hopes of some help. She called me back in. Turns out she did some research and found out I wasn't lying.
Now she's got me on 4mg of Klonopin, so that's 2mg twice a day. It's got me down to 10g of Kratom a day but getting off of it is so friggen hard. I now am at a dose that gives me the positive effects again without the negatives. Another problem is the being on the Benzos created some unforeseen drug seeking behavior. I've scored some other and benzos, shit I never would have done had I been sober, and now am fully engulfed by the positive feelings side of getting high on things recreationally. The thing is, for a guy like me, it never stays recreational. I don't want any full blown Blues or Xan addiction so I want off the Klonopin as fast as possible because I know that's what is engaging my drug seeking behavior. I have all these lame excuses like "life is so boring" and "harder" without drugs but I know they're lies. It's not that bad. I don't know what to do. Any suggestions?