I was going to bump an older thread, but the OP had provided little info on the subject and was no longer a registered user. The thread was old anyway.
I believe I may have ADHD, in fact I feel so strongly about it I'm wanting your experienced opinions (especially from ADHD diagnosed bl'ers!)
At a young age I had issues focusing at school, ended up dropping out at 14. Lots of issues concentrating, and I did have the ADHD tests while I was younger (unsure of results) and for a period I was on zoloft for apparent depression - Although this did nothing for me at the time, even made me sick.
Fast forward to now, Here I am dabbling in drugs.... Have been given dexamphetamine and ritalin by friends recreationally. I have taken a list of Adult ADHD symptoms and described how I believe I experience each and every one of those symptoms (see below).
I had never really thought I may have ADHD until recently taking ice, And just happened to notice I had changed , I was able to take Methamphetamine/dexamphetamine/ritalin and NOT get speedy, I speak slowly, and a lot of the symptoms below are no longer apparent. Normally I am quite loud and can ramble on and talk quite fast. This is what first made me think I am not having a standard stim effect from amphet's, and MAYBE I might have ADHD. Worth investigating as a diagnosis would explain a lot!
After lining up all of the symptoms I feel I fit them all to a 'T' but would appreciate any advice you guys may have for me. I could go a lot further in detail, but will save this for a psyc appointment, I just need to know if it's worth approaching my GP for a referral, 5-10mg oral or smoked methamphetamine negates most of the below mentioned negative effects and appears to have improved on my life so much, I had not even realized that I had such severe ADHD symptoms, and just put it down to depression which I have been diagnosed with (and the meds are not helping on that front, even making me sick)
It's just, if I'm going to be taking amphet's for this issue I would definitely not want to be going down an illegal path to treat an illness, I do realize this means no more recreational amphet's which is fine by me, the only major effect is dry mouth, jaw tension and the ability to stay up if i want to (but yes, I can sleep on it too, which is unusual I hear?)
Below is a list of symptoms I have researched online for Adult ADHD.
Symptoms & How I feel I have them:
1. A sense of underachievement or of not meeting your goals, regardless of how much you have actually accomplished. Yes - Most prominent at work, but thinking about it, it is a factor outside of work.
2. Difficulty getting organised. Yes - Often forgetting simple things like the fact I have no clean clothes for the next day.
3. Chronic procrastination or trouble getting started. Yes - Every morning is a struggle to get out of bed and started, more-so in myself than I have ever heard of in others (my partner, family members, friends..)
4. Many projects going simultaneously, but trouble with follow through. Yes - Often have trouble concentrating on one thing , best example being at work being tasked with 3-4 different things with varying priorities and having trouble focusing on them and completing the work even though I am capable.
5. A tendency to say what comes to mind, without considering the timing or appropriateness of the remark. Yes - This has caused great relationship stress and continues to be an issue. Also has been a problem at work, apparently often frustrating coworkers. I am very sensitive about how I come across, and DO realize when this occurs.
6. Frequently searching for high stimulation. Yes? – Always trying to keep busy, extremely frustrated and angry otherwise.
7. Intolerance of boredom. Yes - Aas above (somewhat) – A good example being last night, Alone and extremely bored, however all of my friends were busy or not going out. I have trouble describing the anger and frustration I feel in a situation like this. (Not so angry at anyone else I suppose, But angry that I’m wasting time?)
8. Easy distractibility, trouble focusing attention or a tendency to tune out or drift away in the middle of a page or a conversation – often coupled with an ability to hyperfocus at times. Yes - Have noticed this in conversations, external noise tends to distract me and has caused issues in both a work and social setting. I have a tendency to also drift off into another subject also, whilst trying to hold a conversation.
9. Often creative, intuitive and highly intelligent. N/A - Will not self describe on this point.
10. Trouble in going through established channels and following 'proper' procedure. Yes? - Unfortunately. No short example to give here.
11. Impatient; low tolerance of frustration. YES – As per question #7, frustration often leads to anger (unsure at whom), but I have lashed out for no apparent reason.
12. Impulsiveness, either verbally or in action, eg impulsive spending of money, changing plans or enacting new schemes or career plans; hot-tempered. Yes – Impulsive spending of money. Also changing plans frequently, often affecting other people.
13. A tendency to worry needlessly, endlessly; a tendency to scan the horizon looking for something to worry about, alternating with inattention or disregard for actual dangers. Yes? – Unsure how to answer this one in text format though.
14. A sense of insecurity. – Yes - Especially in a social setting. Worried people are judging me, and the little things eg: thinking people looking at me and judging me on the way I look (body weight, but even little things like If I happen to have facial hair at the time, or if I am due for a haircut etc..)
15. Mood swings, especially when disengaged from a person or a project. – Yes – Extreme mood swings, often impacting on my relationship, coupled with symptom #5 this has caused major issues between myself and my partner.
16. Physical or mental restlessness. Yes – Feeling like I must keep moving or doing something always. Scratching my arm, cracking my knuckles/neck/back.
17. A tendency toward addictive behaviour. N/A – Not sure how I can accurately self answer this question at this point in time.
18. Chronic problems with self-esteem. Yes – Major self-esteem issues, social awkwardness/anxiety to a point I suppose….. Very self conscious about my body weight and appearance.
19. Inaccurate self-observation. N/A – Definitely not something I can comment on myself, being a self-observation and all.
20. Family history of ADHD or manic-depressive illness, depression, substance misuse or other mood disorders. Yes – My mother has had a battle with depression for years. My father has quite an aggressive personality. No known substance use in family.
I believe I may have ADHD, in fact I feel so strongly about it I'm wanting your experienced opinions (especially from ADHD diagnosed bl'ers!)
At a young age I had issues focusing at school, ended up dropping out at 14. Lots of issues concentrating, and I did have the ADHD tests while I was younger (unsure of results) and for a period I was on zoloft for apparent depression - Although this did nothing for me at the time, even made me sick.
Fast forward to now, Here I am dabbling in drugs.... Have been given dexamphetamine and ritalin by friends recreationally. I have taken a list of Adult ADHD symptoms and described how I believe I experience each and every one of those symptoms (see below).
I had never really thought I may have ADHD until recently taking ice, And just happened to notice I had changed , I was able to take Methamphetamine/dexamphetamine/ritalin and NOT get speedy, I speak slowly, and a lot of the symptoms below are no longer apparent. Normally I am quite loud and can ramble on and talk quite fast. This is what first made me think I am not having a standard stim effect from amphet's, and MAYBE I might have ADHD. Worth investigating as a diagnosis would explain a lot!
After lining up all of the symptoms I feel I fit them all to a 'T' but would appreciate any advice you guys may have for me. I could go a lot further in detail, but will save this for a psyc appointment, I just need to know if it's worth approaching my GP for a referral, 5-10mg oral or smoked methamphetamine negates most of the below mentioned negative effects and appears to have improved on my life so much, I had not even realized that I had such severe ADHD symptoms, and just put it down to depression which I have been diagnosed with (and the meds are not helping on that front, even making me sick)
It's just, if I'm going to be taking amphet's for this issue I would definitely not want to be going down an illegal path to treat an illness, I do realize this means no more recreational amphet's which is fine by me, the only major effect is dry mouth, jaw tension and the ability to stay up if i want to (but yes, I can sleep on it too, which is unusual I hear?)
Below is a list of symptoms I have researched online for Adult ADHD.
Symptoms & How I feel I have them:
1. A sense of underachievement or of not meeting your goals, regardless of how much you have actually accomplished. Yes - Most prominent at work, but thinking about it, it is a factor outside of work.
2. Difficulty getting organised. Yes - Often forgetting simple things like the fact I have no clean clothes for the next day.
3. Chronic procrastination or trouble getting started. Yes - Every morning is a struggle to get out of bed and started, more-so in myself than I have ever heard of in others (my partner, family members, friends..)
4. Many projects going simultaneously, but trouble with follow through. Yes - Often have trouble concentrating on one thing , best example being at work being tasked with 3-4 different things with varying priorities and having trouble focusing on them and completing the work even though I am capable.
5. A tendency to say what comes to mind, without considering the timing or appropriateness of the remark. Yes - This has caused great relationship stress and continues to be an issue. Also has been a problem at work, apparently often frustrating coworkers. I am very sensitive about how I come across, and DO realize when this occurs.
6. Frequently searching for high stimulation. Yes? – Always trying to keep busy, extremely frustrated and angry otherwise.
7. Intolerance of boredom. Yes - Aas above (somewhat) – A good example being last night, Alone and extremely bored, however all of my friends were busy or not going out. I have trouble describing the anger and frustration I feel in a situation like this. (Not so angry at anyone else I suppose, But angry that I’m wasting time?)
8. Easy distractibility, trouble focusing attention or a tendency to tune out or drift away in the middle of a page or a conversation – often coupled with an ability to hyperfocus at times. Yes - Have noticed this in conversations, external noise tends to distract me and has caused issues in both a work and social setting. I have a tendency to also drift off into another subject also, whilst trying to hold a conversation.
9. Often creative, intuitive and highly intelligent. N/A - Will not self describe on this point.
10. Trouble in going through established channels and following 'proper' procedure. Yes? - Unfortunately. No short example to give here.
11. Impatient; low tolerance of frustration. YES – As per question #7, frustration often leads to anger (unsure at whom), but I have lashed out for no apparent reason.
12. Impulsiveness, either verbally or in action, eg impulsive spending of money, changing plans or enacting new schemes or career plans; hot-tempered. Yes – Impulsive spending of money. Also changing plans frequently, often affecting other people.
13. A tendency to worry needlessly, endlessly; a tendency to scan the horizon looking for something to worry about, alternating with inattention or disregard for actual dangers. Yes? – Unsure how to answer this one in text format though.
14. A sense of insecurity. – Yes - Especially in a social setting. Worried people are judging me, and the little things eg: thinking people looking at me and judging me on the way I look (body weight, but even little things like If I happen to have facial hair at the time, or if I am due for a haircut etc..)
15. Mood swings, especially when disengaged from a person or a project. – Yes – Extreme mood swings, often impacting on my relationship, coupled with symptom #5 this has caused major issues between myself and my partner.
16. Physical or mental restlessness. Yes – Feeling like I must keep moving or doing something always. Scratching my arm, cracking my knuckles/neck/back.
17. A tendency toward addictive behaviour. N/A – Not sure how I can accurately self answer this question at this point in time.
18. Chronic problems with self-esteem. Yes – Major self-esteem issues, social awkwardness/anxiety to a point I suppose….. Very self conscious about my body weight and appearance.
19. Inaccurate self-observation. N/A – Definitely not something I can comment on myself, being a self-observation and all.
20. Family history of ADHD or manic-depressive illness, depression, substance misuse or other mood disorders. Yes – My mother has had a battle with depression for years. My father has quite an aggressive personality. No known substance use in family.
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