For a while I have read the forums and am not new to addiction. I had been 8 years sober form any substances for the most part. I had an alcohol addiction that i kicked in 2007 and was sober until 2015. The only medication I took during this time was Celexa which was prescribed by my doctor for anxiety/ocd issues. Its a small dose once per day that I still take. I am writing this forum to help others who are trying to kick the PST habit seeing there is not too much info on the forums. FIRST of all let me tell you that a PST habit is just as bad and may be even worse than any other opiate habit. This stuff is no joke and not to be dismissed as weak. It is long lasting and sometimes would keep me high well over 16 hours. You are not just taking one substance but about 40 different alkaliods and whatever else is in the seeds including pestisides ect.... Here is my story:
I started using Poppy Seed Tea in the beginning of 2015. It started out like you all know as a once in a while thing on the weekends. It progressed to every weekend, then a few times during the week, then everyday. Once I started using it everyday during the summer of 2015, it became very aparant to my self that I had a problem. If for some reason I didn't use it, or could not get any seeds the withdrawals would start at around the 24 to 36 hour mark. I was scared to death of the withdrawals, so of course I kept using, and upping my dose to around almost 5lbs of quality seeds per day. I wanted to quit sooo bad but, i didn't have any time left to take off at work and knew I may be in for a rough ride for a few days after stopping. So i continued to use until January of 2016 when I had time I could take off from work. I set my date for my last cup of tea for January 6th. I had no idea the withdrawals were going to be so bad.
January 7th - withdrawals starting to kick in but not horrible, able to function at work, some anxiety at night but able to sleep. Yawning excessivly.
January 8th - Woke up in a pool of sweat, horrible anxiety, hot and cold flashes during the day. By evening in the fetal possition in bed rocking back and forth wondering when this will end. Exhausted but unable to sleep. Not able to keep any of my body parts still Symptoms 5X worse than the morning. Wife is concerned over the fact im no really responding to her and my eyes are fully dialated. She drives me to the ER that night which i remember as a big blur. They shoot me up with all sorts of benzos which have 0 effect. Diareaha starts and i shit myself in the hospital bed. Nothing could push through the withdrawal. They tell her im going to be like this for a few days and send me home with a script of Klonopin for 7 days.
January 9th - Another horrible day same as yesterday. Spend the day in the fetal possition rocking back and forth hoping for everything to be over. Klonopin not doing a damn thing. Looking at the clock every 5 minutes. All symptoms still present. NO SLEEP.
January 10th -You guessed it, same as yesterday. At some point over the last day I started to take immodium to stop shitting every hour. NO SLEEP.
January 11th - Feel a little better, Anxiety and stomach issues still present. Cant sit still for more than 5 minutes. NO SLEEP.
January 12th- Feeling a little better each day. NO SLEEP.
For me the no sleep thing seemed to hang on the longest...and never fully resolved itself. In March I relapsed and used for a little over a month before stopping 14 days ago. I used daily but in a lot smaller amounts, no more than 1 1/2 to 2lbs per day. I have to tell you the withdrawals were worse than the 1st time. Had all the same symptoms as above but a little worse. I figured that since I wasnt using alot it would be easier, boy was I wrong. I refused to let my wife bring me anywhere and just rode it out on tylenol and immodium. The worst part is the lack of sleep. I have gone 14 days with little or no sleep. Granted the physical symptoms are gone, but I still can seem to sleep much. 5 days into it this time I caved in and went to my doctor and told her what was going on and that my major issues was with insomnia. She gave me a script for Gabapentin, this helped me relax and sleep the 1st night for a few hours, but hasn't worked since so i stopped taking it after 5 days, seeing that it can have a whole host of withdrawal issues itself if taken to long. Granted it did help me relax and not mind as much not sleeping but I don't want to go through another withdrawal. I have another follow up appointment with the doctor today, I feel good and am fine during the day except for being exhausted and not able to sleep well. I got 2 hours of sleep last night maybe, so i didnt go into work today...just to exhausted to function properly. Will let the doctor know later that the gabapentin not working and see what other solutions she has. I am not interested in taking anything for more that a week tops for sleep. My body cant go through one more withdrawal.....
I will be checking in frequently if anyone was any questions.
January 10
I started using Poppy Seed Tea in the beginning of 2015. It started out like you all know as a once in a while thing on the weekends. It progressed to every weekend, then a few times during the week, then everyday. Once I started using it everyday during the summer of 2015, it became very aparant to my self that I had a problem. If for some reason I didn't use it, or could not get any seeds the withdrawals would start at around the 24 to 36 hour mark. I was scared to death of the withdrawals, so of course I kept using, and upping my dose to around almost 5lbs of quality seeds per day. I wanted to quit sooo bad but, i didn't have any time left to take off at work and knew I may be in for a rough ride for a few days after stopping. So i continued to use until January of 2016 when I had time I could take off from work. I set my date for my last cup of tea for January 6th. I had no idea the withdrawals were going to be so bad.
January 7th - withdrawals starting to kick in but not horrible, able to function at work, some anxiety at night but able to sleep. Yawning excessivly.
January 8th - Woke up in a pool of sweat, horrible anxiety, hot and cold flashes during the day. By evening in the fetal possition in bed rocking back and forth wondering when this will end. Exhausted but unable to sleep. Not able to keep any of my body parts still Symptoms 5X worse than the morning. Wife is concerned over the fact im no really responding to her and my eyes are fully dialated. She drives me to the ER that night which i remember as a big blur. They shoot me up with all sorts of benzos which have 0 effect. Diareaha starts and i shit myself in the hospital bed. Nothing could push through the withdrawal. They tell her im going to be like this for a few days and send me home with a script of Klonopin for 7 days.
January 9th - Another horrible day same as yesterday. Spend the day in the fetal possition rocking back and forth hoping for everything to be over. Klonopin not doing a damn thing. Looking at the clock every 5 minutes. All symptoms still present. NO SLEEP.
January 10th -You guessed it, same as yesterday. At some point over the last day I started to take immodium to stop shitting every hour. NO SLEEP.
January 11th - Feel a little better, Anxiety and stomach issues still present. Cant sit still for more than 5 minutes. NO SLEEP.
January 12th- Feeling a little better each day. NO SLEEP.
For me the no sleep thing seemed to hang on the longest...and never fully resolved itself. In March I relapsed and used for a little over a month before stopping 14 days ago. I used daily but in a lot smaller amounts, no more than 1 1/2 to 2lbs per day. I have to tell you the withdrawals were worse than the 1st time. Had all the same symptoms as above but a little worse. I figured that since I wasnt using alot it would be easier, boy was I wrong. I refused to let my wife bring me anywhere and just rode it out on tylenol and immodium. The worst part is the lack of sleep. I have gone 14 days with little or no sleep. Granted the physical symptoms are gone, but I still can seem to sleep much. 5 days into it this time I caved in and went to my doctor and told her what was going on and that my major issues was with insomnia. She gave me a script for Gabapentin, this helped me relax and sleep the 1st night for a few hours, but hasn't worked since so i stopped taking it after 5 days, seeing that it can have a whole host of withdrawal issues itself if taken to long. Granted it did help me relax and not mind as much not sleeping but I don't want to go through another withdrawal. I have another follow up appointment with the doctor today, I feel good and am fine during the day except for being exhausted and not able to sleep well. I got 2 hours of sleep last night maybe, so i didnt go into work today...just to exhausted to function properly. Will let the doctor know later that the gabapentin not working and see what other solutions she has. I am not interested in taking anything for more that a week tops for sleep. My body cant go through one more withdrawal.....
I will be checking in frequently if anyone was any questions.
January 10
