Poison myself one more time (Drunk)

[Pyro]

Enter, so I can exit
Believe, so I can question
See, so I can sleep
I'm losing faith and I don't want to. Faith in this reality and this life. Faith in sense and truth. Faith in the people around me. It seems there is no one to trust anymore. Did I write my own destiny when I said, "I'm meant to be the loner."
I recall a time of happiness
So far away now
Like the mirage on the distant desert floorline
I always come back to this place, so maybe this is where I'm supposed to be. Maybe here is where I was meant to be and everything else is the lie. The sunlight and the kiss on the lips -- all lies out of the devil's mouth. Cupid is the demon of special design, masked in the Godly cloud of love.
Emotions are poison
Tainting the pictures I see
Running the paint off the paper I used to draw upon
Meaning and fate are false. Having ever believed in those lies brings me shame. I should have been smarter than that, I should have known that the only meaning is what we want to believe. Can't it be like the glimpses I have now and again? When I'm around those kinds of people, the ones that match and mesh, I feel whole. But they never want to mesh or match, they want met to stay away and I cannot blame them. I was meant to be the loner and,
... I don't want to live this life.
Tim - Pyro
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I'm outtie like the saying, "Outtie like bellbottoms"

 

[Pyro]

Oh, and I was drunk when I wrote this.
not faded, but I can't walk straight.
Still holds massive truth.

 

[Pyro]

bump

 

[Vixen]

Very good writing Pyro, you are not the only one, so many other people feel the same as how you do...you are just brave enough to be the one to write it.