Patience

[Ariela]

There are so many attributes that I have to work on
Charity, respect, when to talk and when to be silent
But the hardest thing for me to learn
Is when to stop.
When do I know when to quit?
When do I stop pushing?
When do I know when to wait for what's coming
Or to appreciate what's going?
I've lost a lot because of this
Not knowing what the answers are and not waiting for them to come to me
But this is something I can't stand not knowing
I can't stand losing control to chance.

 

[HakunaMatata]

Woah!!!!!!! Ariela, you did it again!!! This beautiful poem thoroughly describes the Fire Dragon, Leo, in me. I have a dire need to be in control of my on destiny, which often implies to me, that I absolutely MUST know what the destination is, both long term and short term.
It hasn't helped this far. Every new day still ends up being a surprise. Some good ones, some bad.
I have mixed feelings about your poem. A part of me wants to say that although you should always mind what you speak, you should always speak your mind. I don't believe in societal rules and regulations. I don't believe in The Guide to Proper Timing. I belive in being, however I am right now.
I still don't know whether it's a good or a bad thing. But at the end of the night, I go to sleep knowing that even though I've managed to piss off a lot of people, I've still remained true to myself. And in the end, the closest of my buddies, the people closest to my heart, see me for who I am, and love me with it, because of it, and inspite of it.
There's only ONE Dana. Why sacrifice her to societal norms? Break a rule...specially the meanigless ones. It's us crazy ones that end up with the most interesting lives.
Loads of loves,
-Amina
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[Ariela]

Thanks Amina. As usual, you make me feel great.

And I'm a week off from being a Leo - maybe that's a cusp effect?
Mostly, what I was talking about with this is the fact that I push, push, PUSH in situations where my persistance actually hurts. There's nothing to be gained by trying so hard, and if I would be more patient I'd have a lot better response. As it is, I seem obsessive and drive people away.
I too believe in speaking my mind. Heck, if you're around me for five minutes you know how I feel about anything you want to know. But I think there's an arguement to be made for taking things as they come, at least to a point. That's what I'm struggling with. Kind of like the Serenity Prayer,....accepting things you can't change and having the wisdom to know the difference.