Panic attack from any psychoactive substance / PTSD after bad exp

[kingqueen1]

Well its not like its the first thread on this subject but still, im more here to know if there people who after having a trauma following a bad experience with drugs recovered from it and what they understood, little short story i was heavy drug user for many years, did plenty of acid, two years of mxe almost daily and had quite a lot of almost overdosing situation when i didnt suffer almost any panic attack, well i quite stopped my usage after leaving my country for work and had a binge on amphetamine there that ended by a big trauma, it was the usual comedown of amphetamine, alone, tachychardia, visual deformation and fear of dying i was quite not prepare to that compare to the fact i always had benzo for comindown and i just was smoking spliff on spliff of high thc weed which after this i realised that made everything just so much worse , i went to emergency this day , first time in my life and even got nothing the same day to come down just a prescription for zdrugs to sleep for next day so well i could survive and feel safer just by being surrounded, anyways in a period of two mouths after things started to get really hard to manage having almost a full blown panic attack from any substance even for a tiny bit of weed and then alchohol, so well after making some research i realise there was some part of the unconscious part of brain who was definitly changed and react in flight or fight mode all the time, all this say if there any people experienced kind of the same pattern, what did you do to get out of this.
At this time i can manage the stress and not having almost any panic attack but there is many triggering situation that made me feel really anxious which was not in my nature before. Doing lot of meditation that i was doing for a while already but visibly got disconnected from it and well life bring you where u need to be so it did happen for a reason but the healing price is hard to pay. Thanks you for reading , Namaste

 

[Moreaux]

I think you should take a long break from any drug. A lot of this should get better with time.

 

[w0w0mg]

I agree with Benzo girl.
You need to let your brain heal.
Try to stay away from substances for a while and it will get better.
That's really the best thing you could do for now.

 

[kingqueen1]

Thanks for the answer I'm currently of any drugs alcohol or weed since 6mouths it indeed get better because these three are trigger of the anxiety so it been really easy to stop them but I can see it not healed

 

[FordRiverFailed]

I've done DMT, LSD, MDMA, and Mushrooms more times than I could even begin to count and yes, after about 3 years of being a psychonaught, I eventually became an opiate addict because of the stress. I'm not saying these drugs are bad, I'm saying me going to 100 festivals and doing them all the time was bad. They can be useful if used sparingly. Also, I'm 45 days clean off of a six year heroin addiction so go me, but yes I can absolutely relate to what you feel.

Here is the good news, I abstained from psychs for about 8 months, and those symptoms have almost all gone away. However, I did tell a psychiatrist everything and he prescribed me a regiment of benzos. He said I needed to let my brain rest. Don't know if that helps you, and I think it would have been fine in time without them, just more uncomfortable. A friend of mine who did these things with me had a full on schizophrenic break so I consider myself lucky. He will not recover, he will only manage from now on. Take a break while your ahead so you can enjoy them again on day.

just one psychonaughts opinion,
Cheers and well wishes

 

[kingqueen1]

Thanks you for the message Ford, and well i do have some benzo in case which was really helpful at some time, hopefully i didnt abuse them and well they are not an healing tools for sure but help when there werent any option to calm myself down. I forgot to say that i went twice in India in a 4mouths period , short story i would have stay there but i had a bike accident and had to comeback to heal myself and then went back, i dont know if it was a smart move but the second trip i just went for two weeks and i was really weak mentally and physically, but well it was a long time i had this dream to go there and had been working for it so i guess the urge to go was too powerfull, however there were lot of teaching there but lot of stress, India is not an easy country to be on your own when u are kind of hypochondria but well it did show my limits, anyways at the moment i mange the anxiety much more than some mouths ago but im quite motivated for doing nothing or seeing people so staying in bed 80% of the day isnt really "healthy", good thing is i could get my room at my mom place for a mouth so im starting planning a kind of healthy mouth to go throw, with some yoga session for exercising, meditation and start to a heat a bit more healthy and see how it goes, Namaste

 

[herbavore]

kingqueen, it sounds like you are on the right path--staying away from drugs, taking care of your mind and body. Have you ever considered trying to do some kind of focused therapy for anxiety? There are many therapies that can help such as CBT, mindfulness and even talk therapy in general if getting to the roots of the feelings is difficult for you.

 

[kingqueen1]

Well i dont know if it make sense but i never be much up to have classical therapy i went threw a lot of psychological and spiritual path if i can say by meditation mostly with and without psychs, now it without for sure, but well all that say im for being honest in a period where there is no much answer coming, so there probably a deeper being quiet that it asked if i can say, i feel really tired mentally and physically so for now i try to look day by day but im not closed by therapy in any way it just didnt shown on my road yet so i try to do with what coming and the energy i have at disposal, ill check about CBT because i have no clue on what it is, thanks for the answer herbavore, good day !