So I’ve tagged heroin but this is about several depressants really. Lately I’ve just developed this deep seated paranoia around resp depression, especially since I’ve been using different drugs in the same day sometimes — though I wouldn’t say “combining”. So I have a few questions that I have working ideas of but I’m looking for input on it. I relapsed recently but back in the day I didn’t deal with this issue as much, except with genuine close calls — though I am prone to anxiety since I am diagnosed with generalised anxiety disorder.
So today for example I was doing some GBL this morning. Three hours after the last dose (dosed multiple times from 2am, my sleep schedule is a mess/nonexistant since I stay up for ages doing drugs) I felt sober and felt like I’d left enough time to smoke some gear slowly. My high is ruined though — and I’m not getting the euphoria I want — because I’m not smoking enough, because I’m so paranoid about breathing, because I feel like I’m combining depressants. Like there’s some G lurking in me that is going to suddenly result in severe depression. But if I’m no longer feeling active effects from the G, and I’m beyond the window that effects last, even if my body is still processing it out, then it’s not having any significant effect on my CNS right? So surely I should be fine smoking pretty much like normal? It’s been over four hours since I did it at this point! But the anxiety of course makes me feel like I can’t breathe and I intellectually know this but still worry. A couple of days ago I smoked into the early afternoon, left a good 7 hours and did some pregabs. Logically, I know the high from smoking gear doesn’t last that long and I was sober when I did the pregabs, still worried about it. It wasn’t until I’d fully peaked on the second pill I took an hour in (and instantly regretted anxiety wise, though the high was great in the end) that I felt safe, the whole time before I was drowning in anxiety. After that I was fine and ended up redosing and feeling great for the night (had gone a few days without pregabs and tolerance had dropped). It takes me personally about 2 and a half hours to peak off them though so that was three and a half hours of worrying I was gonna die which isn’t fun and I live alone which doesn’t help.
Also, I get paranoid when I’m not even very high, like I’m completely functional and you wouldn’t even know I’ve been smoking talking to me but the paranoia stops me from getting to where I want sometimes. I wouldn’t be at danger of serious respiratory depression if I’m not like, pretty fucked up right? Like if I’m not nodding, I’m walking about, maybe quite high but completely functional, there should not be any significant resp depression right? The other day I stayed up and did the pregabs cause I was afraid of sleeping after the gear, like I thought I’d stop breathing in my sleep. I’ve had that before back in the day when I was injecting, but I was actively nodding out heavily. Now I’m basically sober, only smoking, not smoked for hours and I get it…
Also also, I’ve become paranoid about my heart rate while using depressants. Worrying about high heart rate is an old standby of mine and a big part of why I can’t smoke weed anymore/ why I always hated stims. Now I’ve unlocked a new fear as a result of buying a bloody Apple Watch. When I do opiates or GBL, opiates most of all, my heart gets REAL slow. This is obviously a normal effect, but I’m talking like 41 bpm resting sometimes if I’m really high and laying on my bed. Apple Watch is quite accurate but I’ve double checked this manually too and still found it in high 40’s, obvi rises a bit checking it though. My normal heart rate is in the 60’s resting, is so low something to be concerned about, it definitely would be sober but I have no idea what others people’s heart rates are on these drugs? I feel fine when it’s this low until I notice and worry, not lightheaded, no chest pain, can get up and do stuff fine. Anyone else get their heart rate so low with these drugs? I suppose it might have always been like that but never noticed, my watch kept giving me notifications about bradycardia though until I changed the threshold to 40. I know they slow your heart rate, but that seems extreme.
This whole thread is just me being an anxious wreck, but that’s a big part of what I’m trying to eliminate doing these drugs, I’m frustrated that it’s beginning to ruin them for me, at least at points. Anyone have any input on doing another depressant on the same day but when the first has worn off, resp depression generally or the low heart rate?
Feel like my threads don’t get that much attention
but I’d really appreciate some advice here even if this post is a bit of a rambling mess.
So today for example I was doing some GBL this morning. Three hours after the last dose (dosed multiple times from 2am, my sleep schedule is a mess/nonexistant since I stay up for ages doing drugs) I felt sober and felt like I’d left enough time to smoke some gear slowly. My high is ruined though — and I’m not getting the euphoria I want — because I’m not smoking enough, because I’m so paranoid about breathing, because I feel like I’m combining depressants. Like there’s some G lurking in me that is going to suddenly result in severe depression. But if I’m no longer feeling active effects from the G, and I’m beyond the window that effects last, even if my body is still processing it out, then it’s not having any significant effect on my CNS right? So surely I should be fine smoking pretty much like normal? It’s been over four hours since I did it at this point! But the anxiety of course makes me feel like I can’t breathe and I intellectually know this but still worry. A couple of days ago I smoked into the early afternoon, left a good 7 hours and did some pregabs. Logically, I know the high from smoking gear doesn’t last that long and I was sober when I did the pregabs, still worried about it. It wasn’t until I’d fully peaked on the second pill I took an hour in (and instantly regretted anxiety wise, though the high was great in the end) that I felt safe, the whole time before I was drowning in anxiety. After that I was fine and ended up redosing and feeling great for the night (had gone a few days without pregabs and tolerance had dropped). It takes me personally about 2 and a half hours to peak off them though so that was three and a half hours of worrying I was gonna die which isn’t fun and I live alone which doesn’t help.
Also, I get paranoid when I’m not even very high, like I’m completely functional and you wouldn’t even know I’ve been smoking talking to me but the paranoia stops me from getting to where I want sometimes. I wouldn’t be at danger of serious respiratory depression if I’m not like, pretty fucked up right? Like if I’m not nodding, I’m walking about, maybe quite high but completely functional, there should not be any significant resp depression right? The other day I stayed up and did the pregabs cause I was afraid of sleeping after the gear, like I thought I’d stop breathing in my sleep. I’ve had that before back in the day when I was injecting, but I was actively nodding out heavily. Now I’m basically sober, only smoking, not smoked for hours and I get it…
Also also, I’ve become paranoid about my heart rate while using depressants. Worrying about high heart rate is an old standby of mine and a big part of why I can’t smoke weed anymore/ why I always hated stims. Now I’ve unlocked a new fear as a result of buying a bloody Apple Watch. When I do opiates or GBL, opiates most of all, my heart gets REAL slow. This is obviously a normal effect, but I’m talking like 41 bpm resting sometimes if I’m really high and laying on my bed. Apple Watch is quite accurate but I’ve double checked this manually too and still found it in high 40’s, obvi rises a bit checking it though. My normal heart rate is in the 60’s resting, is so low something to be concerned about, it definitely would be sober but I have no idea what others people’s heart rates are on these drugs? I feel fine when it’s this low until I notice and worry, not lightheaded, no chest pain, can get up and do stuff fine. Anyone else get their heart rate so low with these drugs? I suppose it might have always been like that but never noticed, my watch kept giving me notifications about bradycardia though until I changed the threshold to 40. I know they slow your heart rate, but that seems extreme.
This whole thread is just me being an anxious wreck, but that’s a big part of what I’m trying to eliminate doing these drugs, I’m frustrated that it’s beginning to ruin them for me, at least at points. Anyone have any input on doing another depressant on the same day but when the first has worn off, resp depression generally or the low heart rate?
Feel like my threads don’t get that much attention
but I’d really appreciate some advice here even if this post is a bit of a rambling mess.
