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[toobad17043]

I had surgery on my back almost 3 years past. I was put on OxyContin and Oxycodone for lingering pain. Somewhere along the line my back felt better but i kept getting refills. I'd run out early all the time because I was abusing them. I'd tell them my back felt worse and they'd up the dosage.

After a while I was prescribed 80 mg OxyContin twice daily and 5 mg oxycodone 2 pills every four hours. I abused those as well and on some days was taking over 400mg a day.

My insurance changed and they'd no longer cover that pain med so I was switched to 100mg moriphine ER twice daily with 15mg IR 1 every 4 hours.

Now I'm finally ready to quit. I tried tapering myself down. I got down to 1 100mg pill every 36 hours. After they were gone I took 2 15s 8 hours apart. Waited twelve more hours took 1 15 mg pill and now I'm all out.

I'm white knuckling this at home, but someone told me it was really stupid and that the amount I was on and how long meant I needed to detox with doctors because I was at risk of dying. I'm reluctant to go the hospital. I'm a single parent of a 15 year old and I don't want to shame him. On the other hand I don't want to leave him without a father either.

 

[Cdkman]

U will not die from opiate withdrawal..u could find a few suboxone/subutex or go cold turkey like your doing..there are comfort meds out there to make the withdrawal easier..u can search here on blue light, there is tons of info..don't be shameful if u need help

 

[Cosmic Trigger]

I second what the poster above said. You're not going to die so the goal then is just to make it as painless as possible. There are a lot of things that will help and you have the guts to go through the rest. Attitude is huge in this so if you take it on like a supreme challenge to find out what you are made of things will go very well for you and you'll come out stronger for the whole of the experience. Take it on man. You'll win. Happy fourth.

I'd suggest letting your son in on the experience. He'll learn a lot about life and about who you are. Make the most of this and squeeze every drop of benefit you can from this tough situation. Whatever you both learn from this will help you in the future because life is constantly throwing shit at us and you both will become closer and strengthen the bond between you. It's a golden opportunity IMO.

 

[Phil.McKeer]

Yeah OP, I can't stress enough, as the other two BLers have mentioned, opioid withdrawal is not lethal. There is absolutely no way you can die from it. It is very uncomfortable, though.

If you can't source more to continue tapering, then your best bet is a rapid buprenorphine taper (you DON'T need to use it for a long time; I think its best used as a rapid taper of about 7-14 days, starting at ~8mgs or so, and ending at ~0.25mgs). Barring buprenorphine, you can look into other comfort meds, of which gabapentin/pregabalin are probably the most useful, followed by benzos for sleep, followed by clonidine and cannabis.

There is also loperamide (be careful with this one as it can have a harmful effect on your heart).

Just search through Bluelight threads regarding opioid withdrawal; its been done to death. The entire human compendium of knowledge regarding withdrawal meds and techniques is at your disposal using the search function.

Good luck, OP. Also, consider starting a thread regarding your withdrawal to get support from the BL community. Not only will you get some valued socialization/support, but it will also keep you accountable.

Feel free to PM me if you need anything else/have any questions. I've detoxed myself at home from a nasty 2 year heroin habit.

 

[Moreaux]

I agree with Cosmic Trigger - let your son know what's going on. It will give him an opportunity to learn a new perspective towards drugs/medications, and he will be included in an important, possibly difficult part of your life. There is no shame in what you hve done or are doing. Opiates are very addictive medications - it is not a weakness or personal failing on your part. He may be faced with a similar experience in his future, and he will be able to draw strength and knowledge from this experience. He is a link regarding supportive medications for opiate withdrawal, but there are so many more on this site so feel free to query. Good luck!

http://www.bluelight.org/vb/threads/475984-Best-drugs-to-take-during-opiate-withdrawal

 

[deadendgame]

plz only take the minimal amount to reduce your pain