LucidSDreamr
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I would like some views on this topic.
I currently am in recovery. I haven't abused drugs or alcohol for a month and am working with a 1 on 1 recovery counselor and going to meetings.
However, I am dealing with a painful flare of what is probably bladder damage from ketamine and other drug use (this was the thing that made me fully re-commit to recovery)
I have 10 mg hydrocodones, I give the script to my wife and she keeps in a safe i don't have access to (this was all my idea because i don't trust myself). She gives me 1 or two 10s a day when i'm having bad pain. I usually only take 5-10mg a day when in pain but yesterday had to have 20mg and lyrica. These pills are reserved for my back which has a history of surgery and chronic pain, though luckily it has been pain free for 6 months or so, que the bladder pain of course!
I find myself confused about how much pain i should just take and to what level it should be at to require hydrocodone. I'm so used to never feeling pain at all because i would just take a bunch of opioids in the past at even the slightest bothersome pain. I feel like i might still have that mindset somewhat, like when my bladder is bothering me but not killing me I take 5 mg to eliminate it.
I never have enough in my possession to get truly high, but taking my 20 mg all at once and lying and saying to my wife i took througout the day at work has crossed my mind. So has saying i took them each day and saving them up for a big dose to get high off of. I have had the determination not to pull such things yet. Honestly when i have a painful condition I'm very good at conserving opioids, its when I'm pain free and have them around that problems arise.
I'm more just wondering about the issue of standing pain vs. taking opioids to treat it and how that relates to recovery thoughts?
I currently am in recovery. I haven't abused drugs or alcohol for a month and am working with a 1 on 1 recovery counselor and going to meetings.
However, I am dealing with a painful flare of what is probably bladder damage from ketamine and other drug use (this was the thing that made me fully re-commit to recovery)
I have 10 mg hydrocodones, I give the script to my wife and she keeps in a safe i don't have access to (this was all my idea because i don't trust myself). She gives me 1 or two 10s a day when i'm having bad pain. I usually only take 5-10mg a day when in pain but yesterday had to have 20mg and lyrica. These pills are reserved for my back which has a history of surgery and chronic pain, though luckily it has been pain free for 6 months or so, que the bladder pain of course!
I find myself confused about how much pain i should just take and to what level it should be at to require hydrocodone. I'm so used to never feeling pain at all because i would just take a bunch of opioids in the past at even the slightest bothersome pain. I feel like i might still have that mindset somewhat, like when my bladder is bothering me but not killing me I take 5 mg to eliminate it.
I never have enough in my possession to get truly high, but taking my 20 mg all at once and lying and saying to my wife i took througout the day at work has crossed my mind. So has saying i took them each day and saving them up for a big dose to get high off of. I have had the determination not to pull such things yet. Honestly when i have a painful condition I'm very good at conserving opioids, its when I'm pain free and have them around that problems arise.
I'm more just wondering about the issue of standing pain vs. taking opioids to treat it and how that relates to recovery thoughts?