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Mental Health Off My Meds On The Down Low. Bipolar Insanity, Manic Freedom...

ThatSpaceyKid

ThatSpaceyKid

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It has been 2 weeks since I have taken my Seroquel. Lately I have replaced modern pharmaceutical crap with Trashy Street Made Crystal Meth. I am on a binge again missed doing this... But anyways everyone thinks I am taking my pills all the time and that those times when something wasn't right it was from the Seroquel ;).. I found it to be dangerous though to use Crystal Meth, Seroquel, and Heroin the main reason I split up with the Seroquel...

The other thing is... That it kills my tweak and I fucking hate that..... I wake up so bitchy and almost faint in the shower... I noticed a difference.. I have 2 low days now, 1 extreme low to the point of hopelessness days, and 4 Days with highs staying awake feeling AMAZING. ... Whereas I had 5 low days, 1 high day. And one anger filled day before...Probably delusions, or mania making me feel high as the sky... I don't know anymore now Anxiety. Adrenaline, and almost fainting brings euphoria that's enjoyed.. I literally have days where I am high from what ever induces mania noticeably.. I could be greatful if I wasn't so damn sensitive...

Now I do what I want to again :) I have been going out and using several days whenever. I have ceased Heroin use for now.. so I feel good from that. But above all living life free, tweaking, being the bad guy, doing stupid shit, forgetting I did stupid shit, smoking weed, and LIVING without the "Mood Stabalizers" or Antipsychotics... Tranquilizers!!

Only negative effects are that I binge. I don't sleep. I feel depressed some days, and no more fainting or ringing of the ears.
 
Spacey, this feels more like a blog?

You have quite a few threads about your meth binges and most of them don't really belong in the Recovery Forums because you are not asking for advice on how to quit, how to recover or how best to tackle the mental health issues that make it so appealing to you. Am I missing something? Are you looking for that kind of advice from people when you post them here?

I'd like to hear your response so I'm leaving this open for now. But if what you want is to talk about how great the meth binges are, you are probably better off with a blog.;)
 
herbavore said:
Spacey, this feels more like a blog

You have quite a few threads about your meth binges and most of them don't really belong in the Recovery Forums because you are not asking for advice on how to quit, how to recover or how best to tackle the mental health issues that make it so appealing to you. Am I missing something? Are you looking for that kind of advice from people when you post them here?

I'd like to hear your response so I'm leaving this open for now. But if what you want is to talk about how great the meth binges are, you are probably better off with a blog.;)
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Honestly that's what I'm posting about.. Like the meds make it all worse. But the Meth relieves everything. If that makes sense. I just get to creative when tweaked
 
Bipolar and meth is a terrible combo unless your goal is to end up in jail or the psych ward.
 
My psychiatrist gave me Serenata initially then a mood stabilizer called Quinolone after I started talking too fast and becoming restless.
 
cengsuz said:
My psychiatrist gave me Serenata initially then a mood stabilizer called Quinolone after I started talking too fast and becoming restless.
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Read my mind.... I also have that problem of talking to fast and not sleeping/sitting still. Seroquel isn't enough... Still raging and being manic. Now it's Lithium and Psychotherapy....
 
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