runawayfromhim
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- Dec 17, 2013
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Hi everyone. I've never posted here before but I desperately need advice on a situation I'm currently in.
Back in September I took two tabs of 25I-NBOMe at once with 3 of my friends and at first were having a great time but about 2 hours in I began to act weirdly. Out of my three friends two of them are in a relationship with each other and I began to get lost in their conversations that were just between themselves. Then it got progressively weirder. When they'd kiss I'd make kissy faces to myself, when they whispered I'd whisper to myself. I believe in essence I became my friend.
Then we talked it through. I have no romantic interest in my friend's girlfriend but it's hard to argue that after what I've just been through and I perfectly understand that. But everything's okay. However when we're hanging out together, I focus so hard on not repeating those past mistakes that I always seems so tense and nervous and focus really hard on appearing okay that I dont really appear okay, if you know what I mean. I constantly feel like I'm under a microscope around them and that all my actions are being observed and interpreted.
Those three friends mean the world to me and I'd be devastated if our friendship ended over something like a bad trip and me not being able to behave relaxed around them. Therefore I need your advice. Why did this happen? How can I clear my mind and disregard what happened in order to find relation and peace around these friends? Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Andrew
Back in September I took two tabs of 25I-NBOMe at once with 3 of my friends and at first were having a great time but about 2 hours in I began to act weirdly. Out of my three friends two of them are in a relationship with each other and I began to get lost in their conversations that were just between themselves. Then it got progressively weirder. When they'd kiss I'd make kissy faces to myself, when they whispered I'd whisper to myself. I believe in essence I became my friend.
Then we talked it through. I have no romantic interest in my friend's girlfriend but it's hard to argue that after what I've just been through and I perfectly understand that. But everything's okay. However when we're hanging out together, I focus so hard on not repeating those past mistakes that I always seems so tense and nervous and focus really hard on appearing okay that I dont really appear okay, if you know what I mean. I constantly feel like I'm under a microscope around them and that all my actions are being observed and interpreted.
Those three friends mean the world to me and I'd be devastated if our friendship ended over something like a bad trip and me not being able to behave relaxed around them. Therefore I need your advice. Why did this happen? How can I clear my mind and disregard what happened in order to find relation and peace around these friends? Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Andrew
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