Dcole461
Bluelighter
Ive pretty much run out of the desire to live. I'm writing this as I'm supposed to be working.
Long story short as Ive tried everything else and dont expect this to help either, I moved here for a guy, did everything for him. I wasnt perfect, I cheated, but I still supported him financially and made it possible for him to finish school. I lived with constant threats of divorce (even before I cheated but I was blinded by love).
This whole experience drained everything I had in me. Despite my flaws, I know I gave everything and I have the literal scars to prove it. And he just walked away. He has a boyfriend now and wont even help me pay for the divorce.
I want to go back home but I dont have the financial resources. Im also bipolar and wouldnt have health insurance back home. Im quase addicted to meth... as in I only ever have the desire to do it here, never when Im home.
Anyway, I guess that wasnt really short, and if you actually read it all, actually respond, or actually have some words to get me to keep going, Id actually want to.
I am living now for the sole purpose of not hurting my parents... but that just means, in reality, I died a long time ago.
Help? Please...
Long story short as Ive tried everything else and dont expect this to help either, I moved here for a guy, did everything for him. I wasnt perfect, I cheated, but I still supported him financially and made it possible for him to finish school. I lived with constant threats of divorce (even before I cheated but I was blinded by love).
This whole experience drained everything I had in me. Despite my flaws, I know I gave everything and I have the literal scars to prove it. And he just walked away. He has a boyfriend now and wont even help me pay for the divorce.
I want to go back home but I dont have the financial resources. Im also bipolar and wouldnt have health insurance back home. Im quase addicted to meth... as in I only ever have the desire to do it here, never when Im home.
Anyway, I guess that wasnt really short, and if you actually read it all, actually respond, or actually have some words to get me to keep going, Id actually want to.
I am living now for the sole purpose of not hurting my parents... but that just means, in reality, I died a long time ago.
Help? Please...