Nihilist

[Mysticalis]

*Note* this poem and Mind Warped were written a year ago, during a bout of depression resulting from a lonely life in college, without friends, companions, or acquaintances. Read on...
Sometimes I wonder
What would it be like?
What would it be like if I never was?
If I never was, I'd be free
Free of guilt
Free of pain
Free of failure
If I never was, I'd be perfect
Yet, here I am
Born, alive,and breathing
How Ironic it is, that in my existance
I am nothing
I have no importance
No meaning
No purpose
Other than to be another living, breathing wretch
On this acrid God-forsaken world
Sometimes I wonder
What would it be like?
What would it be like if I never was?
If I never was, I'd be happy

 

[cherub]

Thank you so much for sharing this even if it was from a year ago,, you probably look back and see the growth you been gone through since then.
I do know that feeling, I been there where loniness inpalls your souls and eats away.
but as you I got through it and moved on.
I hope others learn there is alight at the end of the tunnel and loneliness is not the finally ending.

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Just takes one angel to change a life
~~~~CHERUB~~~~
Aka: Mommyhen
~I still belive in your eyes~-Gigi D'Agostino

 

[Mysticalis]

Thank you Cherub

I read that while i posted it and I'm surprised I wrote it. I've come a long way since then, so I'm glad I kept that part of my life recorded, as it gives me something to measure my progression with.