damnigothooked
Greenlighter
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- Jun 5, 2014
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Greetings,
I am a 33 year old female who had some serious operations two years ago. I suffer from severe joint pain/damage and had some scripts for oxy 15's... My whole life I never had a problem then BOOM I need the shit everyday now. I am an executive with a family and feel so disappointed in myself...
The problem is, I have told my doctors and family and I don't take enough to warrant serious intervention. I take about 60-70mg of hydro or oxycodone per day. First morning is 20-30 then chasing ghosts after that.
I would feel like an idiot in recovery because lets be real... There is minimal dependency, mostly addiction emotionally. As I move forward and the weeks go by, that tolerance creeps up fast and I am taking more and more. They have cracked down so much I have to buy them and it is a minimum of $40 day habit now and growing. That is just maintenance.
I see a pain management doc next week and we will talk about everything- The surgery I had doesn't allow me to take any form of NSAID either oral, or injected. It causes systemic issues. I have a med card with this info but regular docs blow me off to a drug seeker even before I was a damn drug seeker. My options are limited.
I am hoping the pain management doc will either keep me on maintenance or titrate me down safely and offer up an alternative for pain, which I would then have to go to recovery for my own personal sanity.
Look, I know I sound stupid and I have read a lot on here and people are really into serious stuff, but it starts here and I know where this road leads. Especially since I don't want to stop, I function better and get more done and even make better decisions while on Opiates. They work so well for so many things. I don't know what to do...
Thanks for reading and please help...
I am a 33 year old female who had some serious operations two years ago. I suffer from severe joint pain/damage and had some scripts for oxy 15's... My whole life I never had a problem then BOOM I need the shit everyday now. I am an executive with a family and feel so disappointed in myself...
The problem is, I have told my doctors and family and I don't take enough to warrant serious intervention. I take about 60-70mg of hydro or oxycodone per day. First morning is 20-30 then chasing ghosts after that.
I would feel like an idiot in recovery because lets be real... There is minimal dependency, mostly addiction emotionally. As I move forward and the weeks go by, that tolerance creeps up fast and I am taking more and more. They have cracked down so much I have to buy them and it is a minimum of $40 day habit now and growing. That is just maintenance.
I see a pain management doc next week and we will talk about everything- The surgery I had doesn't allow me to take any form of NSAID either oral, or injected. It causes systemic issues. I have a med card with this info but regular docs blow me off to a drug seeker even before I was a damn drug seeker. My options are limited.
I am hoping the pain management doc will either keep me on maintenance or titrate me down safely and offer up an alternative for pain, which I would then have to go to recovery for my own personal sanity.
Look, I know I sound stupid and I have read a lot on here and people are really into serious stuff, but it starts here and I know where this road leads. Especially since I don't want to stop, I function better and get more done and even make better decisions while on Opiates. They work so well for so many things. I don't know what to do...
Thanks for reading and please help...
