New member. I have chronic pain and rx opiates but I’m also an addict.

[SummerWinter]

Hi everyone. New here.

I found this website through a search engine when looking for info on withdrawing from opiates. I’ve been lurking for a couple years when I need help or info on drugs. I live in the USA.

I am currently prescribed Norco 10/325, Baclofen 50mg, klonipin 1mg. Also taking meds for depression and PTSD. I’ve tried various types of drugs, but pain pills are my drug of choice. I have scoliosis, 4 bulging discs, and arthritis in my neck. It hurts near constantly to the point that I just cry or feel like I’m going to throw up. I’ve tried many other therapies through the years, but it seems drugs are the only relief I get. But I’m also and addict so I always over do it, use too much, then run dry at the end of the month. I am desperate and have no idea what to do.

 

[negrogesic]

Welcome to bluelight, what is your daily hydrocodone dose?

Everyone hates this answer but I always bring it up: methadone. It is a dirty word and logistically a pain but it is an option for someone who persistently finds significant difficulty in getting enough pain medicine (with associated reduction in quality of life). Very tricky call in the end but it is option that few realize is there.

 

[Robi]

Hi everyone. New here.

I found this website through a search engine when looking for info on withdrawing from opiates. I’ve been lurking for a couple years when I need help or info on drugs. I live in the USA.

I am currently prescribed Norco 10/325, Baclofen 50mg, klonipin 1mg. Also taking meds for depression and PTSD. I’ve tried various types of drugs, but pain pills are my drug of choice. I have scoliosis, 4 bulging discs, and arthritis in my neck. It hurts near constantly to the point that I just cry or feel like I’m going to throw up. I’ve tried many other therapies through the years, but it seems drugs are the only relief I get. But I’m also and addict so I always over do it, use too much, then run dry at the end of the month. I am desperate and have no idea what to do.

so much respect for your honesty, i know many who are not and are drug abusers, looking down on street folks tho everyone is addicted to the same thing but different derivatives, again welcome, you can gain alot here, lurker or not as you know, and help will come

 

[Nurse Ratched]

Hi @SummerWinter , glad you posted her in NMI and welcome to the crowd.

Getting Norco, baclofen and klonopin these days is a win win as most people would consider you lucky. Of course the downside is when we get them monthly , and like to get high, it can become a recipe for disaster.

From my observations ( and my own experience ) I have found that once we start running out we are off to the races. We will never stop running out as we will always take more than prescribed because we like the euphoria that opioids produce. The only way to really solve this is by having a trusted family member hold your script and give you your meds on a schedule. But I have found that nobody wants to do this as giving up control is extremely hard. " They're my pills and I will take what I need" is how most of us think.

There really is no way that you will ever get back to your prescribed dose because you already know you won't. If left in your hands you will always take more. It's just the nature of the beast that are opioids. They were my drug of choice as well and I knew that my script would be gone in 2 weeks. Every single time.

You have one of 2 choices. Let someone else hold them and realize that it's for the best ( at least you still get your meds for pain....just can't take enough to get high on.
Or....tell your Dr. that you misuse them and ask him to switch you to a different med that will still kill your pain but that are less enjoyable ( like tramadol )

Be careful though.......if you get mass specs monthly ( in a pain clinic ) how do you account for none in your system if you are running out? What are you going to do if you get called in for a pill count? One has to be very careful nowadays. I got kicked out abut 8 years ago for failing a mass spec. So....I had to go to the streets. Spent a boatload of money i didn't have and made the people who still got scripts rich. I could have bought 2 cars on what I gave my so called friends. All for a pill.

So be careful and be smart. Getting 3 scripts is a blessing. Don't lose that good fortune. Get someone to hold your Norco and get back to having a life instead of worrying constantly about running out. Yeah, we have to give up getting high on them but people with real pain will be glad that they still have their pills available.

No question it will be very hard to get back to taking as prescribed. But the alternatives are worse. Good luck and again, welcome to Bluelight.

 

[Nas47]

Welcome to BL.Try Kratom,if is legal,where you live.Methadone or buprenorphine is another option

 

[Nas47]

Hi @SummerWinter , glad you posted her in NMI and welcome to the crowd.

Getting Norco, baclofen and klonopin these days is a win win as most people would consider you lucky. Of course the downside is when we get them monthly , and like to get high, it can become a recipe for disaster.

From my observations ( and my own experience ) I have found that once we start running out we are off to the races. We will never stop running out as we will always take more than prescribed because we like the euphoria that opioids produce. The only way to really solve this is by having a trusted family member hold your script and give you your meds on a schedule. But I have found that nobody wants to do this as giving up control is extremely hard. " They're my pills and I will take what I need" is how most of us think.

There really is no way that you will ever get back to your prescribed dose because you already know you won't. If left in your hands you will always take more. It's just the nature of the beast that are opioids. They were my drug of choice as well and I knew that my script would be gone in 2 weeks. Every single time.

You have one of 2 choices. Let someone else hold them and realize that it's for the best ( at least you still get your meds for pain....just can't take enough to get high on.
Or....tell your Dr. that you misuse them and ask him to switch you to a different med that will still kill your pain but that are less enjoyable ( like tramadol )

Be careful though.......if you get mass specs monthly ( in a pain clinic ) how do you account for none in your system if you are running out? What are you going to do if you get called in for a pill count? One has to be very careful nowadays. I got kicked out abut 8 years ago for failing a mass spec. So....I had to go to the streets. Spent a boatload of money i didn't have and made the people who still got scripts rich. I could have bought 2 cars on what I gave my so called friends. All for a pill.

So be careful and be smart. Getting 3 scripts is a blessing. Don't lose that good fortune. Get someone to hold your Norco and get back to having a life instead of worrying constantly about running out. Yeah, we have to give up getting high on them but people with real pain will be glad that they still have their pills available.

No question it will be very hard to get back to taking as prescribed. But the alternatives are worse. Good luck and again, welcome to Bluelight.

"My angel is weak".In my language that means,that have not such strenght to resist the seduction.Thats why all my meds are in my wife...hide somewhere,even the weed,if i have some.Way...way better that way.What can i get hands into goes somewhere hide,dig,locked..etc.Even dont know what available i had like meds.Go to a script monthly and thats all.Don't feel high from a long long time....just functional and relatively pain free.

 

[Ds]

Hi everyone. New here.

I found this website through a search engine when looking for info on withdrawing from opiates. I’ve been lurking for a couple years when I need help or info on drugs. I live in the USA.

I am currently prescribed Norco 10/325, Baclofen 50mg, klonipin 1mg. Also taking meds for depression and PTSD. I’ve tried various types of drugs, but pain pills are my drug of choice. I have scoliosis, 4 bulging discs, and arthritis in my neck. It hurts near constantly to the point that I just cry or feel like I’m going to throw up. I’ve tried many other therapies through the years, but it seems drugs are the only relief I get. But I’m also and addict so I always over do it, use too much, then run dry at the end of the month. I am desperate and have no idea what to do.

Hey there!
Welcome to Bluelight .

Everything you mentioned is actually one of the driving forces for one to join Bluelight.
What I'm getting at is hun you are not alone, so from here on out 'we are desperate' instead of I.
Alone, the one word that nearly drove me to killing myself because before I found Bluelight I wanted to die. (Which once you learn to Bluelight, and learn how to use our search function, I couldn't tell you a number of people whom came here fucking mangled son, and now their most recent post is they got their mojo back.

What I am saying is, don't leave US before the miracle.