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Spookypumpkin

Spookypumpkin

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Hi everyone, I'm new here but I've been lurking on this website for many years.

A little about myself, I used to struggle with addiction pretty bad. About ten years ago I started smoking weed and taking benzo's daily. From there I ended up adding meth, prescription pain killers, and alcohol to the mix and that became my life for many years. I ended up falling into a serious depression and had had enough after about 7 years of constant abuse to my body and mind. I hated that lifestyle and the people I surrounded myself with. I kicked the drugs and got sober for a little bit. I then fell back into smoking weed daily and after a bad breakup I began drinking every day from the moment I woke up. I had zero coping skills. It got pretty bad to say the least.

I got my act together about a year and a half ago and now I have a drink or two every couple months at most. I'm really into fitness nowadays and eating healthy. Also started going to college which has been a positive experience so far. Anyways, I understand this is a harm reduction forum and hopefully I can give some advice to others based on my own experience.

I'm also quite interested in PED's, specifically SARM's and am looking to learn more about them in general.
 
hi @Spookypumpkin
Welcome to Bluelight, er welcome FINALLY! :)
You are very fortunate to be able to realize that your life was headed into a rough direction. Lots of people don't understand it until it is to late. I work with people in recovery daily and they are all great guys but throw some dope in the mix and well its sad.
Man I give it to you to be able to have the discipline to have a few drinks every now and then, wish I could do that. I know me personally if I drink anything then I'll want drugs. My old friends, and some family members couldn't understand why I would go to the 'rough side' of town after a drinking session. Most of them would crash, but me I would go get crack, then heroin or anything.
I'm sure you already know that we have a sports & image enhancing drug part of the forum, would prob be the best place to find what you are looking for.
 
D's said:
hi @Spookypumpkin
Welcome to Bluelight, er welcome FINALLY! :)
You are very fortunate to be able to realize that your life was headed into a rough direction. Lots of people don't understand it until it is to late. I work with people in recovery daily and they are all great guys but throw some dope in the mix and well its sad.
Man I give it to you to be able to have the discipline to have a few drinks every now and then, wish I could do that. I know me personally if I drink anything then I'll want drugs. My old friends, and some family members couldn't understand why I would go to the 'rough side' of town after a drinking session. Most of them would crash, but me I would go get crack, then heroin or anything.
I'm sure you already know that we have a sports & image enhancing drug part of the forum, would prob be the best place to find what you are looking for.
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Thank you for the kind words. It's been a long journey for sure with many ups and downs. I miss the drugs sometimes for sure but whenever I get a strong craving nowadays, I think back to the pain it caused me and that usually deters me from getting high again. My worst times in life were definitely when I was abusing Benzo's and opiates, I never want to go back to that life. I do miss meth though, a lot sometimes, but it's not worth it for me anymore. As for the occasional drink nowadays, I've set major limits on when I do have one and it's only for a small "reward." If I'm feeling down or have a rough day and I have an urge to go buy whiskey, that's a major red flag for me and that's where the discipline has come in.

Anyways, thanks again for the warm welcome everyone, and I'll definitely be checking out the sports and image enhancing drug part of the forum as well as the healthy living section.
 
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