leophilly
Greenlighter
hi im new to this site..and to admitting i have a prob..its getting easier to addmit with time and just seeing how my life is changing....i hate how ive changed..im not as strong as i used to be..im 26 have a 5year old son and waas with his mother for jut about 6 years and lost it all cause of oxys....i still se my son but not as much as i was used to..i hate not waking up with him jumping on me...its the frist thing that drives me the little fucking pills everyday....its been that way for about well allmost a year now..used to just do them well sinceive been 19-20 just on a weekend thing with the girl friend and got to doing about 2-5 80s a day..i just got out of jail yesterday and was there for a night..befor i went in i only had about 60mg in to me and got really sick in lock upp over night...and hvent been able to get any oxys so i have gotten ds and over the last 2 days have only done about 6 6s but they dont really do the same as the oxys..they stop me from the fevers and being sick but my mood and pain is really bad..i cant sleep.. im tried...i could be putting more into me but they have been helping me alot camared to not doing anything..i really do want to kick the oxys habbit..or just get it back to a enjoyable thing and not deppendent on them...if i keep doing the ds like i have..just the little amount i have been doing compared to the oxys i was doing will it help me kick it??? i know im really am better then this..just having a hard time...ive lost allmost 40 pounds in a year...ive allways been at 220 since ive been 18 it hurts to look at my self...i need to get back on track off things...can anyone give me some advice...anything will help...please