My view on the topic of drugs

[supersoup]

So. it's currently 2am, I've taken 120mg of vyvanse, and I'm checking into rehab in 5 hours. Lately, the urge to get high, especially when I'm low, has become a little bit too strong. Drugs are an insidious creature. They start off being fun, friendly and inviting. They allow you to experience things in ways you didn't know were possible. You start taking them more often, in more situations. They slowly become a bigger and bigger part of your life. They become the cure for boredom, sadness, and just about everything else. Soon, you need them just to feel normal. Drugs drive you to lie, steal, and hurt those who are close to you, but without them, life doesn't seem worth living anyways. You start to resent what they've done to you, and in a way, you hate drugs - but somehow, you find them more essential than ever.

Everybody knows this story. Drugs are dreadful, and they'll ruin your life. Any 3rd grader whose sat through a DARE presentation could tell you that. So, why? Why do so many people still choose to partake in these substances?

Because of what they don't tell you. Because of what only us users can understand.

Drugs can open your mind and let you experience the impossible. They can make a bad situation tolerable, and a good situation even better. In my opinion, and I think most on here would agree, perceiving the world in so many different ways can open your mind in ways a sober person couldn't even imagine. Drugs can make you wiser and more conscious, they can get you in touch with your thoughts, your mind, your very soul. They can help you create bonds with people you would never have even talked to.

It's easy to look at all the damage drugs cause and write them off as a nasty hobby that can only lead to pain and suffering, and in many cases, this rings true. But it's not so easy to understand the beauty and enlightenment they can bring. They can be an old friend, guiding your thoughts and experiences to places that would be otherwise unreachable, or they can be an evil ruler, dictating your every idea, every action, every aspect of your entire life. It's a difficult task to find balance in this world, but if you do, a beautiful life awaits.

 

[Pill2Chill]

Good read. First of all; I wish you the very best of luck on your 'quest' to a clean life.

I've been to rehab twice myself, the first time kept me clean for about year. The second time was court ordered and I wasn't motivated at the time, so I ended up using (specific opiates they don't test for there mostly, but certain dissociatives as well) almost the entire time I was there. I figured out which specific drugs they tested for and that left a LOT of drugs that could be (ab)used in there unnoticed. Anyway, I digress.

What I'm trying to say is I've been wanting to get clean for a while now, but after failing and relapsing after a year clean I lost all my motivation for a while.

I'm currently in active addiction again and it's never pretty when I'm at that point. I realize I'll need professional help when the time comes to try getting clean again. But I have to be ready for it, otherwise it will just be a waste of time for all parties involved. Not to mention the false hope it would give my family.

What you say about drugs not necessarily wrecking one's life or being 'evil'.. I agree. But to an addict it is exactly what they do, and exactly what they are. I don't think an addict should waste his/her time trying to find that balance you speak of. It's unlikely any addict will ever be able to find it.

Anyway, best of luck with the rehab man, if it's your first time (is it?) it's a BIG deal/step and I know it's a difficult decision to make. I hope you manage to achieve your goals.

Checking into rehab and accepting others' help is definitely a good first step in the right direction! One you can be proud of. But make no mistake, the 'battle' is only just now getting started, so brace yourself. There will be difficult times ahead. Just keep believing in yourself, ok?

Wishing you all the best and a lot of strength,
P2C

 

[Ksa]

"Soon, you need them just to feel normal. Drugs drive you to lie, steal, and hurt those who are close to you, but without them, life doesn't seem worth living anyways."

I've been taking Dexedrine for 9 years daily, and I can tell you that today, I ain't feeling normal after taking a pill...no way. I feel amazing. I also never stole anything and did not attack anyone.

I don't get why you can't admit failure. When you go to a competition and fail to qualify, you say you failed right? You don't say the competition was going to ruin your life. If drugs ain't your thing so be it...but don't try to generalize.

 

[Man in the Dark]

Good read OP, thank you. I think most of your article reins true for psychedelics. I think a lot of people get addicted to harder drugs such as opiates and Benzos as it numbs pain both physical and mental. I think that is a key factor for people when they first start out especially if they have some MH issues or are going through hard times