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Josh8130

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Hello everyone, My name is Josh and I am 29 years old. Currently in my eyes my life is over. Right now I am writing this from the Texas WorkForce Commision in Temple, Texas. I am currently semi-homeless with no income except for the $541.00 a month that the VA sends me since I am a disabled Veteran.

I am currently mainly disabled due to mental problems that seemed to really show themselves after I got out of the Marine Corps. My parents want nothing to do with me. They are all re-married and are living their own lives and my life only seems to cause them headache. I currently hold a Licsene to Fit and Dispense Hearing Instruments in the State of Texas. I recently lost my job since I could not get to work, due to no drivers licsene. It was suspended due to a DWI and will get off suspension Jan. 14, 2011. Since I was 19 I have had a job. This is the first time I have been jobless. My bank is calling me nonstop up to 8:30pm requesting payment on my loans, which gets very very annoying. I dont want to lose my car then I will not have any transportation. My aunt makes me leave the house during the day to look for work, but if I get pulled over with no DL I will go to jail!

I currently have a 18month year old little boy. I dont want him growing up knowing that his father is a crazy ex marine who couldnt hold down a job due to mental problems.

Should I just take all my ativan (90) and try and overdose?
Kill myself
hit the streets?
I have no family or friends to give any advice at all.
 
Would you really want to kill yourself and leave your baby with a crazy ex-marine dad... who also killed himself? Can your wife work (if you have one)? And were you really paid that little on a job that requires a license, that you can't pay back loans you have made?
Don't do anything crazy, man. You should be fine as long as you get your head together and stop thinking about suicide. Try and find a work-from-home job (telemarketing, etc, I don't know too many legitimate ones off hand).
Do you spend all your money on drugs, is that why you have no money now? Are you in withdrawals from a drug since you are low on money and trying to stop?
Just trying to get some background info, please be safe.
 
hit the streets, get to some na meetings, meet some sober people who can help you out, not financially but emotionally and help yu get back up on yer feet..

honestly asking people over the internet what to do with yer life isn't such a great idea.. yu kno yerself best..
 
No didnt spend my money on drugs but my early life of living above my means put my financial situation in shambles. I was trying to be someone I wasnt. Thank you guys for advice. I really have nonone to blame but myself. My debit and credit situation was my own fault. As bad as this sounds. Alot of my money was spent consistantly going out to restuants and bars. I guess its safe to say i was a binge drinker over the past three years. My legal problems with my dwi alone cost alot of money. In all, dont know why I posted, I have noone to blame but me
 
There are plenty of apartment complexes that are income based. I have a friend right now that is only paying $45.00 a month for a 3 bedroom apartment that is normally $650.00 a month. Usually, there is a waiting list, but a lot of places will move you up the list if your situation is dire. The friend I'm talking about lived in her car for six months. She went through a lot of hell and thought her life was over and considered suicide. Today, she's still struggling, but her life and living situation is 100% better.

Don't let your situation overwhelm you. You say you don't want your son growing up thinking "that his father is a crazy ex marine who couldnt hold down a job due to mental problems." You can't change that image if you give up or commit suicide. That would only worsen your image and leave him without his father. He's not even at the age where he would grow up and be able to remember you. He needs you in his life. It's hard now, but there places out there that can help you. Look into these income-based housings. I'll give you links to a few that I've found in your town. You will get through this. It seems impossible now, but this is just a moment in your life. It's not your ENTIRE life. Don't let this overwhelm you. I know it's hard right now, but do this for your son. And keep us up to date, please. I'm not one for prayers, but you're in mine as of now.

Low income housing, Temple, Texas

The Affordable Housing Network

There are quite a few other sites dealing with this, but these should go far into getting you started. Good luck!
 
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