Hello everyone, My name is Josh and I am 29 years old. Currently in my eyes my life is over. Right now I am writing this from the Texas WorkForce Commision in Temple, Texas. I am currently semi-homeless with no income except for the $541.00 a month that the VA sends me since I am a disabled Veteran.
I am currently mainly disabled due to mental problems that seemed to really show themselves after I got out of the Marine Corps. My parents want nothing to do with me. They are all re-married and are living their own lives and my life only seems to cause them headache. I currently hold a Licsene to Fit and Dispense Hearing Instruments in the State of Texas. I recently lost my job since I could not get to work, due to no drivers licsene. It was suspended due to a DWI and will get off suspension Jan. 14, 2011. Since I was 19 I have had a job. This is the first time I have been jobless. My bank is calling me nonstop up to 8:30pm requesting payment on my loans, which gets very very annoying. I dont want to lose my car then I will not have any transportation. My aunt makes me leave the house during the day to look for work, but if I get pulled over with no DL I will go to jail!
I currently have a 18month year old little boy. I dont want him growing up knowing that his father is a crazy ex marine who couldnt hold down a job due to mental problems.
Should I just take all my ativan (90) and try and overdose?
Kill myself
hit the streets?
I have no family or friends to give any advice at all.
I am currently mainly disabled due to mental problems that seemed to really show themselves after I got out of the Marine Corps. My parents want nothing to do with me. They are all re-married and are living their own lives and my life only seems to cause them headache. I currently hold a Licsene to Fit and Dispense Hearing Instruments in the State of Texas. I recently lost my job since I could not get to work, due to no drivers licsene. It was suspended due to a DWI and will get off suspension Jan. 14, 2011. Since I was 19 I have had a job. This is the first time I have been jobless. My bank is calling me nonstop up to 8:30pm requesting payment on my loans, which gets very very annoying. I dont want to lose my car then I will not have any transportation. My aunt makes me leave the house during the day to look for work, but if I get pulled over with no DL I will go to jail!
I currently have a 18month year old little boy. I dont want him growing up knowing that his father is a crazy ex marine who couldnt hold down a job due to mental problems.
Should I just take all my ativan (90) and try and overdose?
Kill myself
hit the streets?
I have no family or friends to give any advice at all.