bdomihizayka
Bluelighter
I was originally prescribed 1mg klonpin 2xs a day for anxiety (why they gave me such a high dose, I have noooooooooooo idea)
Took it for 3 weeks, went off, experienced psychosis, and realized what was going on....
When i went back on after the abrupt stop, it took a few days to feel back to my old self....
I just finished a 2 month taper from that dose about 3 weeks ago, and had to reinstate 2 days ago because I was literally going crazy in the head and was on the verge of shooting myself.
I reinstated back to .5mg 2xs a day, and damn, that first dose, it put me on my ass.... I was feeling very drugged up and experienced little to no relief of my psychological symptoms.
I am beginning to question whether or not this amped up anxiety was from benzo withdrawal at all.... because my tolerance to klonopin is definitely alot lower than it was, I could not stay awake on 1mg 2xs a day as i originally was.if i tried to maintain that dose....
Is my brain somehow damaged from the benzos??? I know that reinstatement doesnt always work, but DAMN I was not on it THAT long, and as seen by my reinstatement, .5mg nearly knocked me out.....
I am going nuts, and am now even more depressed as ever, as benzo are depressants.... very desperate here.... shold i wait a few more days to ssee reilief?
I have extreme racing, intrusive thoughts......AND i have become completely introverted..... i cannot converse with anyone anymore....i want to be alone.
I dont want to go out with friends.... I dont want to do anything at all, I feel braindamaged. But at the same time, I DONT feel depressed....if that makes any sense? First few times taking klonopin i was depressed, very dysphoric, but off of it, I was totally NOT depressesed, just "braindamaged" and unable to talk to anyone...
Did the benzo withdrawal introduce a new anxiety or mental illness in me? i can barely function....and its all in my head... and i have been back on benzos 4 days or so now and still relieved LITTLE to none from my anxious symptoms.....
I am so scared.... what should i do?
Took it for 3 weeks, went off, experienced psychosis, and realized what was going on....
When i went back on after the abrupt stop, it took a few days to feel back to my old self....
I just finished a 2 month taper from that dose about 3 weeks ago, and had to reinstate 2 days ago because I was literally going crazy in the head and was on the verge of shooting myself.
I reinstated back to .5mg 2xs a day, and damn, that first dose, it put me on my ass.... I was feeling very drugged up and experienced little to no relief of my psychological symptoms.
I am beginning to question whether or not this amped up anxiety was from benzo withdrawal at all.... because my tolerance to klonopin is definitely alot lower than it was, I could not stay awake on 1mg 2xs a day as i originally was.if i tried to maintain that dose....
Is my brain somehow damaged from the benzos??? I know that reinstatement doesnt always work, but DAMN I was not on it THAT long, and as seen by my reinstatement, .5mg nearly knocked me out.....
I am going nuts, and am now even more depressed as ever, as benzo are depressants.... very desperate here.... shold i wait a few more days to ssee reilief?
I have extreme racing, intrusive thoughts......AND i have become completely introverted..... i cannot converse with anyone anymore....i want to be alone.
I dont want to go out with friends.... I dont want to do anything at all, I feel braindamaged. But at the same time, I DONT feel depressed....if that makes any sense? First few times taking klonopin i was depressed, very dysphoric, but off of it, I was totally NOT depressesed, just "braindamaged" and unable to talk to anyone...
Did the benzo withdrawal introduce a new anxiety or mental illness in me? i can barely function....and its all in my head... and i have been back on benzos 4 days or so now and still relieved LITTLE to none from my anxious symptoms.....
I am so scared.... what should i do?
