My best friend has been a heroin addict for years. I've watched him go through phases of doing so bad, that I was almost positive that I was going to lose him forever to doing so well, that I can see him for who he actually is. Over the last year or so, we've gotten really close and I've become connected enough with him to pretty much (in my opinion) always know for sure when he's getting high behind everyone's back. I'll call him out on it because I'm legitimately worried about him losing his life, and I literally would't be able to handle that... but he always turns it around and makes me think I'm crazy for ever thinking something like that. At first, I'm 100% sure that I'm right but slowly, as I argue back and forth with him, I start wondering if I was just being paranoid. He will say things like, 'you're thinking about it too hard' or 'you're just making things up at this point', or in some cases 'you're the one in a drug induced psychosis because you have a ketamine addiction' (which I have been struggling with but I've been mostly clean for going on three weeks now, so I don't feel like that's the problem at this point... or ever really was because I've never felt out of my mind at any point during my addiction). After today, I truly don't know if what he says in response to my accusations is true or not.
This weekend, my roommate left $40 and two Xanax on the table. $20 of the $40 and 1 of the 2 Xanax went missing. There was no one in the house that didn't live there except for my best friend. My roommate's boyfriend has been known to steal drugs occasionally but when it comes down to it, if he's confronted, he will admit to it usually. He says he really didn't do it this time. My best friend was left alone twice in the house then later the next morning, he asked to borrow my boyfriend's car for 30 minutes to run a quick errand then didn't come back for 4 hours. I had to go to work but when I came back, I noticed him nodding out and scratching his legs obsessively. He says it was just the Suboxone that he took, but I have a hard time believing it. He swears that I'm just being controlling and keeping him on too short of a leash but I don't know if that's the case?
I don't know what to do because on one hand, I feel like I know something is wrong but on the other hand, I wonder if I'm just being a crazy, paranoid, psycho like other people have called me in the past.
One question for people experienced with opiates and Suboxone- Does Suboxone make you incessantly itchy and does it make you nod off in the same way that heroin does? Once in a while, I'll notice those two behaviors from him but not the slurred speech or going in the bathroom for 20 minutes at a time over and over again. He claims that he's been taking Suboxone and that's why he's itching and nodding off but I don't really believe that Suboxone has that effect on people.
He also alternates between doing meth and heroin... he seems to switch to the meth when the heroin hurts his health too much because the heroin hugely effects his lungs to the point to where you can hear him wheezing from across the room. I'm constantly accusing him of doing meth too because when I think he's doing meth, he will write really, really long Facebook statuses and texts. Like several paragraphs long. He says that he does that when he's happy and he can't believe that I would ever accuse him of doing drugs for that. He also starts doing weird things like thinking there are demons or having these paranoid situations happen in his head that he says were just dreams that he didn't know weren't real. It bothers me but I really can't figure out if I'm crazy or not.
Has anyone else ever experienced something similar to this?
This weekend, my roommate left $40 and two Xanax on the table. $20 of the $40 and 1 of the 2 Xanax went missing. There was no one in the house that didn't live there except for my best friend. My roommate's boyfriend has been known to steal drugs occasionally but when it comes down to it, if he's confronted, he will admit to it usually. He says he really didn't do it this time. My best friend was left alone twice in the house then later the next morning, he asked to borrow my boyfriend's car for 30 minutes to run a quick errand then didn't come back for 4 hours. I had to go to work but when I came back, I noticed him nodding out and scratching his legs obsessively. He says it was just the Suboxone that he took, but I have a hard time believing it. He swears that I'm just being controlling and keeping him on too short of a leash but I don't know if that's the case?
I don't know what to do because on one hand, I feel like I know something is wrong but on the other hand, I wonder if I'm just being a crazy, paranoid, psycho like other people have called me in the past.
One question for people experienced with opiates and Suboxone- Does Suboxone make you incessantly itchy and does it make you nod off in the same way that heroin does? Once in a while, I'll notice those two behaviors from him but not the slurred speech or going in the bathroom for 20 minutes at a time over and over again. He claims that he's been taking Suboxone and that's why he's itching and nodding off but I don't really believe that Suboxone has that effect on people.
He also alternates between doing meth and heroin... he seems to switch to the meth when the heroin hurts his health too much because the heroin hugely effects his lungs to the point to where you can hear him wheezing from across the room. I'm constantly accusing him of doing meth too because when I think he's doing meth, he will write really, really long Facebook statuses and texts. Like several paragraphs long. He says that he does that when he's happy and he can't believe that I would ever accuse him of doing drugs for that. He also starts doing weird things like thinking there are demons or having these paranoid situations happen in his head that he says were just dreams that he didn't know weren't real. It bothers me but I really can't figure out if I'm crazy or not.
Has anyone else ever experienced something similar to this?
