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brian wilson

brian wilson

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I ended up experimenting with smoking cannabis when I was a bit younger than I am now (15), and I am now 23. It seems that with time I have grown bitter towards smoking the plant in general in that it affects me in such a way that is unfavorable. For example, whenever I smoke I tend to feel a measure of rash paranoia- some of which is irrational and rational. These are usually thoughts involving the stresses that come with the responsibilities that I've obtained into adulthood.

Whenever I used to smoke, I found it an extremely enjoyable activity in which I remained relaxed and calm. It was something that could manage to bring me much more clarity in the way I viewed and dealt with my life. I very seldom experienced any sort of irregular stress, even under large amounts that I wouldn't have usually smoked at the time.

Has anyone else experienced a similar change, and is there any way to reverse such a change? I find that I hardly can consume or burn nearly as much as I used to without feeling somewhat paranoid, and, among other things, I have lost the enjoyable clarity and calm I once had while smoking.
 
Why would you want to reverse it? Simply realise that you've grown out of marijuana - it happens and you should accept and (maybe) be proud of it.
 
^^ Exactly what I did. What I've done didn't have words until the post above was written.

There are other ways to get clarity and calm like meditation w/o the paranoia.
 
Its just a change in your lifestyle.. If you are currently stressed due to work, family etc, your high may enhance it. Also, you are probably stressed because you are stoned rather than dealing with your stressors.

I went through a similar situation when I was at university. But now I have graduated, I find I can enjoy weed much more with a controlable amount of stress.

I would avoid smoking all together, but perhaps using it to reward yourself, or whilst on holidays may yield different results.
 
It's probably the added stress you mentioned that is effecting your highs. The stress of college did the same thing to my highs. As soon as I managed to reduce this stress (considerably I might add) I began to enjoy pot again. All the paranoia, disphoria and other negative side affects disappeared.

You might want to quit smoking for a while, get your life in order or whatever you need and then decide if you want to smoke again.
 
Thanks for all of the responses. You guys have helped me open up my eyes after some heavy contemplation and consideration. I will, for sure, continue my break. I may partake on holidays or special events still so as long as I keep on top of my obligations/have no current goals that need met/or are possible to meet.

It is true that I am probably just at a crossroads in life at this point in which I habitually procrastinate my college work and find stress where I make it, and likewise, don't make it. I'm going to have to sort things out and get myself on schedule with my goals and coursework to be able to enjoy smoking again.

A lot of what has been said does make sense, especially as I always have believed that smoking was a sort of emphasis on the current mindset, and I believe that the whole increase of paranoia has a lot to do with what's happening with myself in relation to the world. Although in the past I never attributed this in a negative light, only to justify why smoking felt so good while in a positive mood.

I do look forward to smoking, possibly, more often once again, someday after I acquire a well paying job as a result of my degree and find my situation a little more comfortable.

Thanks to cocacrazy, Dark Ambience especially for the thoughtful posts.

Also the plug on meditation was a good one. I haven't tried that in about two years, and I don't know why I ever stopped. It is extremely rewarding, as anyone knows who's ever done it on a daily basis, or even weekly.
 
I've experienced this many many times in my 5 years of smoking. I seem to get very irritable and stressed out when I smoke while I have responsibilities to take care of. Like everyone else said, maybe you've grown out of weed or maybe you should only smoke when you're stress-free like on vacation or when its your down time. Good luck
 
Most people get "the paranoid android" feeling after a certain age becaue they have learned to put much more value in work, family, etc. Usually its just that people's ego's have dominated their thought process so much that they cannot escape anymore. Some people say its "growing up", but I say its just giving in to the need for acceptance/money that plagues the world today. Or for some, they just don't like the high anymore because they have found better highs whether its love of their children, wives or opiates.
 
I went through something similar.

I think one major factor that puts so many people on the trajectory from happy-go-lucky teenage pothead to anxious and ambivalent mid-20's smoker is the accumulation of problems that marijuana causes.

At the beginning, the marijuana high is associated with fun, carefree times with friends. It's new and exciting and etc. etc. etc. But for many people who become regular smokers, marijuana also begins to get in the way of things, and takes on more negative associations for the user. Being high doesn't just remind you of laughing fits after school with your friends, but also missing work or forgetting about a mid-term. So instead of smoking and thinking "I'm having fun" you're getting high and thinking "I'm fucking up" - mix that aspect of your setting with marijuana's psychedelic properties (and the fact that most people move on to stronger pot as their use continues), and it's no surprise that it gives you a bad time.

If you want to get back into smoking, you'll need to redefine its role in your life. It needs to be a celebration and an escape rather than just a habitual way of dealing with life. It won't work for everyone, but I've found that I love getting high and exercising. That way, when I smoke, instead of dwelling on my failures or staring at the television, I'm getting pumped about a workout or an adventure..

Anyways, YMMV, but I think this feeling many of us get is less a signal that we're done with weed, but rather that we need to move on from the baggage of years of daily use and find a new way to have a relationship with herb.
 
theotherside26 said:
Most people get "the paranoid android" feeling after a certain age becaue they have learned to put much more value in work, family, etc. Usually its just that people's ego's have dominated their thought process so much that they cannot escape anymore. Some people say its "growing up", but I say its just giving in to the need for acceptance/money that plagues the world today.
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Good post, I agree :) If weed were legal, I think much paranoia and edginess associated with it would go away; its because we feel neglectiful when we're stoned that we get guilty or paranoid....As if we are not "contributing" to this endless cycle of repetitive nonsese (ie. life). That feeling can be overcome by affirming that you do indeed have value.
 
agree 100%



and the same thing happen to me brian, like exactly. i cut down a lot, and just sort of forgot all the stress at that moment and it helped a little. but it is gone now idk what happen, sorta went away?
 
Most people get "the paranoid android" feeling after a certain age becaue they have learned to put much more value in work, family, etc. Usually its just that people's ego's have dominated their thought process so much that they cannot escape anymore. Some people say its "growing up", but I say its just giving in to the need for acceptance/money that plagues the world today. Or for some, they just don't like the high anymore because they have found better highs whether its love of their children, wives or opiates.
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Good post, I agree If weed were legal, I think much paranoia and edginess associated with it would go away; its because we feel neglectiful when we're stoned that we get guilty or paranoid....As if we are not "contributing" to this endless cycle of repetitive nonsese (ie. life). That feeling can be overcome by affirming that you do indeed have value.
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I love the points raised by these two fellows. QFT %)
 
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