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Whiteshoes420

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Well my experience with ecstasy was a HUGE trip in my life considering the fact that i've only been alive for about 15 years. The trip had it's highs and lows, but I won't forget one second of it. And I hope my story teaches the first time rollers who are reading this, that no matter how good it feels, you'll get screwed in the end.


August 22, 2010, the first time I rolled(I only remember this date because it was my best friend's birthday!) Anyways, me, my friend, and two complete strangers I had never met who were friends with my friend, went up to a lake to roll. I've never rolled at this point, but I really wanted to try it. Well we got there and as soon as we got there, we started pulling out the drugs. One of the strangers gave me one and I swallowed it. Waited 30 minutes and it finally kicked in. Everything started getting louder,brighter, and happier. After this, one of the strangers put on a light show which was amazing and trippy. After that they crushed one up and made two lines for me to snort. I'd never snorted anything in my life at this point, but hey, I was all up for first time experiences at the time. And after this, everything got trippy. Even looking at myself in the mirror was trippy. So everyone was feel great and super happy so the two stranges put on another light show! But in the middle of the light show guess who shows up? The park rangers! They knew exactly what was going on. They put us in hand cuffs and started questioning us. But at the end of the day my mom came to pick me up, while I was tripping balls and nothing was same after that.


A couple of months have gone pass since then. But all of the sudden, I started getting depressed over the stupidest stuff. I couldn't handle it, so I was determined to find someone at my school who sells or knows somebody that sells. A few days after that, I found someone who could get me some and she just happened to be a good friend of mine. So I told her to get me one and she did, but also got herself one so we both rolled together! It was amazing and I never wanted to quit using ecstasy.



3 months later, I was rolling every week. Everything was great and nothing could stop me. By this point I had put 30 to 35 ecstasy pills in my system and I wasn't going to stop there, until everything started to unfold. My cuz found out I was rolling, my girlfriend found out and broke up with me, and most of my friends lost connection with me. So I told myself I have to quit. So eventually I did. 4 months past and I was depressed every single day of my life. I wanted to go back to it soo bad, but I knew what had happened last time I went back to it and told myself I have to go through this to get over it!(I had read over the internet that even if you were really depressed after not taking it for so all, it'll past.) Anyways, finally no more depression days and I have got most of my friends back! Now everything is a lot better and I could not feel better. Sooo that's my story and your welcome to share your story with me! :)
 
How old are you? lol... I don't even know what to say really, except that yes, *irresponsible over-indulgence* of ecstasy will definitely screw you in the end.

My first, and the majority of my other ecstasy experiences did not screw me in the end. The couple negative experiences I had were due to my irresponsibility or over-doing it, not the substance itself. When I have used ecstasy responsibly, I have had nothing but incredibly healing and many times, life changing, experiences. I'm also one of the lucky people who never gets depressed after doing E. I also don't consume copious amounts and go off in huge binges either though. If you can't control yourself from binging on e, I would start to be a little concerned and question your reasons for why that is.


I would avoid taking random pills unless you can test them or look them up on pillreports, it doesn't sound like what you got was just MDMA, sounds like it was mixed with something. No wonder you got depressed - who the hell knows what was in the pills you ate and railed, you know?

Though some people do experience depression the next day, generally speaking, educated, responsible, cautious use of ecstasy does not "screw you in the end" and is rarely addictive, it sounds like you may have some deeper rooted issues you might need to address that you were trying to cover up.

Also, why did the ranger arrest you guys? Were you in possession of narcotics? Otherwise I can't see them being able to arrest you for being happy and watching light shows? Even if you were visibly high (dilated pupils, etc) unless you have it on you or are causing ruckus and disturbances, they can't really arrest you as far as I know.

Good job on sobriety though, that's a big accomplishment. Are you sure an ecstasy forum is not going to trigger you, as a recovering ecstasy addict?

And yes... August 2010 has yet to arrive lol. I'm guessing that was a mistake though?
 
Yes, August 22nd is my 1st baby's due date and I'm still pregnant, lol.

As for the age, since someone asked, I think the kid said he is 15.

Sorry you had to be bothered by the cops during your first roll. That is never fun. That's why I don't advise rolling in public places late at night.

I am glad you are alright now and your depression went away. Given enough time things always get better. There are always kids coming here asking when their brains will go back to normal. It will happen. Everyone is different but given enough time everyone will heal eventually. Well most people. Some people who go way over board with this stuff might have lingering effects for longer than others and sometimes after serious abuse depression doesn't go away on its own and needs medical intervention like therapy and meds.
 
Whiteshoes420 said:
Well my experience with ecstasy was a HUGE trip in my life considering the fact that i've only been alive for about 15 years. The trip had it's highs and lows, but I won't forget one second of it. And I hope my story teaches the first time rollers who are reading this, that no matter how good it feels, you'll get screwed in the end.


August 22, 2010, the first time I rolled(I only remember this date because it was my best friend's birthday!) Anyways, me, my friend, and two complete strangers I had never met who were friends with my friend, went up to a lake to roll. I've never rolled at this point, but I really wanted to try it. Well we got there and as soon as we got there, we started pulling out the drugs. One of the strangers gave me one and I swallowed it. Waited 30 minutes and it finally kicked in. Everything started getting louder,brighter, and happier. After this, one of the strangers put on a light show which was amazing and trippy. After that they crushed one up and made two lines for me to snort. I'd never snorted anything in my life at this point, but hey, I was all up for first time experiences at the time. And after this, everything got trippy. Even looking at myself in the mirror was trippy. So everyone was feel great and super happy so the two stranges put on another light show! But in the middle of the light show guess who shows up? The park rangers! They knew exactly what was going on. They put us in hand cuffs and started questioning us. But at the end of the day my mom came to pick me up, while I was tripping balls and nothing was same after that.


A couple of months have gone pass since then. But all of the sudden, I started getting depressed over the stupidest stuff. I couldn't handle it, so I was determined to find someone at my school who sells or knows somebody that sells. A few days after that, I found someone who could get me some and she just happened to be a good friend of mine. So I told her to get me one and she did, but also got herself one so we both rolled together! It was amazing and I never wanted to quit using ecstasy.



3 months later, I was rolling every week. Everything was great and nothing could stop me. By this point I had put 30 to 35 ecstasy pills in my system and I wasn't going to stop there, until everything started to unfold. My cuz found out I was rolling, my girlfriend found out and broke up with me, and most of my friends lost connection with me. So I told myself I have to quit. So eventually I did. 4 months past and I was depressed every single day of my life. I wanted to go back to it soo bad, but I knew what had happened last time I went back to it and told myself I have to go through this to get over it!(I had read over the internet that even if you were really depressed after not taking it for so all, it'll past.) Anyways, finally no more depression days and I have got most of my friends back! Now everything is a lot better and I could not feel better. Sooo that's my story and your welcome to share your story with me! :)
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Here's my story -- you overdid it. You did MDMA far more than it was supposed to be used and thus abused it. I'm not saying that to be mean, but just to let you know that things would have probably turned out a bit differently if you hadn't been using it excessively.

Your friends and family shunning you when they found out you did e is not your bad and you didn't deserve that. That, imo, was closed-minded of them. IMO, they should have taken the time to understand the drug you were on and offer some advice instead of simply turning their backs. This is simply a great story about how despicable and cruel the human race can be, imo. You deviated from social norms and society kicked you out until you conformed to their standards again.
 
AylaV said:
Here's my story -- you overdid it. You did MDMA far more than it was supposed to be used and thus abused it. I'm not saying that to be mean, but just to let you know that things would have probably turned out a bit differently if you hadn't been using it excessively.

Your friends and family shunning you when they found out you did e is not your bad and you didn't deserve that. That, imo, was closed-minded of them. IMO, they should have taken the time to understand the drug you were on and offer some advice instead of simply turning their backs. This is simply a great story about how despicable and cruel the human race can be, imo. You deviated from social norms and society kicked you out until you conformed to their standards again.
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Quoted for the mother fuxkin truth.
 
Reading this story makes me very sad. In a perfect world I suppose we would all wait until we were mature enough to be responsible with the true pleasure that is mdma. I believe that how young you were, combined with the gross misuse (I would never recommend railing E, ever) as well as the negativity from your family has caused depression, plain and simple.

My experience: I waited to do E until I was well into my 20s. Was surrounded by knowledgeable friends with the best intentions for me to have a good time. In fact, I have told my mom about doing E, she & my Dad are mormon (LDS) whatever you want to call it, and she's been very understanding.

Anyhow, I am not trying to chastise, because it is not my place to do so. I would try meditation, yoga, simple pleasures in life, then once you are moved out of your parents, perhaps have some knowledgeable friends set up a comfortable environment to try it again and please go slowly. Best wishes <3
 
peacefuldreamer09 said:
Reading this story makes me very sad. In a perfect world I suppose we would all wait until we were mature enough to be responsible with the true pleasure that is mdma. I believe that how young you were, combined with the gross misuse (I would never recommend railing E, ever) as well as the negativity from your family has caused depression, plain and simple.

My experience: I waited to do E until I was well into my 20s. Was surrounded by knowledgeable friends with the best intentions for me to have a good time. In fact, I have told my mom about doing E, she & my Dad are mormon (LDS) whatever you want to call it, and she's been very understanding.

Anyhow, I am not trying to chastise, because it is not my place to do so. I would try meditation, yoga, simple pleasures in life, then once you are moved out of your parents, perhaps have some knowledgeable friends set up a comfortable environment to try it again and please go slowly. Best wishes <3
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Yeahhh. Well it's been since Feburary 2010 since the last time, but I've been considering trying it again. I really want to try again because it was so much fun and I want to leave my rolling experience on a good note. But I'm scared that even trying it once, will trigger me wanting it a lot more and depression right after that.
 
So things are doing better somewhat? I would just caution to take 5htp daily for at least a week before and continue to take it afterwards as well. Get a testing kit, so you aren't putting unknown chemicals into your body, plan in advance and you should be fine. MDMA is a great tool for emotional progress, just remember not to use it as a crutch.
 
ti.ara said:
How old are you? lol... I don't even know what to say really, except that yes, *irresponsible over-indulgence* of ecstasy will definitely screw you in the end.

My first, and the majority of my other ecstasy experiences did not screw me in the end. The couple negative experiences I had were due to my irresponsibility or over-doing it, not the substance itself. When I have used ecstasy responsibly, I have had nothing but incredibly healing and many times, life changing, experiences. I'm also one of the lucky people who never gets depressed after doing E. I also don't consume copious amounts and go off in huge binges either though. If you can't control yourself from binging on e, I would start to be a little concerned and question your reasons for why that is.


I would avoid taking random pills unless you can test them or look them up on pillreports, it doesn't sound like what you got was just MDMA, sounds like it was mixed with something. No wonder you got depressed - who the hell knows what was in the pills you ate and railed, you know?

Though some people do experience depression the next day, generally speaking, educated, responsible, cautious use of ecstasy does not "screw you in the end" and is rarely addictive, it sounds like you may have some deeper rooted issues you might need to address that you were trying to cover up.

Also, why did the ranger arrest you guys? Were you in possession of narcotics? Otherwise I can't see them being able to arrest you for being happy and watching light shows? Even if you were visibly high (dilated pupils, etc) unless you have it on you or are causing ruckus and disturbances, they can't really arrest you as far as I know.

Good job on sobriety though, that's a big accomplishment. Are you sure an ecstasy forum is not going to trigger you, as a recovering ecstasy addict?

And yes... August 2010 has yet to arrive lol. I'm guessing that was a mistake though?
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Well that's good that it won't screw you in the end. It was just with my expericence it seem'd like if you took it, you'll get screwed.

And I think they arrested us because people were passing by and crap and I thought they might have heard us talking about it and told the park rangers, but I was kind of paranoid sooo I don't know. But when they came we JUST finished 8 pills we snorted/popped so we still kept sniffing and we had orange juice which supposively makes your roll harder? And one of them asked my to come over there in front of the car (we were lending against the back) anyways he asked me to come over there and he asked if we were drinking alcohol..I was like WTF? Anyways when they searched in the car they found CDs with white powder on them and rolled up dollar bills sooo they fiqure something was going on! And not to mention the two strangers I was with had records of getting caught with X.
 
I was rolling a lot a couple years back in '08. Had a real good connect with fire ass beans...literally fire, better than molly if that's possible. We would party for days on end, I'm saying three days a row for weeks that lasted months. Man it was great fun but now is just a blur. My experience with the drug gave me ultimate highs and also ultimate lows. It led me to crazy addiction and turned me into a poly drug user. I'd switch off from drug to drug because I just loved the feeling of being fucked up. Downers, uppers, you name it I was on it. I came from an all around good kid to bumping lines of ketamine and heroin weekly. Taking valiums, xanax, oxys, whatever. Being totally fucked out of my mind from LSD and shrooms. My mentality was totally shot afterwards. My arrogance definitely caught up to me and I thought I was invincible? Boy was I wrong on sooo many levels. Since then It has drastically changed my life for the worst. The dark side, I was there. Feeling like a fucking damn zombie all the time wasn't fun. Going into deep depression and anxiety altered my life. I thought I gained a lot from the drug but in actuality lost a lot. Looking back I wish I could have changed a lot of things, but my behavior on life was out of control. Eating pills in the morning is not something you should do! lol. I learned the hard way and it taught me a lesson. Now I just live for the moment. Choose Life.
 
i dont think you should take X until you are 18, bare minimum. your brain doesnt stop developing until 18-21 years old. thats prob one of the main reasons you felt the way you did. plus you abused it.
 
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