Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
I tried MXE for the first time. I have tripped on mushrooms several times and DMT as well. I have also taken acid once. I would have considered I've been to semi-deep psychedelic experiences before. My experience last night was probably the craziest one I've ever had. I have never done a dissociative before, not DXM nor ketamine though.
I started out by downloading sixtyforce for mac and playing Mario Kart 64, and Perfect Dark, then my mom left. I snorted 30 mg of MXE powder within two minutes, around 7:46 pm. I then felt something slight come on, much like the magic that precedes a DMT trip. The images outside took on a brighter color and I felt my body and vision enlivened with something new.
I went down and played drums pretty soon. It was great. I had zero social anxiety and I was just playing. Then, I came back up and started into my second stash of 50mg total. I snorted about 40mg of that in the course of two or three new bumps. That is when things got zonky. Like I said I've never experienced the dissociative mindstate before, so it felt completely whacky to me. It felt like my vision reeled back and I was seeing everything in stretch focus. Everything was huge, slow and blocky. I was playing Counter-Strike briefly and it was hilarious how slowly we were all moving, and how huge and pixelated we all were!
I talked with an old friend and held a decent, sober conversation I thought. That went well too. I was walking around my house. One of the most reassuring things I noted was that even in this mindstate, my first inclination was to be gentle to the environment around me. I softly set down my computer (Macbook pro, I gently moved around). It was like I was just this gentle creature roving around my room, and that was so reassuring, especially since when I'm in my sober mind I'll have dark thoughts intercede with me often.
My mom came home about 10:36pm and I was still tripping hard. I had not even anticipated a trip. When I first started with the 30mg and up until about an hour after, it really wasn't that intense at all, and I redosed like it was nothing. Well, I ended up staying up till around 3:00 am high. It gradually came off starting at around 12-1 am. It was amazing. I looked at myself in the mirror and touched my tibia in its leg and felt its boniness inside me. Everything was abstract and far off. I had this amazing new insight on myself. Insight on my real life occurred too as I came back. I noticed that as I was gradually regaining consciousness (some 6 hours later), I was entering a sick mind too. I had all of these negative, wrong, hurtful thoughts that the distance of the drug seemed to temporarily alleviate. And that was an amazing feat for me. Everyone is telling me I am thinking paranoid thoughts and such, and finally, I could see and FEEL myself ENTERING BACK into a sick mind. That was amazing.
Now what to do about that...
Anyway - It was an amazing trip and I didn't take much at all. I'd advise severe caution using this substance as I was really really deep (for me) and that was just on ~70mg over about 3 hours. Ok, take care, Janja.
OH YES! I played video games to close it out. I played as princess then toadstool and won first all the way to the rainbow road!!!
I started out by downloading sixtyforce for mac and playing Mario Kart 64, and Perfect Dark, then my mom left. I snorted 30 mg of MXE powder within two minutes, around 7:46 pm. I then felt something slight come on, much like the magic that precedes a DMT trip. The images outside took on a brighter color and I felt my body and vision enlivened with something new.
I went down and played drums pretty soon. It was great. I had zero social anxiety and I was just playing. Then, I came back up and started into my second stash of 50mg total. I snorted about 40mg of that in the course of two or three new bumps. That is when things got zonky. Like I said I've never experienced the dissociative mindstate before, so it felt completely whacky to me. It felt like my vision reeled back and I was seeing everything in stretch focus. Everything was huge, slow and blocky. I was playing Counter-Strike briefly and it was hilarious how slowly we were all moving, and how huge and pixelated we all were!
I talked with an old friend and held a decent, sober conversation I thought. That went well too. I was walking around my house. One of the most reassuring things I noted was that even in this mindstate, my first inclination was to be gentle to the environment around me. I softly set down my computer (Macbook pro, I gently moved around). It was like I was just this gentle creature roving around my room, and that was so reassuring, especially since when I'm in my sober mind I'll have dark thoughts intercede with me often.
My mom came home about 10:36pm and I was still tripping hard. I had not even anticipated a trip. When I first started with the 30mg and up until about an hour after, it really wasn't that intense at all, and I redosed like it was nothing. Well, I ended up staying up till around 3:00 am high. It gradually came off starting at around 12-1 am. It was amazing. I looked at myself in the mirror and touched my tibia in its leg and felt its boniness inside me. Everything was abstract and far off. I had this amazing new insight on myself. Insight on my real life occurred too as I came back. I noticed that as I was gradually regaining consciousness (some 6 hours later), I was entering a sick mind too. I had all of these negative, wrong, hurtful thoughts that the distance of the drug seemed to temporarily alleviate. And that was an amazing feat for me. Everyone is telling me I am thinking paranoid thoughts and such, and finally, I could see and FEEL myself ENTERING BACK into a sick mind. That was amazing.
Now what to do about that...
Anyway - It was an amazing trip and I didn't take much at all. I'd advise severe caution using this substance as I was really really deep (for me) and that was just on ~70mg over about 3 hours. Ok, take care, Janja.
OH YES! I played video games to close it out. I played as princess then toadstool and won first all the way to the rainbow road!!!
