Mushrooms - Third time - Reality & Unreality

[c89]

Last night I decided to Trip at home on Shrooms, this way my third time.
I had already Triped last Friday on 2g's and had around 2.5g's left.
Around 11pm I made some shrooms tea.
Within 15 minutes I started to feel my heart raceing but also a strong feeling that my body was resisting the effects of the Psicobin, which made me feel alittle uneasy but didnt freak me out as every time I have tripped there has beed a variation on the defintion of Tripping-
I was now peaking and I felt that I was looking through a Rock face to the outside world like my eyes were the cliffs and I was trapped behind them, and thats when the trip started to get Crazy.
I started to think about 'Set & Setting' the fact that I have only tripped in clubs were I felt comfortable but didnt belong to me physicall terms made me feel that becasue I live in my flat and its my place were i keep my belongings, took my trip to another strain of thought.
What is time ? What is Reality? What is Unreality? What is Tripping?
It came to me that Tripping is a window - which lets you question the definition of 'Reality' when your tripping its Very reall and in that state I felt that I was in reallity & everything else when your not tripping is Unreal' and then I started to think about Time, We cant go backwards in Time or Forward we live in the present.
And then I started to Question our existence and what we see is Reality as every one else around us see's the same It must be real , and we have invented language to communicate between us our existence, and we have created things machines to serve us.....
The trip goes on and on and I felt like I had gone TOTALY INSANE and talking to other people is like my mind interpriting what I see as other existing Humans.
That is when I started to laugh like a mad man but It felt that I was Sane but something was telling me that It was not the Norm to laught and act like you do when your tripping lets say at work beacuse everone else is the majority so they are RIGHT!!!!
But as a minority you are WRONG!!! Why we all now about Black & white people and black are considered the minority but every one is equall and the fact is the there genectics has given them a different apperance does that make them bad, Wrong, ?? No!
But then I felt like my mind now I was tripping had become Superior and that we all take things as granted! Like Earth the Space its there because Its there Why?
Whilst Iam typing this Iam totaly sober and its hard for me to make alot of sence sober because whilst tripping it all made sence!!?
All in all Iam glad I have returned to my sane state as If ididnt I certainly would have been seen as a MAD MAN and been locked up- but heck It was fun to be totaly insane for a few hours and talk total crap to your self!
One lesson I've learnet is not to underestimate Shrooms, and not take them In execse like once a month max for me now!
Peace
C89

 

[XxSweet LuvxX]

hey love,i dont think u were going insane.thats kinda thing has happened to me when tripping on tabs.thee craziest trip was one nightwhen i was candy flippin on like 5 tabs and 3 pills.
at first i caught a case of the smiles and had that tingly feeling under my skin andeverything was all good.by the peak of the acid i had bent vision.in that everything was bent in half like a line acroos the tv screen and the picture below was all squiggles.and eventually all that was left of my friend was their haeds floating.
in addition to my visuals i was carrying on a conversation with my self in my head but it souned out loud.and wasnt like i was talking and aswering myself it was like another voice was responding.
this as voice was asking me questions like why was i doing drugs and how has my life chnged for better or worse since then.i aswered with all honesty and really took a deep look at the cause and effect and saw that it wasnt all just for fun that i had issues.and that quite a few people i call friends i met one way or another because of drugs.i also was thinking that we as humans all expierience the same emotions.we may have different cause for why we feel them but the emotion itself always feels the same.we all know what fear feels like,and what joy feels like.the raw emotion itself is felt the same way in all of us. i started thinking about the word drug and what it really meant and i could actually see the letters spelling out the word in front of me.
needless to say this this trp had a great impact on me and they i did drugs.i now research what i put in my body and have changed my life and im working on repairinr relations thas ive hurt with my family and friens since i started using.
i rearranged my priorities.so i dont think thatthat thought process you go through is an insane thing.although you feel a little crasy duringit but more of a deeper close look at reality sometimes and what we consider reality.cause what we call reality isnt written in stone there are so many other pespectives alot of which are more the truth then what the majority belives to be.
i've other trips where i woke up the next day looking at the world differently.for the better.i find i dont take things for granted the way i did.i value myself and others more thaen i ever did.and i approach person i come across as an indivisual for them.i dont if this makes sense it would if i was able to talk to yall person to person im a batter speaker then a writer.ne ways that was one of my most craziest trips.lol
thanks for listening to me babble a little.