Evlorin
Bluelighter
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- May 25, 2004
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Mushrooms-first time-lost in thought
Mushrooms are in season!
I had the chance to purchase about 4 grams of mushrooms from a local dealer that i buy cannabis from. I was told they were extremely potent, he is a frequent mushroom tripper i figured he was just trying to make a good sell, i was right they were just run of the mill average.
I downed all 4 grams, which was immature of me to say the least, at 9:30 pm.
I was talking to friends on the internet and began to feel energetic and euphoric at about 9:45. I became less inhibited and told even my non druggie friends that i was tripping on shrooms and i hoped i turned out okay. I told everyone i loved them even though i rarely tell people i love them. Then the screen started shifting colors and i decided to go get dressed for the trip as i was starting to trip.
i put on thermals and heavy clothing at about 10:00 beginning to see the world in a different perspective. Colors were more beautiful and everything had sort of a hazy fake look to it. I grabbed a backpack of cd's and grabbed about 3 grams of shwag. I was off to meet a friend to guide me as much as i needed.
As i was walking to the local park i noticed all of the lights looked really starry, it was intenesly beautiful and i felt incredibly euphoric. I remembered i was on shrooms and noticed extreme clarity of thought. at about 10:15 i arrived at the park and smoked two bowls split between us.
The sky was so beautiful, thin clouds were streaming across the moon and i kept noticing how colorful they looked. We hopped into a farm and began walking through this small valley filled with pine trees and green lawn. We ended up under a tree and i got completely lost in the leaves. They kept forming beautiful patterns.
My friend told me we were journalists recording a war in korea. Damn that tripped me out i half believed him until i figured out what we were doing. The whole time i felt like i was exploring something however. This wasn't him tripping me out at all, i just felt like i was journeying through something.
After getting lost in the leaves we decided to smoke another bowl and then i told him i felt stable enough to go on alone. We reached the fence and i could not for the life of me hop it, it was really shimmery and appeared very slippery. I told him i'd just go around.
Then i was wondering through this field at about 11:30am i found some cardboard and sat on it. I then felt strangely that i had gone crazy and was now homeless. I was fighting for my insanity it seemed, i was cold and hungry and completely lost in thought. After what seemed a half hour i got up convinced it was just the mushrooms and proceded down to a walkway by the road.
I put on Godspeed You! OH Speedy Black Emperor and was so entranced by the music i sat down on the walkway and gazed at the beautiful stars and slipped into an ethereal world of instrumental rock. the strangest hting happened, my cd player would suddenly stop and start over. I grew scared that i had gotten lost in time. Over and over i'd hear the same song although it was beautiful each time i kept getting lost in the music. TIme had become meaningless.
I finally made it to another park at about 1:30 (it seemed like it had been at least 8 hours) and sat in a baseball field's dugout. Again i thought that i was homeless and was wandering alone, the music kept turning off and on it was so strange being lost in time. I put in Kid A and began my return journey. THe music was so beautiful, each song seemed an eternity of pure bliss, i'd get lost in repetitive things for seeming hours, over and over it would go.
I returned home still listening to kid a and went and layed on the couch. I wasn't getting the visuals i expected and decided to sleep. I could not for the life of me sleep, i lost track of who i was and the music turned off. I began this terrible thought process. I felt like everything, the world, my friends, were all in my head. Everything i had created in the world, including the bluelighters were all just extents of me. I felt like I was the only one existing and everything had been created by me.
I then began to get very delusional, i am currently battling schizophrenia (i know mushrooms should be on my avoid list) and began to think i had really done it this time, i was going to get lost in my delusion forever. My delusion was that i had gotten lost in a thought, i thought my thought would last forever and i would never escape it.
I layed there in discomfort until 5 am when i was still tripping pretty hard, finally i fell asleep at 6am and woke up a completely different person.
Overall i want to try shrooms again but make sure i clear my head first and try to get a more spiritual experience.
This was a very bad report, i'm currently writing it very speedily but i'll come back and edit it later. Sorry i feel kind of bad posting this but i'll revise it after, i'm high too right now so yeah.
Mushrooms are in season!
I had the chance to purchase about 4 grams of mushrooms from a local dealer that i buy cannabis from. I was told they were extremely potent, he is a frequent mushroom tripper i figured he was just trying to make a good sell, i was right they were just run of the mill average.
I downed all 4 grams, which was immature of me to say the least, at 9:30 pm.
I was talking to friends on the internet and began to feel energetic and euphoric at about 9:45. I became less inhibited and told even my non druggie friends that i was tripping on shrooms and i hoped i turned out okay. I told everyone i loved them even though i rarely tell people i love them. Then the screen started shifting colors and i decided to go get dressed for the trip as i was starting to trip.
i put on thermals and heavy clothing at about 10:00 beginning to see the world in a different perspective. Colors were more beautiful and everything had sort of a hazy fake look to it. I grabbed a backpack of cd's and grabbed about 3 grams of shwag. I was off to meet a friend to guide me as much as i needed.
As i was walking to the local park i noticed all of the lights looked really starry, it was intenesly beautiful and i felt incredibly euphoric. I remembered i was on shrooms and noticed extreme clarity of thought. at about 10:15 i arrived at the park and smoked two bowls split between us.
The sky was so beautiful, thin clouds were streaming across the moon and i kept noticing how colorful they looked. We hopped into a farm and began walking through this small valley filled with pine trees and green lawn. We ended up under a tree and i got completely lost in the leaves. They kept forming beautiful patterns.
My friend told me we were journalists recording a war in korea. Damn that tripped me out i half believed him until i figured out what we were doing. The whole time i felt like i was exploring something however. This wasn't him tripping me out at all, i just felt like i was journeying through something.
After getting lost in the leaves we decided to smoke another bowl and then i told him i felt stable enough to go on alone. We reached the fence and i could not for the life of me hop it, it was really shimmery and appeared very slippery. I told him i'd just go around.
Then i was wondering through this field at about 11:30am i found some cardboard and sat on it. I then felt strangely that i had gone crazy and was now homeless. I was fighting for my insanity it seemed, i was cold and hungry and completely lost in thought. After what seemed a half hour i got up convinced it was just the mushrooms and proceded down to a walkway by the road.
I put on Godspeed You! OH Speedy Black Emperor and was so entranced by the music i sat down on the walkway and gazed at the beautiful stars and slipped into an ethereal world of instrumental rock. the strangest hting happened, my cd player would suddenly stop and start over. I grew scared that i had gotten lost in time. Over and over i'd hear the same song although it was beautiful each time i kept getting lost in the music. TIme had become meaningless.
I finally made it to another park at about 1:30 (it seemed like it had been at least 8 hours) and sat in a baseball field's dugout. Again i thought that i was homeless and was wandering alone, the music kept turning off and on it was so strange being lost in time. I put in Kid A and began my return journey. THe music was so beautiful, each song seemed an eternity of pure bliss, i'd get lost in repetitive things for seeming hours, over and over it would go.
I returned home still listening to kid a and went and layed on the couch. I wasn't getting the visuals i expected and decided to sleep. I could not for the life of me sleep, i lost track of who i was and the music turned off. I began this terrible thought process. I felt like everything, the world, my friends, were all in my head. Everything i had created in the world, including the bluelighters were all just extents of me. I felt like I was the only one existing and everything had been created by me.
I then began to get very delusional, i am currently battling schizophrenia (i know mushrooms should be on my avoid list) and began to think i had really done it this time, i was going to get lost in my delusion forever. My delusion was that i had gotten lost in a thought, i thought my thought would last forever and i would never escape it.
I layed there in discomfort until 5 am when i was still tripping pretty hard, finally i fell asleep at 6am and woke up a completely different person.
Overall i want to try shrooms again but make sure i clear my head first and try to get a more spiritual experience.
This was a very bad report, i'm currently writing it very speedily but i'll come back and edit it later. Sorry i feel kind of bad posting this but i'll revise it after, i'm high too right now so yeah.
