GlassShatters
Bluelighter
so the evening began on a strange note, first, half a bottle of blackberry wine, to get myself fairly tipsy. Hanging out with my sister on a saturday night, preparing to goto a bar, and just have a good time, shrooms became available.
All of us quickly capitalizing upon the deal, quickly ingested 1.7 g of the dried fungi, and the evening began.
+30 begin to notice the effects kicking in, a very giggly feeling, look around, everything begins to seem like a scene out of a comedic movie. 5 of us altogether, knowing 2 of the people decently well, the other 3, just beginning to get comfortable with. we watch a few episodes of the simpsons to pass some time, and then we decide to head to a bar/pool hall.
+2 hours, visuals very distinct, very noticeably different than acid visuals. I could describe it in the sense that there were "psychadelic patterns" on everything, but unlike acid, things weren't moving, and the visuals were a seperate entity than the rest of the room, as opposed to blending themselves in. We're sitting at a table at the bar, my sister and her friend are, well, talking loudly to random strangers, making a small, but entertaining scene, the place isn't much on the loudness factor, so they decide to head to another bar, and being under 21, I decided to take my journey home.
+3 hours, sitting in front of my computer, I go online, nobody really to talk to, and surprisingly, music isn't really all that interesting to me, I know there is some underlying purpose to this all happening, I'm not one to escape a psychadelic breakthrough, or do something without a purpose, thus far, my evening has been without purpose.
I lay down, in darkness, under a blanket, and close my eyes. A voice says to me "relax, don't do anything stupid, but I've got something to show you". Removal from the ego occured, the standard for my psychadelic experiences.
Suddenly, a feeling of, discontentment set in, I realized, I have a severe confidence problem, and well, I don't quite fit in, and I never really have. I desire to just be a part of something, but I seem to push myself away, because any action I make, is without the confidence to act upon it. I see the people that have shared a piece of my heart lately, even if just in the smallest sense, and I realize that it's nothing to do with them, but just, I don't emanate the self confidence that people are drawn to, I'm not a bad person, there is nothing wrong with me, but I need to pull myself together.
The rollercoaster was showing me the negatives, kind of giving me a mental swift kick in the butt, saying "pull yourself together, get your life together, make things happen, things aren't going to come to you", I felt distant from the world, but then, just as I felt alone in the entire universe, a feeling came in, showing me what life will be like if I make things happen for myself, and I felt better.
I fell asleep, feeling there, not great, not bad, but just there, knowing I was strong enough to handle the many various emotions that came with my introspective journey.
Overall, I found myself enjoying the effects of acid, the mindset is different, but there is always something special about the magic mushrooms, that will teach you, about yourself, and bluntly.
All of us quickly capitalizing upon the deal, quickly ingested 1.7 g of the dried fungi, and the evening began.
+30 begin to notice the effects kicking in, a very giggly feeling, look around, everything begins to seem like a scene out of a comedic movie. 5 of us altogether, knowing 2 of the people decently well, the other 3, just beginning to get comfortable with. we watch a few episodes of the simpsons to pass some time, and then we decide to head to a bar/pool hall.
+2 hours, visuals very distinct, very noticeably different than acid visuals. I could describe it in the sense that there were "psychadelic patterns" on everything, but unlike acid, things weren't moving, and the visuals were a seperate entity than the rest of the room, as opposed to blending themselves in. We're sitting at a table at the bar, my sister and her friend are, well, talking loudly to random strangers, making a small, but entertaining scene, the place isn't much on the loudness factor, so they decide to head to another bar, and being under 21, I decided to take my journey home.
+3 hours, sitting in front of my computer, I go online, nobody really to talk to, and surprisingly, music isn't really all that interesting to me, I know there is some underlying purpose to this all happening, I'm not one to escape a psychadelic breakthrough, or do something without a purpose, thus far, my evening has been without purpose.
I lay down, in darkness, under a blanket, and close my eyes. A voice says to me "relax, don't do anything stupid, but I've got something to show you". Removal from the ego occured, the standard for my psychadelic experiences.
Suddenly, a feeling of, discontentment set in, I realized, I have a severe confidence problem, and well, I don't quite fit in, and I never really have. I desire to just be a part of something, but I seem to push myself away, because any action I make, is without the confidence to act upon it. I see the people that have shared a piece of my heart lately, even if just in the smallest sense, and I realize that it's nothing to do with them, but just, I don't emanate the self confidence that people are drawn to, I'm not a bad person, there is nothing wrong with me, but I need to pull myself together.
The rollercoaster was showing me the negatives, kind of giving me a mental swift kick in the butt, saying "pull yourself together, get your life together, make things happen, things aren't going to come to you", I felt distant from the world, but then, just as I felt alone in the entire universe, a feeling came in, showing me what life will be like if I make things happen for myself, and I felt better.
I fell asleep, feeling there, not great, not bad, but just there, knowing I was strong enough to handle the many various emotions that came with my introspective journey.
Overall, I found myself enjoying the effects of acid, the mindset is different, but there is always something special about the magic mushrooms, that will teach you, about yourself, and bluntly.
