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Mushrooms / 10 grams - ego death / unexpected level 5 trip

The Dr

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Yet again, I had a chance to indulge in some mushrooms. I picked up 10 grams from a new source that I didn't even know. Met him through a friend though. All week I had been planning on tripping with my friend on either acid or mushrooms. I wanted to give him the best trip he'd ever have in his life. I hadn't seen him all summer because of summer break. Except there was one problem. I ate 5 grams before he got to the campus. I still had plenty to give him, although about 1 hour and a half passed and I didn't feel shit, maybe a slight body buzz. At this point I was pretty sure these were going to be very weak mushrooms. So I just ate the other 5 grams (1 hour or more later).

Slowly after a while, I start to feel the mushrooms a very large amount. Decently large tracers and stuff is actually breathing. I was happy at this point because I was worried I had wasted money on completely bunk shit even myself could not enjoy. Then… It kind all just started to hit me, this was a trip unlike any other trip I've ever experienced. It all started to go complete ape shit (and all of this makes no sense but I'll try my best to explain it from my perspective)

We're in my friends dorm room and I'm completely floored. Laughing hysterically at EVERY little thing. We were watching two shows on discovery, the first show was "call of the wild man". The second one I could take time to look up, but to me while I was laughing all I could think of it was dumb fucking redneck's all over discovery channel. What the fuck is this world coming too? Why are we going down the path of exposing ourself and our children too such bull shit. I told myself that (and everyone in the room) that all the main stream television show actors and paid and trained to manipulate every person who watches the shows as well as subconsciously slowly turn everyone into our nation a retard. I started to make very large connections into my brain when my friend pulled up a giant grateful dead poster.

I was looking into the poster very intently when I was passed a bowl to hit, ripped it then started to puke. At this point I know for certain the psilocybin had already entered my bloodstream. As soon as I went back into the room, I spoke out loud and said. This is destiny. Right now this trip has went from a level 3-4 trip straight to a 5. Patterns were flying all over everything, there was no me, there was no one else existing. We went into another dorm room and I went into a mushroom coma, not a curled up ball. Although I would say a full blown retard who took to much ketamine would be a nice way to picture how I was acting (that's an exaggeration, but it was bad). I found it. The truth had hit me.

The destiny I had discovered is that I had been making the wrong choices in life, the only person who existed in this world was myself and everyone else around me were angles sent my god to do my evaluation of whether or not I was going to heaven or hell. I was telling everyone it was nice knowing them, not sure if they were angles sent by god (even though I knew they were) but I figured whether they were or not, saying good bye to people before passing would make them feel better. I looked at one of my best friends and said, "Hey man once I go to bed, I'm not waking up". This scared the shit out of everyone.

I kept on saying that my heart was about to implode and everyone was telling me I was fine, but what is everyone? Everyone is angles, they have already chosen to path for me. The angles were telling me that if anyone knew if something was wrong with anything it would be you. Are the angles telling me that I can repent for my sins in some way? Regardless, at this point in time, I had accepted death. 100% I did not even care if I died because of the 100000's of connections I was making in my head that made sense to me. When they all left the room, one of my buddies came back in and said, "Just chill here on this couch, and go to bed, it's really nice. Just do some thinking about what you've done and go to bed".

Yes this is it, the end, I know it. I tried to convince myself that I was just tripping, which this type of stuff rarely happens to me. Then I lay down and see the TV is on. What is on TV? Complete ignorant bull shit? Has god sentenced me a horrible death to watch these dumb fucking rednecks? This is not funny. I then glance under the big screen TV and notice a big stack of dvd's… They were stacked in these specific order. Titanic, super high me, fork in the road, dead end, dead end 2 unrated. Yes, this is the end. No doubt, I shouldn't of chosen to get so fucking high in life, i might of been able to meet a true love in my life. This was a big fork in the road. Is this really the end? Yes. You sure? Dead end 2.. Yes it is.

Then I glance over to a poster to the right and notice a illuminati poster. At this point (and I'm far from religious) I get on my hands and knees and starting repenting for the sins in my life. Praying to god that hopefully there is someway that I could die and go to heaven, because I AM dying that night. Then I began to think more and more that, you know what, I don't even know how to do this properly, and at this point I about give up.

I remember before my friends had left, they said that a residential assistant was down the hall and if I needed anything to go talk to her. I'm still in that ego/death realization whatever you folks call it state but the way. I walk down the hallway and knock on the RA's door. Just for some quick background info I've always taken a liking to black jokes, however I love black people, just not n*****s. Low and behold, the RA is a African American straight off the boat. This was excellent, I knew that god had sent her for me to repent my sins. We have a very long heart to heart and she even pulled out a bible and we started reading it.

It was a great way to go before dying, maybe god will forgive me and send me to heaven.. OH WAIT I'M JUST TRIPPING SACK

This might of just been a bunch of mumbo jumbo to everyone else, if you have any specific questions about this experience please do ask. I can't type out everything :) DMT trip for 5 hours? Too much words can't handle it.
 
wow man epic.. when i look back on my bad trip i now realize that i was just extremely lonely and bored it made me realize flaws about myself.heres my story.. i got a hold of a quarter of psilocybe cubensis {penis envy} shrooms from a relative. i had two awesome trips and one bad one. i had a pretty good first trip with my friend,we ate 2 shrooms each. 30 mins later were laughing our asses off and sayin "shrooms" in a weird way and would bust out laughing every time we said shrrooms. we were so full of shroom euphoria that we each ate two more (usually a rookie mistake but it was all good) it was both of our first trips and we were loving it, everything felt funny and was funny, i remember saying this is only the beginnig man!! haha i dont remember exactly what we did the whole time but i was sitting on my bed and we remembered we needed to drink lots of water so i get up from my bed and evrything got brighter and then got darker and then back to normal, and that fascinated me i knew forsure that i was gonna be peaking soon if i wasnt already and we started chugging water, everything was pretty trippy by now and we put on a trippy tunnel video that BLEW us away! it looked unbeleivably trippy it looked like you were falling downwards towards the ground to only go through the bottem and into a different dimension, all the colors were twisting and turning and colliding into each other, pure fascination. if only i could remember the things we talked about during our trip.. haha i guess we did trip a littlee "hard" for our first go because i started to notice that my room wasnt my room, i mean i knew it was my room it just looked off, like it was proportioned different and the walls were too close to eachother or somthing and i noticed my friend wasnt doing as well as i was. i was in magic land and he was in " i think im having a bad trip" land, i tried talking to him and saying hey man, were friends, you can talk to me about anything, im there if you need me and stuff like that. "were on shrooms" we gotta make it what we want it to be, but i think the things i was saying was making him freak more, i said aright lets go drink some milk, and we went to go downstairs (rooms changing brightness again) and my friend stops at the stairs and says cant even do it and ran back to my room he said the stairs never stopped,like some kind of loop, i said we just need to drink some milk, milk will make everything better, he hesitated alot on the stairs but we completed our misson and got to the milk we both drank alot and thats when i realized that i was tripping pretty hard too because the milk like "fixed us" i dont know how to explain it but milk really helps. we get back to my room and we smoked some cigs we were both blown away by how awesome and trippy the smoke looked and we put on some music and just talked about life and smoked cigarettes until we came down then we went to sleep. overall i had an amazing first trip the things i liked the most were the lights getting darker and brigher, the intense laughing the crazy visuals the video provided us and the trippy smoke.i felt in control over my mind and really enjoyed it. the second time i ate shrooms i was by myself with another bag o shrooms and 3 tablets of syrian rue(maoi inhibitor that potenates shrooms) and had an awesome experience, better than first trip i ate 2 shrooms and a tablet of rue.the euphoria when i was smoking a cigerette and i felt so warm and happy i played with the trippy smoke for hours just fascinated by everything, i would look out my window at the snow, the darkness was fuzzy and the trees were swaying and snow was falling, nature is so beautiful. my cat was in the room with me and she looked so fuzzy and detailed and as i was petting her i began thinking that cats are always in some sort of elevated consiuosness and i felt that i was like joining my cat in this elevated conseinceness, i felt that cats are always "tripping" its just natural for them and that what we see and know about cats is just the human perspective of a lesser being and with this elevated conciousness i could see that my cat was way more than just a pet,but a unique being that is living in its own world within the world that humans created, i "realized" or atleast think i realized that cats see more than humans do like they can see everything in the "human world" while also being able to see things in the "cat world" that humans cant see, i dont mean physical objects but like little things that the human mind couldnt percieve like maybe theres some element that human consience just cant percieve, it just wouldnt exist to humans but a cats consience could percieve and therfore exist to cats. i dont know it seemed so right at the time of thought. shroom thoughts are crazy!! but thats all i remember from that trip.. and finally the bad trip story begins i was planning on getting more penis envy shrooms to do again with my friend because the previous experiences i had were great and was hoping for an even better trip with my bud, one of my other friends had money to throw but didnt have as much as he said would so i ended up with half the amount i told the guy i would have but got the rest fronted to me, which i didnt really want to do but did anyways because i had this planed for a while so i give my friend his half and he left to go eat them with his bro. i get home and call up my friend and told him i got the shrooms but he wanted to bring some other person over and i told him i wasnt trying to be a dick but i dont have enough for three people, i shouldve just said yes because he ended up not coming over and i felt like a dick and i was kind of pissed because i had to get them fronted to me and i had to walk everywhere to get those shrooms to trip with my friend who ended up not coming over because he couldnt bring his friend, i couldve said yes i dont know why, i just didnt want the other guy there because i didnt know beforehand. i had it planned out for weeks and it didnt go the way i wanted it too, so now im alone in my room with 4 shrooms 1 cap and two capsules of rue, i thought well we will trip next week. but i still wanted to trip that night and i thought about taking 1 shroom and a capsule of rue. i knew it would be a bad idea to trip because i was in a bad mindset and things didnt go as planned. but then i thought fuck it ill chill and play some video games and put myself in a good mindset. BAAAAAD IDEAA about an hour later i thought i was good to trip and picked up smallest shroom it was a fat little wicked looking one and i ate it and took the rue(i had the shroom on my bed and my small cat licked it) about 20 mins later i realize that im tired and i didnt want what i was starting to feel...........FUCK i knew i was in for a loooong night. things werent so trippy and awesome this time. i felt like shit i was lonley, ive never felt so lonely before and i was just depressed things didnt look bright and happy it was just grey and dull i tried to play some super nintendo but i just couldnt do it, didnt know what to do with myself so i tried to go to sleep but that didnt work at all my thoughts were attacking me i was so lonely and depressed and not wanting to be tripping i just laid there looking at a clock that took hours to change a minuite my eyes began to cry, i wasnt like physicly boohooing crying tears were just coming out i thought wtf im crying? it didnt feel like a normal cry when your sad and you cry.. it didnt feel like that it just felt like my eyes were leaking and my nose was dripping but there was nothing ever on my nose when i wiped and checked so i dont even know if i was even really crying or not, i thought some milk would help me (my room didnt feel like my room it felt different) i get off my bed and opened my door i saw one of my cats at the door and one on the ledge and one walking i swear i pet him as i walked by, i drank a shitload of milk and came back up went into my room then realized i didnt see any cats coming back up and busted back into the hallway to see no cats and i was mindfucked because i saw the cats there and i pet one and i was downstairs for a minuite and didnt see any of the cats come down the stairs or anything so i was trying to figure out what the hell happened i assumed i hallucinated them because it would be strange for my cats to do what they did when i opened my door, i wanted a cat because i was just so lonely i got over the mind fuck and found my little cat playing with the cat i thought i saw in front of my door i pick up the little cat and walk upstairs and she flipped out in my hand like she was twisting and flipping wich was unusual i put her on my bed and light up a cigerette i felt better now that there was another presence in the room and the ciggerette was good and the smoke was trippy and things got brighter for a couple minuitesuntil i started paying attention to the little cat who was playing with litarlly nothing it was unusual for her to act the way she, she was was biting herself and jummping on things that werent there and she started biting dry wall and ate it and then it hit me, i thought OH SHIT SHE LICKED THE SHROOM!! and she was going all around my room earlier i started to think she was hunting for little mushroom peices that fell on the floor, i still dont know if she was tripping or if my head was just fucking with me, but she was definatly not acting normal she seemed really schizo and was biting herself and chasing after things that werent there(or it was normal kitten behavior and she looked like she was trippen) but ifreaked me out she mewed at me like she wanted help and i just thought damn i poisened myself and my cat with these shrooms. i comforted the kitten who evenually fell asleep and i sat there thinking about how crazy people and schizophrenia and stuff its like there tripping all the time idk i dont really remember anything else it was just a huge mindfuck the next day i was glad to be back to normal and that the bad trip wasnt to bad in the end because i learned some things about myself and pointed me in the right direction to become a better person
 
Now here's something to consider: were they acute or obtuse angles?

seriously though, awesome report. thanks for sharing your experience.
 
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Eating anything much past 5 to 6 grams just seems very wreckless to me. I never enjoyed the stomach issues involved with consuming much more then 5 grams. Also mushrooms do have a range for potency, I did indeed consume an 1/8th at one point and it did a lot more to me then I would have anticipated, but those were "fresh" just dehydrated batch, and the fact that they were still just a bit chewy made them all the more disgusting to consume. Alas that was when I was young before I knew about making teas and smoothie shakes

I also had an opportunity to make a smoothie from a very dry batch of Oregon Blues and that trip while being just under an 1/8th was physically increadibly pleasant and visually stunning yet mild.... hard to describe, not so much about shapes and patterns as it was about color and flow.
 
8 grams was about as far as I ever want to go, 6 grams with 2 grams of syrian rue was downright scary.
 
I'm not going to write a trip report for the oz of mushrooms. However I will say that eating a quantity that high was very intense on all aspects. I got incredibly sick, spitting up blood, body was very very tense (needed lots of stretching). I was watching tv and peoples faces were distorted in ways I had never thought were possible. Eye where mouth is, mouth where eye is. Double vision, everything was massively tilting… Fun times, I think I'm done tripping for a while

Edit: I was by myself which was the only reason I didn't lose my mind.
 
Glad to here you are still with us.. Look man, that dose.... those shroom's do have some poisionous aspects to them, consumeing that amount was dangerous IMO. Your body and your brain were probably under an increadible influence.


what were you hopeing to achieve? Inter/inner dimensional travel?
 
weadazoid said:
Glad to here you are still with us.. Look man, that dose.... those shroom's do have some poisionous aspects to them, consumeing that amount was dangerous IMO. Your body and your brain were probably under an increadible influence.


what were you hopeing to achieve? Inter/inner dimensional travel?
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I honestly wanted to see how far you can take the human mind with the use of psychedelic mushrooms. At least at this point in my psychonaut career
 
Hello, I was going to write a short question that ended up long. If you want me to move this post to another thread please let me know.....

Hey guys I have just been reading out of interest here and I was wondering if seeing as some of you seem very experienced you could answer a question for me?

Six or Seven years ago when I was 18yo I smoked weed and had an experience that has made me able to relate to some trip reports here. My question is, can weed actually cause what I experienced or was it something else?

I rolled a joint from a bag of weed I had used twice before and shared it with a friend. I had only smoked weed a handful of times but I always hallucinated and had crazy experiences just from weed, especially compared to my friends; most of whom just felt relaxed and chilled out by weed (no tripping).

It was quite a while ago so I don't remember everything but do remember vividly and intensely the part of the experience that changed my life for the worse. After smoking my mate and I were having a good time. We are like minded and both hallucinated from weed when others didn't. Soon after smoking we decided to walk around the block. We must have done a few laps and were experiencing mild hallucinations. Then we both heard a noise and got scared and we started running the 2-300 meters towards my house. We were running next to each other and I honestly believed we were running at about 100kph. Then after 30 meters or so I couldn't feel my legs and thought they were lifted off the ground at 90 degrees to my body, kind of like a long jumper in action. But I was still floating down the street without my legs at 100kph. I mentioned this to my friend who said "Same thing is happening to me man the is crazy." Etc etc.

We get to my house and jump into his Van parked at the bottom of a small hill that leads to my front door. We were trying to get all the doors locked and barricade ourselves inside the van. The hallucinations started getting stronger. Some colours and shapes and seeing things that weren't there. Then both my friend and I all of a sudden could see and feel water or a liquid filling up inside the van. The liquid passed up our knees and hips and we thought we would drown while panicking trying to get the doors to open to let the water out (in hindsight, his Van smelt of acetone and I believe it was a strong smell trigger). We were about to go up the small hill to my house when my friend thought it would be funny to say "demons are after you man run".

I got a little scared and ran towards my front door. I got up the hill, into the patio area and that's where I froze stiff. I stood there for no longer than a few seconds but it felt a bit longer. I will try explain this as best I can. I felt something suck my mind or soul out of my body and I felt like I was flying through the air at the speed of sound. I watched the earth get smaller under my feet. I was travelling extremely fast up and up. I very quickly flew past the stars and then all of a sudden, BLACK. Pitch blackness. However, I felt like I was still moving upwards just as fast for another 5 seconds and then BAM! pure white. As bright white as I could imagine is all I could see around me. I was no longer moving but just floating there. Then I felt like I had millions and millions and millions of thoughts go through my mind in mere seconds. I thought I had lived through every single 6 billion people's lives from berth to death, plus every person that has ever lived. I felt like I not only physically lived through billions of lifetimes but had every single thought every person has ever had go through my head. I felt like all of that happened in 10 seconds. Including living billions of lifetimes at once. After that I thought or heard something like "you wanted to know, now you know". Like I had all knowledge of everything in our universe and it was not a good thing.

After what felt like 20 seconds, I entered my house, lay down on my couch in the fetal position and lay there scared out of my mind.

This messed me up pretty badly and it still worries me today for a couple of reasons.

But for now all I want to know is, can weed do that to some people or was it something else? Because I just read a trip report about certain people that hallucinate from weed and are susceptible to schizophrenia later in life. I do not smoke weed now and am petrified of any hallucinogens! But have always wanted to know if it was just weed

Thanks for reading it feels good just to get that off my chest
 
Turtle, from my experiences.. I can say one time it felt like I was tripping from marijuana, that was the first few times I smoked weed in my life. Also my advice would be to try to relax your mind and not think about it. YOUR FINE, it's just marijuana. Although it does kinda sound like it was laced with DMT, but I highly doubt that. The more you think about it, the worse it is going to get. If you feel that it is something that is causing a extreme detriment to yourself then I would recommend getting professional help. Mental illness tends to hit people around the age of 19. You should go to thread I just created under sober living called sobriety/ mental support. ALSO, one thing I've learned is if you fear something in life, sometimes it is good to face it. Yadda yadda, I could make my own book, just go to that thread for it has nothing to do with this one lol, just trying to help.
 
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