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Mona Meets Meth

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I could make this a long winded step by step account of my first experience with meth yesterday, but procrastination's a bitch and I've been doing it for way too long now
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Gotta get back to the study.
Pillcat once said, with such commitment and vigour that one couldn't help but believe her; "I love GHB! I want to marry it! I want to MARRY GHB!
Well friends, much the same could be said in regards to my affair with meth - rather, the 'beginning' of my affair with meth.
However, instead of wholly committing myself to this wonderful substance so many abhorr, I resign to the fact that my relationship with meth will go no further than "casual sex" status.
Something I can go crazy with without the pressure of commitment
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I was able to remain objective long enough to see the power this drug can have over one's mind (to be quite honest, and fortunately for me, i forgot the baggy when i went out last night otherwise I'd still be higher than the AMP tower right now).
To explain a little better - when i hit the peak - and oooooooh yeeeeess.. there WAS a peak, as the blood rushed to my head, a gloriously delicious explosion of butterflies in my tummy, emotions in my head that swirled down to the bottom of my heart.. my god, i was beautiful, the world was a wonderful place to be and I wanted to get off the bus and run with the cows in the paddock on the side of the road
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- i wanted more... more.. MORE..I WANTED MORE!!!
I think I may have even verbally expressed my newfound love for meth, luckily enough Teenage Dirtbag was playing loudly enough in the background so the bus driver didn't hear me (however i DID burst out into song when the chorus came on, too engrossed in my own little coccoon of happiness and joy to remember that I was't alone)..
Anyway.. instead of getting shitty because I left the baggy at home (i was only going up to uni to watch the 3rd year films hehee)i actually thanked myself.. if i had access to more at that moment, there is absolutely NO WAY i would have been able to restrain myself.
Looking back on it now, actually looking back on those few moments (about 30mins all up) i can totally see how people can fall to this drug, i'm glad i can see its potential and know how it works (i know this sounds wanky, but hear me out).
See I've never ever ever ever in my life felt like that (strongly) about a drug. In a way, I know it wasn't me feeling or thinking it, it was the meth. The thoughts were so UN-ME, unrestrained and absolutely nutty.. but it was good to be able to 'feel' like i would do absolutely anything, ANYTHING for another line, yet be able to see the danger in actually having it.. make sense?
Saying all this - as soon exams are over, I am going all out with this drug. Knowing full well what I am getting into, I want to be able to try meth without the need for restraint. No, I don't mean I'm gonna go out and take it all day everyday (doesn't it suck that I have to add that little disclaimer just so people wont freak out and go "oh she's going to become an addict!) I just want to be able to take it in a situation when I don't have to study for exams the next day.
I want to be able to shovel another massive line o' the stuff just when i'm feeling like I would do ANYHTING for it.. at the exact moment in time when i realise i'm, in love with meth
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The experimentation is far from over.. oh yes, it merely begins on the 27th on November
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Fark, this turned out to be long after all!
 
Hey Mona,
I just have a few Q's:
In your post you mentioned another 'line' which of course suggests you snorted it- I just wanted to clarify this as I thought that meth had to be freebased.
What form was it in- powder or crystal- and what colour? And what's the going rate for meth (sold by the g)??
I've noticed a widening popularity for the stuff lately,(sorry to say, with dire consequences for those that have gotten too involved, always without realising it) and was just trying to suss out a bit more incase the opportuniy ever arose.
Anyhow, I'm SURE I don't really need to say it, but just be really cautious. From all accounts meth sounds like pretty potent, addictive and generally harmful stuff, so BE CAREFUL.
CHeers
B
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Milky: No meth does not by any means ever have to be smoked. You can shoot it, snort it, eat it, smoke it... it's ALL good. Snorting is a good method of ingestion, but a lot of people prefer smoking (although it is more addictive), because it lasts longer with a LOT less. Shooting is something I haven't persued.
MONA: I know we talked but I'd like to just take this moment to say a few things, if I might take up some room in your post.
Meth and I go back. Actually Crystal-meth and I go back - not that yellow powder shit. CRYSTAL meth. The kind you do a half inch bump and you are SPUN feeling like Jesus Christ. A line and you are just fucking off the hook - the best feeling you've ever had. Shit like that. Snorted.
I hated it for a long time because I felt that IT had a hold of my brain, or my actions and thoughts. I realize now that it was just my selfishness and hedonism and a destructive side -- all of it ME. I've come to a working relationship with crystal-meth, we don't fight anymore and I keep myself healthy. I found that once I grew up little bit, addiction wasn't even an issue.
Fiends and very mislead people let chemicals get ahold of their lives. That's what I say, it's not the chemical.
With all that said I'd like to just say another thing.
MORE. Yes. there is a little inside joke I have going that no one really knows about but I might as well reveal it. I say "MORE!" a lot... in reference to a lot of things but really I found out about that hedonistic aspect of my personality after many outtings with meth.
"I am so high"
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"I want more"
--- 20 mins after first line
--- have another one
"yes... MORE!"
It never got me into trouble but I definatly know what you're talking about mona, and there's no reason for me to warn you about LD-50 and all that, just be aware is all that you can OD on it. OD's on meth are hard-pressed though...
Main thing is to have fun and watch out for yourself. Your nosey friends will be sure to bug you if you start behaving even remotely different. I found that so annoying that I shut out all my friends, thinking them idiots and ignorant. Honestly I wasn't acting much different, and they WERE blowing it all out of porportion cause they knew I was doing crystal. Where I went wrong, in retrospect, was shutting them out completely. I turned them off and stopped listening. I'm only 130 pounds... and even after losing 15lbs I wasn't listening to anyone, they were all tuned out. I think it was one day after looking in the mirror and being discusted with myself is when I put it all behind me. That, and I broke every pre-rule I had set for myself after doing meth for seven days straight (with sleep of course).
I still don't admit that I fucked up with meth, because I didn't. I just got carried away. I lost my self into relentless hedonism. Ecstasy use at that time was extreme for me... I did it A LOT. I did whatever I could to satisfy that need for SOMETHING good. meth was just another way to accomplish it. E has it's blame for the weight loss just as much as meth does. I didn't fuck up cause I walked away without looking back. I will never accept that as a way of life for myself (being spun and fucking addicted to drugs).
Though I did have 'shakes' for a day or two after I stopped completely as well as the WORST headaches I had to get some barbituates for from the doctor.
Everyone has a horror story and a bad ending. Honestly though, fuck all of them.
Crystal Meth is your lover. Crystal is your best friend and the only one that will listen to you when things go to hell. Just don't abuse her and she'll be good to you.
Pyro - Tim
 
Milkybar: I cut the meth with Gluc 2 parts gluc, 1 part meth... purely to avoid the sting factor and also to help me ration it correctly (i'm infamous for tipping out oo much and sayin "oops, i tipped out too much..oh..nevermind i'll have it anyway" i didn't want to do that with this stuff seeing as though I was unaware of its potency etc etc
My meth was in crystal form, kind of off white to browny yellow and pretty wet.. and it smells like dead ants
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So yeah.. when I say 'another line' i mean another line of the cut stuff.. or as pyro put it, a bump (a line of the cut stuff would be equivalent to a bump of the uncut). Fuck me, if i'd been having lines of the pure.. woohee.
Pyro: 'twas with you in mind that this thread were borne.
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Thankyou for your input - it was partly things you had previously told me that allowed me to identify those otherwise indescribable feelings i had during the peak. I finally "understood" everything you had ever told me about crystal
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just so people can understand a little further.
goey DOES NOT = crystal meth
crystal meth is GOD
where as goey is an angel without wings.
Pyro
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Well well well...! I'm thrilled to be quoted in absence! I just gotta say, that GHB and I, after roughly one year of unparalleled marital bliss, are about to begin a trial separation period. "It's not you, it's me," he promised, and I'm inclined to believe him, because only about 5 millilitres of his former glorious litre self remains. So we're taking a break to restock and regroup. In the meantime, I would be more than happy to indulge in an "affairette" with Meth. GHB and I have an open relationship, and appreciate that it's important to see other people to avoid co-dependence.
Talk to you soon, mona, when you back down here? And do I buy meth from who I think I do?
 
Well *raises hand to heart* I am honoured.
A cameo player.. in my thread. Old skool at that.
You snivelling trollop you! You just want me for my meth
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Just kidding.. you know I'll always be your bitch.
How did I know you would be on the prowl for a new fancy as soon as your mits were off G and pills, and speed is in such scarce supply. HA!
Umm.. I will email you.
hahahaaa.
love ya PC.
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Crystalline madness!
The intense burn of the snort, the total shredding of the nostrils from all those shards of glass like crystals powering into the blood stream.
Crystal is the hardest of hard drugs. You think you have a bit of control over it, but the crystals hold all the power. The scariest/best/worst part of it is that it is so easy! So easy just to have a quick line here, oops and a quick line there....and oh fuck I have been awake for 4 days!
Anyway appreciate the power it holds, but have a large amount of respect for its subtle power.
Later
Aus
 
A reply to the discussion of meth...
I'm up in brisbane (the meth capital of australia), and it is one of the most common substances up here. Every man, his dog, his aunt, cousin, secon cousin ...you get the idea makes it...now, don't flame me for this, but f**k it is a dangerous drug...take too much and you'll be up for 8 days with the beginnings of meth psychosis... the meth that we have up here is what is commonly called ice overseas...we also have the yellowy-wet tiny crystals, but that is refered to as base...uncut amphetamine...the crystal meth that goes around bris is clear large crystals...almost looks like smallish chunks of quartz crystal/glass. You only need to take one of these crystals- if you snorted this stuff, your nose would bleed. one crystal would keep you charging for about 9.5 hours or more...i kid you not. I'm not sure if different states have different names for drugs, i'm sure they do, but from when mona said 'yellowy wet looking stuff' sorta reminded me of uncut base... do you guys buy your meth and amphetamines in points? you can also get it in grams, etc, but 1 point is 1/10 of a gram... the essential difference between meth and base is that 1 point of base will keep you up for 1.5 days and 1 point of meth would keep you up for...god knows how long!!!
So mona, from one bl'er to another, be careful, and as long as you respect the power of a drug, all will be peachy. I've seen alot of people go from really strong people, to blithering idiots in a matter of a couple of months due to meth...like one of my friends always says...
"the crystal meth causes character death"
only if you abuse it tho...
good luck.
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btw....i'm not trying to put anything and anyone down, i maybe sound too paranoid, but maybe its just because it is so widespread up here, and soooooo many people abuse it.
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when your fun becomes your reality...what do you do for fun???
 
hi mona,
welcome to the fold. while meth and i have had more of an affair than a relationship, the other night i rekindled a bit of the old flame by swallowing a couple of crystals while working (i drive a cab). the feelings i felt were awesome. the warm rush of it coming on, the vibe of well being and goodness at the peak, and the delirious dreams while trying to sleep coming off, were those long forgotten. i hadn't used it outside of a club or rave for a long time, and had forgotten just how seductive it was. i want to do it more often, but i will not, for many of the reasons that were posted by others before me. it's a demanding relationship, one which could end up in tears, and the best way i have found to enjoy meth is through more of a flirtatious affair.
now ecstasy, that's another story. _I_ want to marry ecstasy. MDMA, not her not so pretty sister MDEA
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a quick word to samadhi, and i quote:
"when your fun becomes your reality...what do you do for fun???"
one of the funniest and most soulsearching sigs i've ever read. thanx.
 
Mr Fluffy,
THank you heaps for the words about my sig.
I have had a few comments about it, one person saying..but life is fun!!! To that i say...yes, but there are many levels of fun-there is fun, and then theres' FUN...we have many levels of FUN...one of which is what most people talk about in these pages...
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But i wouldn't like to have that FUN as my reality---but hey....live and let live, we always say...
about marrying mdma...i am part of a couple,and mdma is our child...can get naughty sometimes, but 95% of the time is VERY well behaved...now be nice eccy...
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when your fun becomes your reality...what do you do for fun???
 
Well...
The person I got it from told me it was meth... and i trust that person, so *shrug* who knows..
 
woah
2 highly addictive drugs, GHB and the methamphetamine.
but seriously kiddies (even though I'm probably younger then you all) don't play with fire, it may burn you....
RIGHT RIGHT? RIGHT RIGHT!!
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This ecstacy's got me standin next to you
Getting sentimental as fuck spillin guts to you
We just met, but I think I'm in love with you
But you're on it too, so you tell me you love me too
Wake up in the mornin like "Yo, what the fuck we do?"
I gotta go bitch, you know I have stuff to do
Cause if I get caught cheatin then I'm stuck with you
 
When was GHB brought into this? Apart from the Pillcat quote?
and anyway.. as if GHB is HIGHLY addictive. I realise it *can* be addictive, but nowhere near as addictive as say.. oohh.. CIGARETTES!
point made.
 
doesnt sound like METH...sounds like BASE...
i dont think you be wanting to snort meth 2:1...
even good base i'd recommend 5:1 or 6:1 gluc:base...
well thats if you care about your septum
 
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