I have been diagnosed with ADHD, and I used to have social anxiety but I haven't for quite some time. My new pill regime prescribed by my psychiatrist is:
Morning: Vyvanse 30mg, Dextroamphetamine
Bedtime: Mirtazopine 15mg (for appetite and sleep) & Risperidone 1mg
So I haven't exactly been on track with taking my Risperidone and all my morning meds for quite awhile. I did take all my AM meds this morning though as I will every morning from here on out due to the experience I had the past two nights. I used to take 60mg vyvanse every morning So I had a bit of tolerance to vyvanse. I've also been smoking weed for about a year now.
That sums up my background, I'm happy to go into more detail if requested if it will help answer any questions.
Here's what happened..
When I went to bed I popped the Mirtazopine 15mg like my psychiatrist told me too. Now being the curious guy I am I obviously researched this new drug a bit before I took it. I read some people's reports that it can actually act as a hullucinogenic drug because it affects certain receptors in the brain, the same receptors that other phsycoactive drugs react on. But I wasn't too concerned because what I read was that you need to be on a pretty heavy dose to actually get high from it.
None of this is made up. I swear to Christ this is exactly as I remember it. The following "trip" took place on my second night taking the Mirtazopine. I ONLY took 15mg
Well, that seemed to be enough because low and behold as I was falling asleep I began to hear voices.. barely audible at first but they slowly grew louder then I was out. But I didn't feel like was asleep. The moment I "fell asleep" I actually felt my body come out of itself. Like literally, I was paralyzed in my bed and I visually could see myself float out of my body... Then just like that I was running through a dimly lit city. Kinda like if you turned the brightness way down when your playing GTA. It was so vivid I knew I was dreaming at that point because I looked at my hands and they were wet but they felt dry. I figured I was simply lucid dreaming. But then shit got wierd. I was in a different realm. It felt evil, dark, and unknown. Like I'd entered into some depths of my brain that I was never supposed to go in. I knew I was tripping. But I couldn't stop it. I went along with it. I literally hijacked a tank and blew it up. The wierd part: it was in a dessert but then I appeared downstairs in my house with the couch flipped over. I was still asleep but I didn't know what was real anymore. I covered the entrance to the "tank" (couch) with a pillow I think to keep whatever was in there from escaping.. I was scared of it I guess? next thing I knew I was back in a dessert looking at two corpses wearing blue hospital masks with a beautiful women lying next to them. Then I teleported again, into my bed. I thought I was actually awake at this point so I reached up to turn on my lamp but when I flipped the switch nothing happened.. I knew I was still asleep at that point because this has actually happened before. Where I thought I woke up and I try to turn on the light switch but the lights don't come on. Keep in mind I'm actually paralyzed in my bed this entire time. Now I teleport again, behind my bed and stuck between the wall.
What the fuck is going on here.
Stick with me. Shit gets weirder.
Finally morning comes I really do wake up this time. I check my phone, read some snapchats and I decide to go back to sleep.. that was a big mistake.
As I'm falling back to sleep I begin to hear the voices again. This time children laughing, police sirens, people having conversations. Everything just talking. And it all sounded like it was coming from inside my room. When I fell asleep I instantly felt the same out of body experience that I felt before. I was literally thrust into a different world. I was around alot of people. Most of them unrecognizable some I knew personally. At one point I thought I was hugging my girlfriend and it turned out to be some girl I'd never seen before. Again, I thought I had woken up only to this time, actually feeling myself paralyzed in my bed. This false "awaking" would end up occuring multiple times. Now, this is the wierdest part.. I had a conversation with my mom and saw my dad come into my room. I could hear another man in my hallway. My dad left my room and that man walked into my room, went downstairs and then he left. Also I felt something slap my butt. I still could feel myself completely paralyzed and I knew I was asleep so I did something that would seem not to make any sense.
I opened my eyes. In real life I opened my eyes while I was asleep.
I saw my room, and I saw my hand on the sheets.. So, I waved my hand in front of my face. I couldn't see it. It was still lying there frozen on the sheets. I could make out very very faint outlines of my hand moving in front of me but I realize now I did something that should be impossible. I was in the void between consciousness and sleep. Me moving my hand in front of my face, that was all in my head. I was paralyzed and I actually saw myself paralyzed then I eventually woke up after a couple more "false awakenings".
That's it. So does anyone have any insight as to why this happened and how the fuck this was even possible.
-Thanks guys
Morning: Vyvanse 30mg, Dextroamphetamine
Bedtime: Mirtazopine 15mg (for appetite and sleep) & Risperidone 1mg
So I haven't exactly been on track with taking my Risperidone and all my morning meds for quite awhile. I did take all my AM meds this morning though as I will every morning from here on out due to the experience I had the past two nights. I used to take 60mg vyvanse every morning So I had a bit of tolerance to vyvanse. I've also been smoking weed for about a year now.
That sums up my background, I'm happy to go into more detail if requested if it will help answer any questions.
Here's what happened..
When I went to bed I popped the Mirtazopine 15mg like my psychiatrist told me too. Now being the curious guy I am I obviously researched this new drug a bit before I took it. I read some people's reports that it can actually act as a hullucinogenic drug because it affects certain receptors in the brain, the same receptors that other phsycoactive drugs react on. But I wasn't too concerned because what I read was that you need to be on a pretty heavy dose to actually get high from it.
None of this is made up. I swear to Christ this is exactly as I remember it. The following "trip" took place on my second night taking the Mirtazopine. I ONLY took 15mg
Well, that seemed to be enough because low and behold as I was falling asleep I began to hear voices.. barely audible at first but they slowly grew louder then I was out. But I didn't feel like was asleep. The moment I "fell asleep" I actually felt my body come out of itself. Like literally, I was paralyzed in my bed and I visually could see myself float out of my body... Then just like that I was running through a dimly lit city. Kinda like if you turned the brightness way down when your playing GTA. It was so vivid I knew I was dreaming at that point because I looked at my hands and they were wet but they felt dry. I figured I was simply lucid dreaming. But then shit got wierd. I was in a different realm. It felt evil, dark, and unknown. Like I'd entered into some depths of my brain that I was never supposed to go in. I knew I was tripping. But I couldn't stop it. I went along with it. I literally hijacked a tank and blew it up. The wierd part: it was in a dessert but then I appeared downstairs in my house with the couch flipped over. I was still asleep but I didn't know what was real anymore. I covered the entrance to the "tank" (couch) with a pillow I think to keep whatever was in there from escaping.. I was scared of it I guess? next thing I knew I was back in a dessert looking at two corpses wearing blue hospital masks with a beautiful women lying next to them. Then I teleported again, into my bed. I thought I was actually awake at this point so I reached up to turn on my lamp but when I flipped the switch nothing happened.. I knew I was still asleep at that point because this has actually happened before. Where I thought I woke up and I try to turn on the light switch but the lights don't come on. Keep in mind I'm actually paralyzed in my bed this entire time. Now I teleport again, behind my bed and stuck between the wall.
What the fuck is going on here.
Stick with me. Shit gets weirder.
Finally morning comes I really do wake up this time. I check my phone, read some snapchats and I decide to go back to sleep.. that was a big mistake.
As I'm falling back to sleep I begin to hear the voices again. This time children laughing, police sirens, people having conversations. Everything just talking. And it all sounded like it was coming from inside my room. When I fell asleep I instantly felt the same out of body experience that I felt before. I was literally thrust into a different world. I was around alot of people. Most of them unrecognizable some I knew personally. At one point I thought I was hugging my girlfriend and it turned out to be some girl I'd never seen before. Again, I thought I had woken up only to this time, actually feeling myself paralyzed in my bed. This false "awaking" would end up occuring multiple times. Now, this is the wierdest part.. I had a conversation with my mom and saw my dad come into my room. I could hear another man in my hallway. My dad left my room and that man walked into my room, went downstairs and then he left. Also I felt something slap my butt. I still could feel myself completely paralyzed and I knew I was asleep so I did something that would seem not to make any sense.
I opened my eyes. In real life I opened my eyes while I was asleep.
I saw my room, and I saw my hand on the sheets.. So, I waved my hand in front of my face. I couldn't see it. It was still lying there frozen on the sheets. I could make out very very faint outlines of my hand moving in front of me but I realize now I did something that should be impossible. I was in the void between consciousness and sleep. Me moving my hand in front of my face, that was all in my head. I was paralyzed and I actually saw myself paralyzed then I eventually woke up after a couple more "false awakenings".
That's it. So does anyone have any insight as to why this happened and how the fuck this was even possible.
-Thanks guys
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