SunThatShines
Ex-Bluelighter
A little bit about me.
Before Meth use:
21 yrs old.
6ft. 160 lbs (Swimmers body with Pecs and abs) I worked out often, ate healthy (protein shakes etc.)
People always said I looked like "Ian Somerhalder" and should be a model. (HA!)
Had a lovely girlfriend that cared about me a lot.
Had goals,ambitions, and was about to start college.
I started using meth about a month ago max. Maybe more like 3 weeks ago.
Anyways, I tried it...Enjoyed it, felt way confident, happy as hell, nothing could piss me off, Life was just amazing! I felt that it made me a better person, and improved me. I tried it the first time...Enjoyed it..then did it again 2 days later, then I did it the day after that, then before I realized it, I was pawning things like my computer,digital camera etc. to get money for the drug...(WOW!) this shit is not like ANY other drug on the planet. I've taken benzo's before and was able to control myself on them and not get addicted, only smoked weed occasionally etc. The best way I can explain meth is this.... The smoke,crystals etc. are little demons and once they cross the blood brain barrier, they will live there and MAKE you do the craziest shit just to satisfy them by getting more of the drug.
After about 3 weeks of Meth use:
Lost 10 lbs. (no more pecs, my arms are thin, I lost over a years worth of hard working putting on muscle)
Acne like crazy! (On my face, shoulders, back, and even forearms!)
Lost my girlfriend (I stopped spending time with her, the drugs were more important, and while high on the drug I didn't care that she left me because meth was my new romance.)
No goals or ambitions..My hobbies don't interest me anymore, my only goal was to either score more of the drug or to stay high. No interest in finding a job or starting school anymore.
Pawned the following objects for the drug: laptop,camera,silver bracelet,diamond dog tag necklace,cell phone,dvds etc.
My sleeping schedule is wack now, I usually go to bed when people are usually waking up! wtf!
which means of course I'm sleeping while people are working and making a nice living, and Wake up usually when people are getting off work.
I'm not sure but I feel like my teeth are suffering already. (not sure though).
I'm pale as fuck, probably due to not being awake during daylight hours, plus dehydration that the drug brings with it. (I drank TONS of water though.)
.....
As you can see, 3 weeks of using this drug (crystal methamphetamine) fucked me!!
how can a drug do this? how can it literally change your personality and erase all the things you cared about...The answer is simple, the drug causes your brain to release dopamine, so instead of having to work for accomplishment/achievment and then feel good about completing or doing something good for you, all you have to do is take a hit and you get the feeling of satisfaction right away.
I wanted to make a thread so people can see what this shit can do to you. (yes I know there's meth commercials and the sterotype shit, but seriously this stuff will take your soul and feed it to the devil.)
I'm now struggling to get off the drug....No physical withdrawl effects, just mental.... And what makes it hard is to be sober and then realize all the dumb shit you did while high for that amount of time, and how badly you damaged your life....You get so depressed because of that, and thats why you want to relapse because you dont want to cope/deal with the damage you did while on the drug.
I know some people can use meth once or twice and not get addicted, and some people claim to use it occasionally....That's great, but seriously your playing fire...better yet, your playing with something hotter, your playing with LAVA! ! !
my plan to kick the drug, and fix my life:
Stop using the drug, and realize I did do damage to my life, and fix it....get a job,start college, start eating healthy and hitting the gym again....And show my now EX that I just was in a place for a few weeks (she doesn't know i was on drugs). . . then maybe she'll come back....who knows.
Anyways, has anybody else on bluelight ever had meth/stimulants fuck there life up so quickly? And if so, how did you kick the habit and get back to normal?
(I know about tyrosine,5htp,eating lots of protein etc. for easing the comedown).
P.S. Is there a good way to clear up my acne besides for proactive,aquagena, and the typical facial wash's ? because I have sensitive skin and usually just washed my face with water and never had acne prior to meth use
I hope this thread gets the attention it needs to hopefully prevent people from losing they're loved ones, and themselves.
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Before Meth use:
21 yrs old.
6ft. 160 lbs (Swimmers body with Pecs and abs) I worked out often, ate healthy (protein shakes etc.)
People always said I looked like "Ian Somerhalder" and should be a model. (HA!)
Had a lovely girlfriend that cared about me a lot.
Had goals,ambitions, and was about to start college.
I started using meth about a month ago max. Maybe more like 3 weeks ago.
Anyways, I tried it...Enjoyed it, felt way confident, happy as hell, nothing could piss me off, Life was just amazing! I felt that it made me a better person, and improved me. I tried it the first time...Enjoyed it..then did it again 2 days later, then I did it the day after that, then before I realized it, I was pawning things like my computer,digital camera etc. to get money for the drug...(WOW!) this shit is not like ANY other drug on the planet. I've taken benzo's before and was able to control myself on them and not get addicted, only smoked weed occasionally etc. The best way I can explain meth is this.... The smoke,crystals etc. are little demons and once they cross the blood brain barrier, they will live there and MAKE you do the craziest shit just to satisfy them by getting more of the drug.
After about 3 weeks of Meth use:
Lost 10 lbs. (no more pecs, my arms are thin, I lost over a years worth of hard working putting on muscle)
Acne like crazy! (On my face, shoulders, back, and even forearms!)
Lost my girlfriend (I stopped spending time with her, the drugs were more important, and while high on the drug I didn't care that she left me because meth was my new romance.)
No goals or ambitions..My hobbies don't interest me anymore, my only goal was to either score more of the drug or to stay high. No interest in finding a job or starting school anymore.
Pawned the following objects for the drug: laptop,camera,silver bracelet,diamond dog tag necklace,cell phone,dvds etc.
My sleeping schedule is wack now, I usually go to bed when people are usually waking up! wtf!
which means of course I'm sleeping while people are working and making a nice living, and Wake up usually when people are getting off work.I'm not sure but I feel like my teeth are suffering already. (not sure though).
I'm pale as fuck, probably due to not being awake during daylight hours, plus dehydration that the drug brings with it. (I drank TONS of water though.)
.....
As you can see, 3 weeks of using this drug (crystal methamphetamine) fucked me!!
how can a drug do this? how can it literally change your personality and erase all the things you cared about...The answer is simple, the drug causes your brain to release dopamine, so instead of having to work for accomplishment/achievment and then feel good about completing or doing something good for you, all you have to do is take a hit and you get the feeling of satisfaction right away.
I wanted to make a thread so people can see what this shit can do to you. (yes I know there's meth commercials and the sterotype shit, but seriously this stuff will take your soul and feed it to the devil.)
I'm now struggling to get off the drug....No physical withdrawl effects, just mental.... And what makes it hard is to be sober and then realize all the dumb shit you did while high for that amount of time, and how badly you damaged your life....You get so depressed because of that, and thats why you want to relapse because you dont want to cope/deal with the damage you did while on the drug.
I know some people can use meth once or twice and not get addicted, and some people claim to use it occasionally....That's great, but seriously your playing fire...better yet, your playing with something hotter, your playing with LAVA! ! !
my plan to kick the drug, and fix my life:
Stop using the drug, and realize I did do damage to my life, and fix it....get a job,start college, start eating healthy and hitting the gym again....And show my now EX that I just was in a place for a few weeks (she doesn't know i was on drugs). . . then maybe she'll come back....who knows.
Anyways, has anybody else on bluelight ever had meth/stimulants fuck there life up so quickly? And if so, how did you kick the habit and get back to normal?
(I know about tyrosine,5htp,eating lots of protein etc. for easing the comedown).
P.S. Is there a good way to clear up my acne besides for proactive,aquagena, and the typical facial wash's ? because I have sensitive skin and usually just washed my face with water and never had acne prior to meth use
I hope this thread gets the attention it needs to hopefully prevent people from losing they're loved ones, and themselves.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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You'll probably look back on this in 10 years and laugh. If nothing else you've learnt from this experience.
