Though I post sparingly I'm likely not too familiar here, so to update the most recent and then lead into my question:
After finally giving up the literal greatest love and lover of my life Heroin, with Suboxone being a toy to at first make it easier to use and switch between the two, only to not have as much covered as my Heroin boosted heavy, decided to go on Methadone as a means of really getting clean, finding the only Clinic that allowed me to stay on all my medications, didn't have a ceiling dose (though at first they bring you to 60) and let you stay on the Methadone as long as you so care for, many staying on it the rest of their life I being one of such a person.)
People can use any illegal drug and not kicked out even Heroin, some even come to the place nodding, but they're not allowed take home bottles until at least 3 months of clean urine. Then one, and another one every extra three months, occasionally though they expect so much of you inside and to come within specific times no matter what, many take their time when assigning take homes, as it needs to go through numerous people. Fortunately my counselor seems driven to get me take homes. (And though curious with Heroin twice, it's highly doubtful I'll get tested within the time frame to see if I was using. Two days by tomorrow and I didn't use too much.
By the time of 1 year and 3-6 months I'll be able to reach my highest take home level, needing only go once a week, no longer have to go to the once a week group unless I want to, (thus having Saturday off giving me a full weekend, taking the normal 3 hours out of my day. And still up dosages when needed, (daytime Doctor only ups you 10 MG once a week if asked, night/Evening time I heard ups you as much as you want, starting you off with +20) Going to him if I can hold out tomorrow until 3 or so tomorrow. As you'll soon see why.
Any way, even though most of the cravings are quelled, I get a damn good feeling from mixing all the meds together to the point it feels like a Heroin buzz minus the shooting rush (making me look for legal yet still pleasantly or relaxing drugs to help with that. And am going to see if I can luck out with the family Doctor and get the last of my desired drugs (and the only one I don't need, Soma.)
I still used Dope twice, the first after my first urine in a month, once I only used two bags. I felt their effects pretty close to what they normally would be, then upped myself another 10 on Methadone in two days, though I didn't really feel any discomfort.
Two days ago I decided I'd get 6 bags of Dope for the hell of it. Didn't have heavy cravings, knew eventually it would lead to it but wanted to see how it all interacts and how high I'll get.
It was the weekend, had my extra bottle they give you for Sunday.
I assumed I'd use it over the course of the absence of the Methadone in my system, which was for around an extra 12 hours of the norm, bringing it to around 36 before until my next Methadone Dosage.
Felt good, I enjoyed the break and return to my old high, used less than would normally had been with the case of Heroin. (As I'd usually at least go through 10 bags of the same potent stuff in one night.)
So after waiting 7 hours for the last 1 1/2 bags of Dope to be more so out of myself reasonably, I drank my Bottle of Methadone, which felt quite pleasant.
However something quite unfortunate happened, by the morning I woke up early and didn't feel the greatest, it wouldn't be for another 8-12 hours I'd be feeling like straight hell, but I wasn't off to a good start. Usually my Methadone would easily keep me good at the very least 30 hours before discomfort of such a kind.
I went to my clinic and got upped from 70 to 80 today, the night before took my Methadone which would have been around 12 hours earlier than usual. (Meaning I felt uncomfortable within 12 hours, rather than the full on 30, and know by 24 I'd really be feeling ill.)
My question to the group is; though I know it will only be another day's wait, but, even though I'm feeling quite nice now, do you think my levels are back and balanced enough to last me comfortably until tomorrow.
If not and I feel some discomfort, would one other dose with the half life likely boost me to where I need to be?
Tomorrow I hope to tough it out even if everything seems to be going fine, and see the "evening Doctor" (the two rotate days,) who gets in around 2-3pm a good 6 hours past my normal dose, though from what I've been told he ups daily if so asked, to not need a weeks wait, will likely up me another 20 MG to start and keep upping me 10 every day, or sometimes every other day until I feel balanced. Then I plan to add another 20 once I feel fully straight (which for me would probably bring me from feeling really nice and balanced, as I've talked to some folks who have been on it a while and said once they reached a little higher than their right dose, they were feeling buzzes, this person being at 110, me being at just now 80, am going to aim at most 130 for now, so if I feel good and mellowed nice with the various other legal drugs in my arsenal, I should really be set, and it would then lessen cravings even more and take care of getting high off Heroin for 36-40 some odd hours. From what I've heard from someone who seemed quite knowledgeable, there are different forms of Methadone, and this one is a weaker form, thus at one point during an emergency (the needed to switch clinics, from their for around a week he was taken to a Clinic with Methadone (of such a technical name it escapes my knowledge) had him so messed up he said he needed it lowered there for him to even concentrate. So what might be 80 here may be 60 or even 50 on a higher form of Methadone.
Ours is a clear liquid, of a medicinal natural tastes slightly bitter, but I love it's taste as I've grown to love the taste of any Medicine, as I usually affiliate it with highs. (Thus when I was on Ativan, (now switched to Klonopin thankfully) with it's sweet sugary binder, I would put a little bit of benadryl into the mix just to keep it bitter.
Anyway, I digress, it would seem my plan to have the Heroin act as my bridge to Methadone dosage for a day backfired. And considering I took my first take home "Dose" 12 hours later, got dosed 12 hours early with an extra 10 MG added today, I wanted to know if I can likely expect to be even again, perhaps need another day, or even need to up my dosage another consistently to keep things running smoothy.
Either way, if I can handle the 5-6 hour wait, even if feeling fine I'll give it another few kicks up. Even though my usage of Heroin was more a mixture of nostalgia, and being board, this will make it less a form of craving (even early on) and making sure it is not as easy to get high, or as high from, but still useful if ever something such as the clinic is iced over and not open without any means of giving patients their Methadone (has happened before as I've been told.)
Thus when the time comes and I have a number of take home bottles, I won't be rushing out every few days to get more dope.
Thanks folks, long read, but I have a habit of such natures.
After finally giving up the literal greatest love and lover of my life Heroin, with Suboxone being a toy to at first make it easier to use and switch between the two, only to not have as much covered as my Heroin boosted heavy, decided to go on Methadone as a means of really getting clean, finding the only Clinic that allowed me to stay on all my medications, didn't have a ceiling dose (though at first they bring you to 60) and let you stay on the Methadone as long as you so care for, many staying on it the rest of their life I being one of such a person.)
People can use any illegal drug and not kicked out even Heroin, some even come to the place nodding, but they're not allowed take home bottles until at least 3 months of clean urine. Then one, and another one every extra three months, occasionally though they expect so much of you inside and to come within specific times no matter what, many take their time when assigning take homes, as it needs to go through numerous people. Fortunately my counselor seems driven to get me take homes. (And though curious with Heroin twice, it's highly doubtful I'll get tested within the time frame to see if I was using. Two days by tomorrow and I didn't use too much.
By the time of 1 year and 3-6 months I'll be able to reach my highest take home level, needing only go once a week, no longer have to go to the once a week group unless I want to, (thus having Saturday off giving me a full weekend, taking the normal 3 hours out of my day. And still up dosages when needed, (daytime Doctor only ups you 10 MG once a week if asked, night/Evening time I heard ups you as much as you want, starting you off with +20) Going to him if I can hold out tomorrow until 3 or so tomorrow. As you'll soon see why.
Any way, even though most of the cravings are quelled, I get a damn good feeling from mixing all the meds together to the point it feels like a Heroin buzz minus the shooting rush (making me look for legal yet still pleasantly or relaxing drugs to help with that. And am going to see if I can luck out with the family Doctor and get the last of my desired drugs (and the only one I don't need, Soma.)
I still used Dope twice, the first after my first urine in a month, once I only used two bags. I felt their effects pretty close to what they normally would be, then upped myself another 10 on Methadone in two days, though I didn't really feel any discomfort.
Two days ago I decided I'd get 6 bags of Dope for the hell of it. Didn't have heavy cravings, knew eventually it would lead to it but wanted to see how it all interacts and how high I'll get.
It was the weekend, had my extra bottle they give you for Sunday.
I assumed I'd use it over the course of the absence of the Methadone in my system, which was for around an extra 12 hours of the norm, bringing it to around 36 before until my next Methadone Dosage.
Felt good, I enjoyed the break and return to my old high, used less than would normally had been with the case of Heroin. (As I'd usually at least go through 10 bags of the same potent stuff in one night.)
So after waiting 7 hours for the last 1 1/2 bags of Dope to be more so out of myself reasonably, I drank my Bottle of Methadone, which felt quite pleasant.
However something quite unfortunate happened, by the morning I woke up early and didn't feel the greatest, it wouldn't be for another 8-12 hours I'd be feeling like straight hell, but I wasn't off to a good start. Usually my Methadone would easily keep me good at the very least 30 hours before discomfort of such a kind.
I went to my clinic and got upped from 70 to 80 today, the night before took my Methadone which would have been around 12 hours earlier than usual. (Meaning I felt uncomfortable within 12 hours, rather than the full on 30, and know by 24 I'd really be feeling ill.)
My question to the group is; though I know it will only be another day's wait, but, even though I'm feeling quite nice now, do you think my levels are back and balanced enough to last me comfortably until tomorrow.
If not and I feel some discomfort, would one other dose with the half life likely boost me to where I need to be?
Tomorrow I hope to tough it out even if everything seems to be going fine, and see the "evening Doctor" (the two rotate days,) who gets in around 2-3pm a good 6 hours past my normal dose, though from what I've been told he ups daily if so asked, to not need a weeks wait, will likely up me another 20 MG to start and keep upping me 10 every day, or sometimes every other day until I feel balanced. Then I plan to add another 20 once I feel fully straight (which for me would probably bring me from feeling really nice and balanced, as I've talked to some folks who have been on it a while and said once they reached a little higher than their right dose, they were feeling buzzes, this person being at 110, me being at just now 80, am going to aim at most 130 for now, so if I feel good and mellowed nice with the various other legal drugs in my arsenal, I should really be set, and it would then lessen cravings even more and take care of getting high off Heroin for 36-40 some odd hours. From what I've heard from someone who seemed quite knowledgeable, there are different forms of Methadone, and this one is a weaker form, thus at one point during an emergency (the needed to switch clinics, from their for around a week he was taken to a Clinic with Methadone (of such a technical name it escapes my knowledge) had him so messed up he said he needed it lowered there for him to even concentrate. So what might be 80 here may be 60 or even 50 on a higher form of Methadone.
Ours is a clear liquid, of a medicinal natural tastes slightly bitter, but I love it's taste as I've grown to love the taste of any Medicine, as I usually affiliate it with highs. (Thus when I was on Ativan, (now switched to Klonopin thankfully) with it's sweet sugary binder, I would put a little bit of benadryl into the mix just to keep it bitter.
Anyway, I digress, it would seem my plan to have the Heroin act as my bridge to Methadone dosage for a day backfired. And considering I took my first take home "Dose" 12 hours later, got dosed 12 hours early with an extra 10 MG added today, I wanted to know if I can likely expect to be even again, perhaps need another day, or even need to up my dosage another consistently to keep things running smoothy.
Either way, if I can handle the 5-6 hour wait, even if feeling fine I'll give it another few kicks up. Even though my usage of Heroin was more a mixture of nostalgia, and being board, this will make it less a form of craving (even early on) and making sure it is not as easy to get high, or as high from, but still useful if ever something such as the clinic is iced over and not open without any means of giving patients their Methadone (has happened before as I've been told.)
Thus when the time comes and I have a number of take home bottles, I won't be rushing out every few days to get more dope.
Thanks folks, long read, but I have a habit of such natures.
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feel free to message me whenever if you need friendly support (though I can't help you with the calculations, honestly not really sure what you're up to lol. ) Good luck!