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DCtx901

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Hey everyone I'm new just recently made an account after lurking for a long time. So anyway, I have been using methamphetamine for about 4 months. I was wondering has anyone gotten to the point where they just aren't comfortable spending time around others?

Either out of distrust for them, like you think they want to take advantage of you, or you can just feel them silently judging you because of how spun out you are. Depending on the type of people they are, it can also seem to be about how much you've changed as a person since you started using. Has anyone had similar experiences? Also could this be rational? Or can it be attributed to paranoia/psychosis?
 
Isolation, degradation, and the world of the spun loaner.
Your feelings are quite common, so no immediate worries...
Are you ‘keeping up appearances’? Have you been sleeping and or eating?
 
I have been eating more than before which was like, not at all. I do still tend to stay up for too long. I'll sleep once or twice every 5-6 days. Appearances? Well, I'll go through the motions with the people that don't know I use, but the ones that know I pretty much stay away from save for one or two. They just give a disapproving, judgemental vibe. Ironically they are all former/occasional tweakers themselves.
 
A little hint, most of that is in your head. I used daily for 2 years, large amounts each day. When I got clean, some of the people I thought were judging me for using, didn't even realize I was using.
 
I thought it probably was in my head. So, makes sense. But the people that actually do know and use themselves or use to at least is what gets to me. Because they're so hypocritical and cruel. Why make fun of and joke about a person's struggle esp. When you've been there or are even currently in a similar position yourself
 
I agree but they definitely seem to think so for some outrageous reason. But I do what I can to brush it off and try to stay around the couple people that don't judge and understand how difficult it can be for different people. Anyway thanks for the replies
 
I just don’t like other people

When I used meth I would prefer to make music, read, wrote a lot

I only wanted to be around other people to have sex

Or to get more drugs (lol)

No paranoia or hallucinations here.

Haven’t used it in years.

I shot it near daily for about 9 months. Dabbled on/off for a while longer.

Quitting was easy for me (heroin and buprenorphine withdrawal were the worst for me)
 
I've been clean a little over 4 months, I preferred smoking it, snorting doesn't work well for me because my nose is pretty trashed, and needles and I have a very bad history.

I liked to work out when I was high, was always spun at work, I also just put it down and haven't looked back
 
I'm similar as in I don't like people either and really only associate with others for sex or to get more. The hard part for me is that my family has a long history of meth abuse which is readily apparent in their appearance and personality. Plus the area I live in is meth- Infested for lack of a better term. But I have heard and seen in close friends that opiate/opioid addiction is serious shit
 
Yeah I'm in an area heavy in both. I've done both, was an iv morphine addict for years, that was a struggle. Meth sucked the life out of me though
 
bptubbs I wish I had a legit job I could excel at by use of meth but I lost my most recent one.I've been going more questionable routes to make money. As far as hallucinations go, just auditory and seeing shadows never any full on visuals. But I definitely hear all sorts of shit that's not really there when im really outta there.
 
I got pretty delusional, to the point that Id go awol for days at a time, the only person who'd hear from me was my dealer, and he was pretty sketched out too. I'm talking full on delusions and hallucinations
 
Yeah I've done heroin before back when I was into coke. The person I got it through liked to mix his H with coke and I couldn't resist the curiosity. But I've aways been a stimulant kinda guy. Can definitely confirm meth sucks the life right out of you.
 
Yeah I was an iv coke and morphine addict for 2 or 3 years, I got worse health wise on that then meth, meth just pushed me batshit crazy
 
Yeah I sort of cut off everyone due to being paranoid that they were all conspiring against me. Some of them genuinely were, so I'm lucky there. But the ones that weren't I'm too ashamed to try and mend fences with them. So basically the only people I really interact with are my connects who don't really care how twacked I am as long as I'm paying them.
 
Never Iv'd anything before, but meth definitely makes people lose their shit completely. Maybe just temporarily, but I've met people that act a certain way that can only make sense to me by knowing their ridiculous history of meth abuse
 
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