• 💊 OTHER DRUGS 💊 Welcome Guest
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
    Notable Threads 1 Notable Threads 2
    Dangerous Combos Addiction Support
    Emergency Services Benzo Guide v.1
    Addiction Stories Scary Case Studies
    Biology, Pharmacology & Drugs 101
  • Select Your Topic Then Scroll Down
    Alcohol Bupe Benzos
    Cocaine Heroin Opioids
    RCs Stimulants Misc
    Harm Reduction All Topics Gabapentinoids
    Tired of your habit? Struggling to cope?
    Want to regain control or get sober?
    Visit our Recovery Support Forums

Stimulants Meth Relapse.... HELP!!

H

hh95

Bluelighter
Joined
Apr 11, 2014
Messages
166
Welll About 8 Weeks ago I was admitted into a psychiatric hospital for methamphetamine addiction. I have Been clean for 8 weeks until last night I bought a halfweight and smoked the whole lot later on early in the morning then shot another 2 points followed by shooting another 2 points an hour or soo later. Now for my normal use this is quiet a binge, I am coming down now and feel like absolute shit. I feel like a failure. I am wandering although I feel pretty crappy I don't have any desire too get more (which is readily available) my question is in other peoples experience of relapse on meth, once you do it one time after quitting should I go get reffered back to rehab or should I just push through it and see how I go. Im scared that once I completely come down my cravings and depression and what not will go through the roof, should I see my doctor or what? Im quiet confused and would like some others opinions as I am determined too get off the shit.
 
If you made it 8 weeks clean before you had a slip up I think that's pretty good. It's good that you feel remorse from it and feel guilty, if you find the comedown so dysphoric you'll probably not repeat the experience again. I don't think you should go running bcd to rehab after slipping once, if you can get something positive out of this negative experience like you really shouldn't be using meth because it makes you feel this way then well maybe it's a silver lining? Plus the fact that you actually want to stop using is a good sign to.

I've never really had a problem with meth, I've used it but never been addicted. Mind you I have been addicted to cocaine so I know what a stimulant addiction is like (I've also been addicted to heroin) and yea it is a slippery slope, I can see how one use can really end up in a huge setback.
 
Yeh I feel like utter shit. utter shit. But I think if I just keep going with my non use and just treat it as a minor setback. Particularly since I have no desire whatsoever to repeat it. But don't get me wrong it was fucking awesome while I was high but now I just feel like shit coming down. I think im doing well and I don't think I should go back too rehab after one slip up. But I do need something for this anxiety that I am facing with cravings and depression im thinking a low dose of Valium or something too take the edge off because I just keep getting these overwhelming cravings which suck balls and get me down.
 
Write this down and post it somewhere you can see. Keep it near by. When you start to have thoughts of another relapse, read it. Remember how Shitty you feel right now and how you don't want to go back to that. If you pick up the phone to call your dealer; call a friend who will support your attempt to get clean instead.

Good luck :)
 
Sometimes a relapse is the best thing to happen to someone when they look back on their road to recovery. It can really be a almost beneficial thing cause it reaffirms why they dont want to live that way. Its a little taste of when they were strung out and out of control. Not sayin everyone go run out and relapse. But ive seen it turn into a postive lesson for people.

As addicts , sometimes over time we forget. We forget just how shitty it was and when you get that first blast of whatever, it just brings all those shitty feelings back which is what seemed to happen here. I would definitely make note of this in writing and keep it near you where you sleep at night. I did that after alcohol nearly cost me my life. I was three days out of the hospital and said i need to remember this cause my brain will let me forget so i wrote a little 3 page letter to myself about what happened making sure i noted the emotions and despair i had, folded it up, dated it and wrote last run on it. From time to time ill read it and im so glad i did that. Takes you right back more than our addict brain will over time.
 
Yeah man just try your best to do the right thing. Don't beat yourself up when you make a mistake. It will only make it harder to get clean if you feel guilty. Your an addict you gotta cut yourself some slack and don't let guilt get in the way of you getting clean.
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top