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Meth feels like most damaging drug I used, caused brain-damaged feeling in a few uses

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This is not going to be a long post. Just something to help people reconsider any thoughts of meth use.
I did fine with small doses, but I took large doses about 3 weeks apart. After the first time, I felt mentally dull at least a week and more depressed even longer. The second time I tried dosing high, I felt brain damaged. That has been 2 or 3 weeks at least (I think) and I don't think I have quite returned to normal. My mind still feels somewhat impaired :( but I think it will return to normal as it has improved. My brother can take much more than me and that last time, he was showing me how I should do it for best results and I smoked too much.

It seems to me that any drug that leaves one feeling impaired so long after use carries a significant risk of long term or permanent damage. I'd recommend staying away from meth but if you are going to do it, PLEASE stop if you feel it affecting your cognitive abilities negatively because if you don't, they may not come back to you. Should also have a home blood pressure monitor - my blood pressure got dangerously high the last time I used meth and got really high another time (don't have the blood pressures on drugs notebook handy(hope like hell I find it - some are in computer files but most on paper) , but the top number was over 200 at one point.

Anyway, if using maybe 125-150mg of meth in 15 hours or so can make a person feel mentally impaired so long, I think it is a good assumption that at least part of the population are affected strongly by neurotoxic effects of meth.
 
I've never done meth, but this sounds similar to how I felt when I took Delsym, which is another source of DXM. Felt like I had brain damage.

From ALL accounts, meth is BAD and should be avoided at all times, under all circumstances. It's better to just have a boring, sober time than to even consider taking any meth. I plan on never doing it, but I also planned on never doing heroin and I have ended up having short bouts with that and going through mild withdrawals that were very unpleasant, after only a few weeks of use. Drugs are just so fuckin bad man. But nothing is much worse than alcohol, meth and opiates, besides benzos (as far as withdrawals go).
 
Some people smoke a gram upwards a day in the U.S where it's cheap. Holy Shit!

As for that metal cloud .... Weed does the same thing to me ... The more you worry the worse it will become.

It's like a bee sting ... some get a small prick and a rash. Some swell up and have trouble breathing.

Sounds like a bad reaction. But again your mind can play games and the more you worry the worse it gets.

Good luck!
 
Yeah. It is getting better. I just felt pretty scared and worried for a while that I had screwed up my brain permanently along with any chance of making a positive impact on the world.
I really do believe if I did that a few more times I would be damaged. I mean, I have been really excessive with use of other drugs and it never made me feel so mentally impaired for as long as this meth after wearing off. Perhaps I am genetically susceptible to its negative effects. Maybe my fear was an overreaction.

I just think it would be foolish for me to go at it again and risk it for a high. I'd be fine taking tiny doses like I did in the beginning but I don't even want to do that. I'd like to have a stimulant in case I take to much of something(s) and my blood pressure gets dangerously low like it has a few times before as a safety measure but not meth.

I stayed away from Bluelight for a while after I think both times I felt I had fucked up my brain with meth because I felt ashamed of what I had done to myself and I also felt depressed. I posted this mostly as a warning to others who may feel meth or something else is causing cognitive difficulties that they need to listen to what their mind is telling them before it is too late and permanent damage is done.

I have felt dull for a while after using lots of drugs other than meth in excess, but I don't think any affected me as bad as meth and I did not even go on what most people would consider a huge binge. Perhaps the meth was cut with something else that made the toxic effects worse but I do not want to risk brain damage by trying it again. If I take a drug and stay high for a day or two and feel brain damaged for like two weeks, I am going to consider the potential harm too great as well as the cost of side effects to use it again.

I say you should listen to your mind and body and if either is telling you you need to stop, you should heed that warning.
 
I've smoked meth a few times with my neighbor... it was nice but the negatives far outweighed the positives. Each time, the next day was intensely bad. I never smoked more than 5 hits either, and just 3 all of the times but the last. The first time I did it I took poppy tea the next day and actually had a really nice night, but it just didn't feel right. The negatives actually scared me, whereas usually when I have a hangover from a drug I just chalk it up to the price I had to pay.
 
Yes, its not a good drug.. I'm going on 2 weeks without using meth and im finally starting to get better to sleep.
Thee first week I was In so much pain in my mouth/teeth! Like I just had to hit a bowl to help with my teeth pain(weird huh).
Now here in the second week I still feel like If I only had a bowl..
The mental cravings are still there but physically I am feeling a lot better.
 
Ive tried almost every drug out there several times each but after The first time i tried meth about a week later i found myself using every single day for The Next 6 months.. i never really gave my brain a break to recooperate. Binging without any sleep for as much as 5-7 days at a time with 4 hours of sleep between each binge. My brain feels very different these days, dont feel normal anymore and Ive been sober for 5 months..
 
I don't think meth will give you permanent damage from one use. Studies say even that after 10 year use of meth the damages will be repaired. I smoked meth several times but didint feel any brain damage. Also done lots of speed but I feel totally normal after stopping. If you dont sleep and eat it will gives you brain damage even if doing so sobber.
 
Good decision to not pick that up again. Thanks for sharing your experience--I've never tried it and your post was helpful.
 
I had to give it to my girlfriend at the time to throw it away because I couldn't myself. I didn't even like it... small bumps were giving me hardcore panic symptoms half the time. I just couldn't stop doing it.

What a miserable drug. I swear the line of coke I took the other day was cut with it, as the high seemed to have a 12 hour half life and linger for 3 days, while I experienced horrendous panic attacks for days afterwards from a single little line.
 
So I was curious as to the side effects of meth usage, I'm not a user but I have seen a lot of friends who've had crazy weird side effects. A specific friend has pain in the abdomen, is it the chemicals just fucking up your stomach? Once again, not much of a stimulant person, just trying to help a paranoid friend who doesn't have an account but does browse often. She's wondering when the abdominal pain will end after dosing (railing) about 12 hours ago.
Does suboxone help with the pain/ comedown ? Thank you, idk if she may need to see a dr.
 
I know folks that mix dope with us s in their shots, they swear by it. I did it that way once. Not my cup o tea. Never been a sub fan tho.
 
ShroomySatori said:
Feels even more brain damaging than Mdma after a few uses? That would be hard to believe, although I've definitely heard meth is more toxic (still hard to believe... that Mdma is poison).
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I've never looked up the chemicals of mdma but looking up the chemicals in meth, I would think meth is wayyy harsher on your body than mdma. I
 
ShroomySatori said:
Feels even more brain damaging than Mdma after a few uses? That would be hard to believe, although I've definitely heard meth is more toxic (still hard to believe... that Mdma is poison).
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Yeah mdma is like pure ecstasy unless it's cut like meth is. As far as brain damage vs. internal damage, I'd still think the chemicals in meth would be worse than mdma.
 
And Mdma still fucks a lot of people up. So this must be some seriously nasty poison... I'm glad I was attracted to opiates over stimulants - even with extreme abuse, I feel like my good old self very quickly again.

I feel like those are the types of drugs that can fuck your head up long term with limited use (Mdma, meth, cocaine, etc.)
 
ShroomySatori said:
And Mdma still fucks a lot of people up. So this must be some seriously nasty poison... I'm glad I was attracted to opiates over stimulants - even with extreme abuse, I feel like my good old self very quickly again.

I feel like those are the types of drugs that can fuck your head up long term with limited use (Mdma, meth, cocaine, etc.)
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I've never understood meth heads & cocaine addicts, etc.
I enjoy sleep, not staying up for days.
 
Ya seriously. I cannot comprehend it at all. I don't understand how you could maintain a functional life in any way whatsoever abusing those... and I'd rather be mellow, not wired. Also, the cuts, impurities etc. that are used these days in those are just awful - levamisole in coke, god knows what in meth... like wtf. No thanks.

But I think people's brains are just wired differently. If they had the same effect on everyone else as they do on myself, then nobody would use them - as all I experience is extreme anxiety. I am very high strung as it is, so I think that's why. Definitely not complaining... those are way more damaging to the body.
 
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