Meth. Advice needed. I'm pretty sure my family found my stash

[Paperthinheart]

So I couldn't find my drugs this morning when I was getting ready for work. I started freaking out and wanted to search the place like crazy but I stayed calm. Looked everywhere that I could think of while getting ready but didn't find it.

My family acted normal but I'm concerned what will happen when I come home. If they confront me I'm not sure if I should lie (I think I have a fairly good cover story) or just own up to it.

And what happens then? Maybe they'll kick me out. I've hardly ever even done drugs before and this was my first time having any of my own that I was using for later or whatever. Never had a stash before. And my dumb inexperienced ass went and left it somewhere in the open probably when I was all high.

Damn. Im not sure if im being meth paranoid or realistic about anything anymore. Especially this. I need to try and covertly find my damn drugs. I mean what if they did find them and got rid of them or something idk but then it's never even mentioned to me. What does that mean? I'm confused. If they found it they would have said something, right?

 

[Jackplays]

Imo, you may have just misplaced it (I do this on weed all the time), then I'll freak out for 2 weeks and find it, safe and sound, in a month or 2.

 

[Ilove2nod]

Shit that sucks.. I have done this a few times over the years with other shit, never even tried meth here where I live, as it isn't available for some reason in my area... but I have however left my needles out and went to work a couple of times. My parents flipped their shit the first time.. I walked in my room and found my sock where I stash them, laying next to all the rigs that were inside, my spoon and my whole kit, just laying there and they said nothing until I walked in my room and they left me with no choice but to own up to it. They were really mad at first, but I reluctantly explained myself and told them I had a problem with IV drug use and wouldn't be able to stop whether they were to kick me out or not. They got over it after that day, and just acted as if it never happened. The second time I did this again, like a year after the first time, same exact deal found all my IV kit laid out on my bed, but this time I didn't say anything to them nor did they say anything to me, but we both knew what was going on! It was very awkward, and I didn't want to get in a fight or anything, I think they just wanted to deny the fact that I am an IV drug user and don't want to know, and just ignore it! They never said a word about it leaving me stumped on what exactly was going to happen and that was months ago... At this point they know I am an addict, have found all sorts of paraphenallia like crack pipes, straws, foil from smoking H or oxy... all kinds of shit. They just know they cant change me, and don't want me to be on the street using dirty needles and stuff, would rather me be safe about it, since I am going to do it one way or another.. I feel like a piece of shit whenever they do find things, but I am always up front these days if they ask what I do.

 

[Paperthinheart]

I hope that is the case. I've been home for a while now and things still seem pretty normal or, maybe my mom seems a little high but it could be my imagination.

I've continued looking but no luck. There's only so many places it could be. I don't have much space of my own. Not even my own room. But anyway.

I went to a gas station and threw my pipe in the trash. So if I never find the small amount I had that will be the end and if I don't ever find it the end is now. Can't continue to let this drug try and take me over. For me personally I was going overboard and didn't know if I could stop.
This must have been what I needed I guess.

 

[Ilove2nod]

Yeah, street stimulants are no good on a person after awhile of abusing them, been there with coke and crack... And for a brief period of maybe a year I had switched from cocaine both types of it soft and hard, to a-pvp better known as flakka, because it was known for being similar to meth looked just like it, though I have only heard they are similar, because I haven't ever seen or even so much as heard of meth being in my area! Probably the only drug that isn't... That shit wreaked havoc on my life, staying up for days on end, smoking and injecting a-pvp, not eating anything. It was so bad. I am very glad it suddenly just disappeared from the scene around here, because for a while I was trippin out on that shit, really just tweaking out seeing numerous times, people and shit that wasn't really there.. hearing things too. I would stay away from it while you still can, if meth is anything like that a-pvp shit was, which I believe the two are similar in lots of ways... but don't quote me on that, as again never seen meth in real life.

 

[CFC]

Sounds like you should be thankful if they did find it and trash it. You really don't want to go down this route, especially at your age. If you do find it, make a promise to yourself you'll flush it away right there and then (don't think about it or you may stop). And then try to forget the feeling.

 

[Paperthinheart]

I found it in the computer room trash. Whoever found it hopefully didn't know what it was. I'm so relieved!