crOOk
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Hi people!
I've had one manic episode last year which doesn't fully qualify due to it's short duration, but I'm experiencing (ultra-)ultra-rapid cycling between hypomania and major depression and frequent mixed episodes and I just cannot take it anymore. If I stop taking everything altogether, I will go into a stable hypomania than drop down into major depression after a month or so. I am at a loss. The only medication that's ever made me feel sane is olanazpine which I self medicated with. The problem is that it will not do shit for my depression and I just cannot be studying medicine and care for my daughter adequately while I am depressed. My life will go to hell if I go on olanzapine.
So I thought about suggesting Lamotrigine and Olanzapine to my psychiatrist. Has anyone made experiences with this combination? I have never tried the former myself, but have heard great things. How were the dosing schedules or can it be used as needed? My brain is torturing me and I need a break, I jsut don't know who I am anymore, my affections are all fake and have been for an eternity. Olanzapine makes me feel so damn sane, so healthy, it is lovely. But if I'd take that outside of a hypomanic state I'd surely get stuck under my blanket for an eternity. During hypomania it doesn't even fully alleviate my lack of urge to sleep, it really just evens me out to a state that feels perfectly right. Right now I'm in a hypomanic state and cannot wait to leave the house, but tears have been streaming since last night. What is this fucking shit, I hate my fucking brain, sometimes I just wanna tear my head apart and get in there to fix things. :/
Please give me some advice what to do!
I've had one manic episode last year which doesn't fully qualify due to it's short duration, but I'm experiencing (ultra-)ultra-rapid cycling between hypomania and major depression and frequent mixed episodes and I just cannot take it anymore. If I stop taking everything altogether, I will go into a stable hypomania than drop down into major depression after a month or so. I am at a loss. The only medication that's ever made me feel sane is olanazpine which I self medicated with. The problem is that it will not do shit for my depression and I just cannot be studying medicine and care for my daughter adequately while I am depressed. My life will go to hell if I go on olanzapine.
So I thought about suggesting Lamotrigine and Olanzapine to my psychiatrist. Has anyone made experiences with this combination? I have never tried the former myself, but have heard great things. How were the dosing schedules or can it be used as needed? My brain is torturing me and I need a break, I jsut don't know who I am anymore, my affections are all fake and have been for an eternity. Olanzapine makes me feel so damn sane, so healthy, it is lovely. But if I'd take that outside of a hypomanic state I'd surely get stuck under my blanket for an eternity. During hypomania it doesn't even fully alleviate my lack of urge to sleep, it really just evens me out to a state that feels perfectly right. Right now I'm in a hypomanic state and cannot wait to leave the house, but tears have been streaming since last night. What is this fucking shit, I hate my fucking brain, sometimes I just wanna tear my head apart and get in there to fix things. :/
Please give me some advice what to do!