medical records and what are the chances?

[wetwolves]

Ive been struggling really hard these past 7-8 months. In June of last year I was hospitalized for showing signs of "manic" behavior. I was in there for a month. Prior to that I was doing really well for a long time thanks to a medication called nardil. SA(social anxiety) and depression were in complete remission and I was living life for the first time since childhood. I was under the influence of pcp when I was checked into the hospital, but the doctors all blammed the nardil for it and took me off it. As a result I have been very depressed and the sa has crept back in and this has been lasting for 7-8 months now.

My doctor is willing to perscribe the nardil, but this time only at a very low dosage. If I ever wanted more I have considered trying another psychiatrist to get it perscribed without telling he/she my medical history. Do a lot of Pdocs nowadays check ur medical records? Because if they do they will see I was hospitalized and they will immediated investigate that and I dont want that. What are my chances of being able to get it perscribed again? I was also abusing it and my pdoc is aware of that. I wasnt trying to get high it was just working better at a slightly higher dose then I was perscribed(I was perscribed the maximus dose 90mg but was taking 120 mg daily)

I dont know if this is the right forum for this, but its been a very dark time in my life. The sa makes it very hard to build relationships with people, and very hard to maintain relationships the people who love me. It all sucks even more because when I was on the nardil I was good, everything was working out, I was truely living life.Its like giving a baby his favorite toy letting him play with it for 5 minutes and then taking it away. I wasnt even think about mdma(something I love but know is destructive to my life) but now I have begun to think about using again just to relieve my symptoms. I dont want that and am doing everything to fight it. I will prevail and I have faith I will. Please guys help a brotha out, I know this isnt the usual drug recovery threat and u guys may not be used to that but of i can please give me some advice and answer my questions. Thankyou.

 

[RainWater]

I've been hospitalized more times than I'd care to admit but I've never had a problem receiving the meds I need. Just tell your psych your side of the story, and if they don't listen, find one who will.

 

[Lolie]

Just to clarify, are you saying that neither the hospital nor your psychiatrist was aware that your mania/psychosis occurred while you were under the influence of PCP?

Medical records are highly protected and pretty much can't be released without your consent - but there are situations in which not giving that consent may disadvantage you.

 

[wetwolves]

no they were aware that i was under the influence of pcp but they ruled it out and pointed the finger at the nardil for being the culprit

 

[Lolie]

It's unlikely that another psychiatrist would try an MAOI as a first-line treatment for depression or social anxiety disorder.

While I understand how seductive mania is - I have bipolar disorder myself - it's extremely dangerous to seek out medication in order to precipitate it, and that's essentially what you're talking about doing.

That "I was good, everything was working out, I was truely living life" period which preceded your manic episode sounds like classic hypomania. Typically, manic and hypomanic episodes are followed by deep depression which is one of the primary reasons for trying to prevent them.

 

[wetwolves]

I dont believe it was mania. During that time I said I was good, the SA(social anxiety) was completely gone, and that was the main reason why I said I was good(SA is the main cause of depression for me). I was still having my good days and my bad days it definitly wasnt mania. I was able to communicate normally with people and develope relationships with people, for the 1st time in my life. The depression im experiencing now is directly caused by the SA coming back, which is because they took my nardil away. I have had no experiences with bi polar or mania before this, and honestly I dont remember even being manic. All I remember is me accidently bumping my car into the garage my mom thinking im on drugs and calling the cops to take me to the hospital.