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Anon101
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So yeah.. idk. Im a member here and like i recently started seeing this girl. We're totally different people but i really really love her. We've been spending a lot of time together and i really enjoy her company. Well, we've about done everything there is to do besides have sex. I've really wanted to but i just can't seem to build up the courage. I'm 19 and still a virgin and ive been wanting to lose it for awhile and now that the time is finally here and i have found the right person to do it with. I cant enjoy myself. It's all i think about. We tried to once and i went limp and she thought it was her fault.. which it wasnt. I never thought i would have a problem with that but apparently i do. Now since that happened i am afraid to try again because im afraid it will happen again.. Im really terrified of having sex. IDK why, i guess im a pussy. I cant seem to calm down and just relax. Its always an obsession in my mind. I was wondering what was wrong with me because i went limp.. i thought there must be a problem with me. Because she is beautiful and turns me on all the time. But when it comes down to that i get real nervous and scared.. Well shes getting fed up with waiting and so we argue about it.. She is way more experienced than i am so i guess sex is like a must for her and i just enjoy her company and everything else that comes with it. Im not saying I dont want too.. Its just a lot to deal with. So much stress and all that bs.. I wish i could just take a benzo to calm down but i am living the clean and sober life now D: I really dont know what to do. Its ruining our relationship.
