ashaman
Bluelighter
1st time MDMA- The Pill of Love, Joy and Happiness
Hello, please forgive the postings of a first timer here on bluelight. I would just like to start on a brief introduction about myself, then go on talk about my first MDMA experience.
Im 17, and I live in Hong Kong, in a pretty sheltered life. International school here is great, but they have a really anti-drug attitude here. Although they don¡¦t exactly say ¡¥drugs are bad¡¦ they lay out all the facts, all the negatives, but brush briefly on the positives and leave it at that. So before I met someone special, my drug attitudes were much the same as a typical, good boy teenager- they aren¡¦t good for you. Also, you have to realize I am a generally happy person. Although this doesn¡¦t sound like a bad thing, I will mention it again later. I also absolutely love talking about relationships, especially my own, and this will come in important later.
However, since I have met CrimsonQueen, (of whom many of the older BLers would probably know) she has changed my life in more ways than once. We got along really well, We can talk for hours, and eventually she managed to talk her way into me that drugs aren¡¦t all that bad, and that I should try it. I consented, and agreed to take an Ecstasy pill with her on the night of the school prom.
That night was fantastic. CrimosnQueen (henceforth known as CQ) was really well dressed and looked absolutely stunning. I had a great time at the prom, with a really pretty girl beside me (of whom I really love as well). After the prom, I had a bottle of beer, and we knew we were heading back home to take the MDMA pill. At this time, I was kind of nervous- this is my first drug, and due to my previous opinions of drugs, I was not exactly sure I was doing a right thing. Afterall- there IS a chance of dying, and that is not something I can easily put down.
Anyhow, we got home at about 2:00 AM, and we took a pill. CQ decided to be hardcore and chew it, but I swallowed it down with water. Prior to this night, CQ has told me to go to erowid.org and read up about MDMA- the effects, the negatives, the positives, so I already had a notion of what it was going to be like.
We spent the next 20 minutes doing normal daily life things- CQ washed off her makeup and I got myself comfortable, drinking some more water (it is good to be hydrated). However, at about 2:25, CQ turned from the bathroom and said to me ¡§ohh, I feel it¡K I feel it coming¡¨ and just sat on the bed, with a really happy, ECSTATIC look on her face..
At this time I felt really nervous. I had quite a bit to eat at the prom dance, so I knew the effects wasn¡¦t instantaneous. However, CQ was already on her trip while I was feeling relatively normal. Right after she said that, I started getting a bit dizzy¡K kind of like drinking some alcohol. I was not really sure whether this was the effect of the pill at all- after all, I could have imagined it, in my nervous state. However, I got a bit more dizzy, and things started to get ¡K different. The way I felt was different. I looked up at the clock, and I found out it was 2:30. I definitely knew I was getting there.
What I really noticed was that the way I feel things were totally different. Small movements of my arms causes the air to shift, and it caresses my arms, and it feels really good. I hopped into bed, sitting on the blankets, and squirmed around, moving my body. I remember CQ laughing, and I thought to myself, how weird I would have looked. Not that it filled my thoughts much- I was too busy concentrating on the good feelings of E. I continued to move around, and somehow- I don¡¦t remember too clearly ¡V CQ was in there with me, and I was touching her all around. It felt great. Every movement was pleasurable, and I was happy. Being normally a really happy person, it wasn¡¦t exactly a HUGE leap- from being happy to be ecstatic. However, I felt much happier than normal, and was completely content with myself and all those around me.
Prior to this trip, CQ has told me ways to make the trip better- giving back massages in a special way. We both tried that with each other, then we decided to jump into the covers, to feel the covers on us. You see, every touch sensory nerve is heightened to new degrees- everything feels wonderful. You want to feel different things. After a bit of time hugging underneath the blankets, she got out of the bed, and went to her computer and played the song ¡¥Sex and Candy¡¦ by Marcy Playground.
Normally I don¡¦t like this song, but I like it a lot on E. It was so much different. I was too busy focusing on feeling the blankets and squirming around- it felt so great. I was so focused, I normally would have never been able to listen to the music. But now I was simultaneously enjoying both the music AND the feeling of the covers. It was great. CQ climbed back to bed, and got out again to turn the music off. She insisted it was bad music.
At that time, I looked at the clock. It was only 2:45! Normally, if I enjoy myself, it would have been 5 o¡¦clock already. Time seems to SLOW DOWN while I enjoy myself! It is an unproven law that time speeds up when you enjoy yourself. But 15 miniutes have passed since the effects were on, and CQ assured me that the effect would last for 2 hours. It was bliss.
At that, CQ told me to take off my clothes, and she did the same. To feel everything with every inch of your skin would have been extremely pleasurable, I thought. So I took off my pants, and my shirt. Taking off my shirt gave me a huge shivering, as the air conditioner was on and it was getting quite cool. The action of taking my shirt causes the air to spiral around my skin, sucking out the warmth and sending me briefly into Antartica, naked. I went back to bed, pulling the covers over me.
That felt extremely bad! I was SO cold, it was crazy. The wind created by drawing up the blankets must have came from Antatica. I immediately shivered so much, I shriveled up into a ball and started jerking from every single muscle. It was a horrible cold. I cried to CQ that I was freezing, and so CQ jumped into the blankets (which caused me to shiver more since opening up the blankets caused a gust of wind to come in, and get me even colder) and we hugged each other to share body warmth.
Thankfully, the cold subsided and I started getting warm. I was shivering less. That must have been the worst feeling ever. But as I started getting warm, I also started feeling the same pleasures from touching the blankets. We got up, and she performed the ¡¥rain droplets¡¦ trick on me. It worked, in a way, as I was really imagining rain droplets on my face, but then again, since I have heard it before hand that there was this kind of trick,, I knew it was fake at the same time. She gave up afterwards, saying she was bad at doing that, but it was a good feeling.
After the shivering incident, it was about 2:50. What happened afterwards was very unclear and shady- it was just hugging, kissing, feeling each other, feeling the covers, as everything we do felt good.
After the peak, I started getting more aware, and less needy of touching everything. I still had the effects of E, but no longer the primal need to touch everything. It still felt good, so I hugged CQ and we talked about our relationship. Since I love talking about relationships, this part of the trip was just as good as the peak- in a different sort of way. This aspect is very personal for me, as I think the come down and the peak is just as good, so most of the other MDMA trippers won¡¦t agree with me.
E is a great drug, for emotional bonding. You will find that you can talk about anything and everything- even things that you know will harm someone without them on E, and you will remember it. This might sound bad, but you won¡¦t be hurt- you¡¦re too happy on E. At this time, we were having a hiccup in our relationship, and E just solved everything, by talking through it. We got to understand each other much more, and our misunderstands were easily cleared up- you are really empathetic on E.
At about 3:30-3:45 (I don¡¦t exactly remember the timings) the E effects were gradually wearing off. The familiar and fun ¡¥eye jiggling¡¦ were becoming less and less frequent, but the incessant jaw clenching was still on me. We stayed up the whole night and talked, and at around 5, the effects were totally gone. However, I could not sleep, the top half of my teeth were glued to the bottom half, and we just lay in bed, relaxing and chilling out.
I finally managed to get sleep, but it was a different sort of sleep- not the normal kind¡K just different. Like you know you¡¦re awake, but then you¡¦re asleep at the same time. CQ was hallucinating, and mumbling in her sleep, which was extremely weird. After two hours of sleep, and waking up at about 7, I got up and sneaked away from CQ¡¦s house. (Her mum got home at around 3, while we were high, but thankfully her mum was drunk and did not annoy us) and went back home, took a shower and went to bed.
I noticed the day after the effects of E, I was extremely tired, and my appetite was gone. Being extremely thin and 20 pounds under weight, I was seriously worried, as this can have detrimental effects on me. I tried to eat food, but could not eat a substantial amount as I was feeling bloated. The rest of the day, I felt... unable to concentrate. I talked to CQ about it, and she claimed the term was ¡¥scatteredness¡¦. You cannot concentrate. You just want to lie in bed and chill out, rest, which is very unproductive.
The only productive thing I did was learn the song ¡¥Sex and Candy¡¦ which become my new music obsession due to Ecstasy. The rest of the day was used up sleeping, or thinking about Ecstasy, and what a great experience it was.
However, I must stress that although it was a great experience, there is a price to pay- and if you¡¦re not careful, the price can be unusually high. As E can be such a bonding experience, if you do it alone with a stranger, it can end up in pretty embarrassing situations afterwards. This is probably the thing that will make or break your tripping experience. It is very, very, easy to get naked on Ecstasy. You do not have that much control- and doing it with a stranger can be very, very, embrasing. In addition, losing your appetite and having one whole day is not very productive, and jaw clenching can just be annoying sometimes, as well as the insomniac affect of E. I must stress that if you wish to take any drug, you must research about it, know whether the drug you¡¦re taking is actually what you plan to take, and be very careful not to mix drugs. Simple rule of thumbs generally means your trip experience would be better, but most of you would already know.
However, talking to CQ afterwards, she claimed that the pill we had was not as good. Apparently it was mixed in with Ketamine as well. But I am willing to try more afterwards, to see if her claim is correct ļ
Thanks for listening ļ
Hello, please forgive the postings of a first timer here on bluelight. I would just like to start on a brief introduction about myself, then go on talk about my first MDMA experience.
Im 17, and I live in Hong Kong, in a pretty sheltered life. International school here is great, but they have a really anti-drug attitude here. Although they don¡¦t exactly say ¡¥drugs are bad¡¦ they lay out all the facts, all the negatives, but brush briefly on the positives and leave it at that. So before I met someone special, my drug attitudes were much the same as a typical, good boy teenager- they aren¡¦t good for you. Also, you have to realize I am a generally happy person. Although this doesn¡¦t sound like a bad thing, I will mention it again later. I also absolutely love talking about relationships, especially my own, and this will come in important later.
However, since I have met CrimsonQueen, (of whom many of the older BLers would probably know) she has changed my life in more ways than once. We got along really well, We can talk for hours, and eventually she managed to talk her way into me that drugs aren¡¦t all that bad, and that I should try it. I consented, and agreed to take an Ecstasy pill with her on the night of the school prom.
That night was fantastic. CrimosnQueen (henceforth known as CQ) was really well dressed and looked absolutely stunning. I had a great time at the prom, with a really pretty girl beside me (of whom I really love as well). After the prom, I had a bottle of beer, and we knew we were heading back home to take the MDMA pill. At this time, I was kind of nervous- this is my first drug, and due to my previous opinions of drugs, I was not exactly sure I was doing a right thing. Afterall- there IS a chance of dying, and that is not something I can easily put down.
Anyhow, we got home at about 2:00 AM, and we took a pill. CQ decided to be hardcore and chew it, but I swallowed it down with water. Prior to this night, CQ has told me to go to erowid.org and read up about MDMA- the effects, the negatives, the positives, so I already had a notion of what it was going to be like.
We spent the next 20 minutes doing normal daily life things- CQ washed off her makeup and I got myself comfortable, drinking some more water (it is good to be hydrated). However, at about 2:25, CQ turned from the bathroom and said to me ¡§ohh, I feel it¡K I feel it coming¡¨ and just sat on the bed, with a really happy, ECSTATIC look on her face..
At this time I felt really nervous. I had quite a bit to eat at the prom dance, so I knew the effects wasn¡¦t instantaneous. However, CQ was already on her trip while I was feeling relatively normal. Right after she said that, I started getting a bit dizzy¡K kind of like drinking some alcohol. I was not really sure whether this was the effect of the pill at all- after all, I could have imagined it, in my nervous state. However, I got a bit more dizzy, and things started to get ¡K different. The way I felt was different. I looked up at the clock, and I found out it was 2:30. I definitely knew I was getting there.
What I really noticed was that the way I feel things were totally different. Small movements of my arms causes the air to shift, and it caresses my arms, and it feels really good. I hopped into bed, sitting on the blankets, and squirmed around, moving my body. I remember CQ laughing, and I thought to myself, how weird I would have looked. Not that it filled my thoughts much- I was too busy concentrating on the good feelings of E. I continued to move around, and somehow- I don¡¦t remember too clearly ¡V CQ was in there with me, and I was touching her all around. It felt great. Every movement was pleasurable, and I was happy. Being normally a really happy person, it wasn¡¦t exactly a HUGE leap- from being happy to be ecstatic. However, I felt much happier than normal, and was completely content with myself and all those around me.
Prior to this trip, CQ has told me ways to make the trip better- giving back massages in a special way. We both tried that with each other, then we decided to jump into the covers, to feel the covers on us. You see, every touch sensory nerve is heightened to new degrees- everything feels wonderful. You want to feel different things. After a bit of time hugging underneath the blankets, she got out of the bed, and went to her computer and played the song ¡¥Sex and Candy¡¦ by Marcy Playground.
Normally I don¡¦t like this song, but I like it a lot on E. It was so much different. I was too busy focusing on feeling the blankets and squirming around- it felt so great. I was so focused, I normally would have never been able to listen to the music. But now I was simultaneously enjoying both the music AND the feeling of the covers. It was great. CQ climbed back to bed, and got out again to turn the music off. She insisted it was bad music.
At that time, I looked at the clock. It was only 2:45! Normally, if I enjoy myself, it would have been 5 o¡¦clock already. Time seems to SLOW DOWN while I enjoy myself! It is an unproven law that time speeds up when you enjoy yourself. But 15 miniutes have passed since the effects were on, and CQ assured me that the effect would last for 2 hours. It was bliss.
At that, CQ told me to take off my clothes, and she did the same. To feel everything with every inch of your skin would have been extremely pleasurable, I thought. So I took off my pants, and my shirt. Taking off my shirt gave me a huge shivering, as the air conditioner was on and it was getting quite cool. The action of taking my shirt causes the air to spiral around my skin, sucking out the warmth and sending me briefly into Antartica, naked. I went back to bed, pulling the covers over me.
That felt extremely bad! I was SO cold, it was crazy. The wind created by drawing up the blankets must have came from Antatica. I immediately shivered so much, I shriveled up into a ball and started jerking from every single muscle. It was a horrible cold. I cried to CQ that I was freezing, and so CQ jumped into the blankets (which caused me to shiver more since opening up the blankets caused a gust of wind to come in, and get me even colder) and we hugged each other to share body warmth.
Thankfully, the cold subsided and I started getting warm. I was shivering less. That must have been the worst feeling ever. But as I started getting warm, I also started feeling the same pleasures from touching the blankets. We got up, and she performed the ¡¥rain droplets¡¦ trick on me. It worked, in a way, as I was really imagining rain droplets on my face, but then again, since I have heard it before hand that there was this kind of trick,, I knew it was fake at the same time. She gave up afterwards, saying she was bad at doing that, but it was a good feeling.
After the shivering incident, it was about 2:50. What happened afterwards was very unclear and shady- it was just hugging, kissing, feeling each other, feeling the covers, as everything we do felt good.
After the peak, I started getting more aware, and less needy of touching everything. I still had the effects of E, but no longer the primal need to touch everything. It still felt good, so I hugged CQ and we talked about our relationship. Since I love talking about relationships, this part of the trip was just as good as the peak- in a different sort of way. This aspect is very personal for me, as I think the come down and the peak is just as good, so most of the other MDMA trippers won¡¦t agree with me.
E is a great drug, for emotional bonding. You will find that you can talk about anything and everything- even things that you know will harm someone without them on E, and you will remember it. This might sound bad, but you won¡¦t be hurt- you¡¦re too happy on E. At this time, we were having a hiccup in our relationship, and E just solved everything, by talking through it. We got to understand each other much more, and our misunderstands were easily cleared up- you are really empathetic on E.
At about 3:30-3:45 (I don¡¦t exactly remember the timings) the E effects were gradually wearing off. The familiar and fun ¡¥eye jiggling¡¦ were becoming less and less frequent, but the incessant jaw clenching was still on me. We stayed up the whole night and talked, and at around 5, the effects were totally gone. However, I could not sleep, the top half of my teeth were glued to the bottom half, and we just lay in bed, relaxing and chilling out.
I finally managed to get sleep, but it was a different sort of sleep- not the normal kind¡K just different. Like you know you¡¦re awake, but then you¡¦re asleep at the same time. CQ was hallucinating, and mumbling in her sleep, which was extremely weird. After two hours of sleep, and waking up at about 7, I got up and sneaked away from CQ¡¦s house. (Her mum got home at around 3, while we were high, but thankfully her mum was drunk and did not annoy us) and went back home, took a shower and went to bed.
I noticed the day after the effects of E, I was extremely tired, and my appetite was gone. Being extremely thin and 20 pounds under weight, I was seriously worried, as this can have detrimental effects on me. I tried to eat food, but could not eat a substantial amount as I was feeling bloated. The rest of the day, I felt... unable to concentrate. I talked to CQ about it, and she claimed the term was ¡¥scatteredness¡¦. You cannot concentrate. You just want to lie in bed and chill out, rest, which is very unproductive.
The only productive thing I did was learn the song ¡¥Sex and Candy¡¦ which become my new music obsession due to Ecstasy. The rest of the day was used up sleeping, or thinking about Ecstasy, and what a great experience it was.
However, I must stress that although it was a great experience, there is a price to pay- and if you¡¦re not careful, the price can be unusually high. As E can be such a bonding experience, if you do it alone with a stranger, it can end up in pretty embarrassing situations afterwards. This is probably the thing that will make or break your tripping experience. It is very, very, easy to get naked on Ecstasy. You do not have that much control- and doing it with a stranger can be very, very, embrasing. In addition, losing your appetite and having one whole day is not very productive, and jaw clenching can just be annoying sometimes, as well as the insomniac affect of E. I must stress that if you wish to take any drug, you must research about it, know whether the drug you¡¦re taking is actually what you plan to take, and be very careful not to mix drugs. Simple rule of thumbs generally means your trip experience would be better, but most of you would already know.
However, talking to CQ afterwards, she claimed that the pill we had was not as good. Apparently it was mixed in with Ketamine as well. But I am willing to try more afterwards, to see if her claim is correct ļ
Thanks for listening ļ
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U create your own trip that`s what you have to keep in mind.
