asmodeus256
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I've wanted to try mdma for a while and when my friend Brian[1] said he had some mollies, I had to take this opportunity. I acquired two gelcaps for myself, and two for my other friend Brian[2] (he drove two hours up here specifically for this, and yes, there are two Brians involved in this story) and we arranged to have a roll party on a Friday night.
So we get to the party and I decided to wait until more people show up... but as time passed, I got more and more anxious. So at 11:15 PM I took the first pill. I got a glass of water and sat down to watch television. About half an hour passed and I wasn't feeling anything. I talked to my friend and he said his roll already hit him (but he hadn't eaten anything all day).
About this time Brian[1] wanted to head to Pita Pit to get something to eat, so Brian[2] and I went along for the ride because we needed to pick up some gum for the trisma and bruxia we would very likely encounter (I'd done my research). We arrived at the mini-mall where the Pita Pit is located, along with a mini-mart and the local college booty bar, Shakers. As we were driving there Brian[1] played some Simply Jeff, and I noticed that moving along with the music felt natural and very good. Also as we walked into the building I was very active and I couldn't sit still.
Waiting in line to buy gum was interesting, because everyone else was buying beer, and I could not hold my self still. I kept tapping my foot or swaying to the lack of music.
Upon exiting the building, we found ourselves in a rain storm (it wasn't raining previously). We ran to the truck and agreed that it was quite exciting to have it rain so suddenly. We drove out to pick up some friends, and I felt myself getting more hyper and grooving to the music. Going to the local grocery store to get beer for everyone else, I found some cheap hardware masks, which I purchased, that would go well with the vicks I had on hand.
We went to pick another guy, but in doing so, four random drunk sophomores jumped in the back of the truck. Yay for random people heading to a party! (More on that later).
We got back to Brian[1]'s place and I could feel myself become more social by the minute. I started talking to the random people and listening to some Infected Mushroom and Shpongle that I popped in the cd player.
It was about 11:45 PM when we got back and I took the second pill at about midnight. It was here that time seemed to dissolve, along with ego, fear, hatred, and social anxiety.
I talked to everyone, I was practically ubiquitous. Normally I'm social, but not like that night. I was bouncing off the walls.
The random drunk sophomores were freaked out by my behavior, because I kept talking to them (and in a rapid manner) and touching the girls' hair and clothes, especially one specific corduroy jacket. I also would ask everyone for a hug about every five minutes.
At some point I connected with Christy, Brian[1]'s girlfriend. She became my roll buddy for the night. She gave me massages, and I laid my head down on her belly while Brian[1] gave me a light show. She also grabbed the 'Party Monkey' and put it around my neck, where he hung for most of the rest of the night. She also put some vicks in a mask and gave it to me, which I have to say felt amazing!!!
Christy and I danced around outside like faeries, which she said she does and no one else indulges her. I enjoyed it greatly, and I felt everything with child-like wonder and amazement.
Time seemed to pass rather quickly now... we talked, listened to music, I generally bounced around from person to person.
At one point Brian[2], Christy, and I went for a journey outside. I was leading them on a quest. Everything was beautiful and amazing to me, I just so incredibly curious. I saw a lawn chair and knew that I had to sit down in it. Every action I took felt good and it was simply breath-taking to participate in living this 'life.'
Things started to calm down a bit and we were all sitting down. I was right next to Christy, leaning my head on her shoulder. She then took my head and cradled it in her arms and rocked back and forth with me. That was one of the most amazing and pure love actions I've ever experienced. After that I just looked at her with a heretofore unknown level of fascination.
I told her this and said to her, "There is a concept of a woman... and you personify that." At the time I didn't express exactly what I felt, but what I meant is that there are certain characteristic and attributes that define a woman, and she definitely personified those characteristics. I also told her that her skin was so soft, her hair was pretty (and soft), and she was very beautiful. I believe that I told all of the ladies there that night that they were beautiful. I was just full of pure love and beauty that night.
I began to come down between 2:30 and 3:00 AM. And we all sat around for the next hour, listening to music and chatting. At 4:00 AM, Brian[2] and I left for my place and we both promptly fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning at 10:00 AM, somewhat tired, but unable to sleep. We went to McDonald's to get some food, and I found myself wanting to be extremely social with everyone. All day long I felt like that... like I had drank a huge amount of caffeine. I was rather hyper and very talkative.
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Things I learned:
I have a new respect for PLUR. Although I knew that my path was leading me in this direction, it still was an amazing experience.
We are all connected through a fabric of human emotion, energy, and experiences. And the actions we take do have consequences, whether they are good or bad.
I am much more social and energetic now... it's been a week since. I did not crash or have any ill feelings.
Electronic music feels so much better now than it did pre-roll. I feel more connected to it. The rhythmic, repetitious patterns are nearly enough to send me into that trance-like esctatic state produced by the mdma. Music combined with dancing while sober is a now a beautiful experience that I will have to do more of and learn more from my friends that have been in the scene for a lot longer than I have.
I shared this Holy Moment with Christy. Whenever I see her I feel like I am taken back into that state of mind. I feel like a child whos eyes have opened for the first time and I'm gazing at this beautiful world. I love her in the deepest platonic sense, love that transcends phsyical desire. I believe that everyone should feel this, because it is the most beautiful emotion.
I see now that as humans we strive for that estatic state in everything that we do. Even the socially accepted drugs produce this state, albeit in a very weak and awkward manner.
I will continue to experiment with this estatic, altered state of consciousness.
I have found a new level of peace in my life. :D:D:D
So we get to the party and I decided to wait until more people show up... but as time passed, I got more and more anxious. So at 11:15 PM I took the first pill. I got a glass of water and sat down to watch television. About half an hour passed and I wasn't feeling anything. I talked to my friend and he said his roll already hit him (but he hadn't eaten anything all day).
About this time Brian[1] wanted to head to Pita Pit to get something to eat, so Brian[2] and I went along for the ride because we needed to pick up some gum for the trisma and bruxia we would very likely encounter (I'd done my research). We arrived at the mini-mall where the Pita Pit is located, along with a mini-mart and the local college booty bar, Shakers. As we were driving there Brian[1] played some Simply Jeff, and I noticed that moving along with the music felt natural and very good. Also as we walked into the building I was very active and I couldn't sit still.
Waiting in line to buy gum was interesting, because everyone else was buying beer, and I could not hold my self still. I kept tapping my foot or swaying to the lack of music.
Upon exiting the building, we found ourselves in a rain storm (it wasn't raining previously). We ran to the truck and agreed that it was quite exciting to have it rain so suddenly. We drove out to pick up some friends, and I felt myself getting more hyper and grooving to the music. Going to the local grocery store to get beer for everyone else, I found some cheap hardware masks, which I purchased, that would go well with the vicks I had on hand.
We went to pick another guy, but in doing so, four random drunk sophomores jumped in the back of the truck. Yay for random people heading to a party! (More on that later).
We got back to Brian[1]'s place and I could feel myself become more social by the minute. I started talking to the random people and listening to some Infected Mushroom and Shpongle that I popped in the cd player.
It was about 11:45 PM when we got back and I took the second pill at about midnight. It was here that time seemed to dissolve, along with ego, fear, hatred, and social anxiety.
I talked to everyone, I was practically ubiquitous. Normally I'm social, but not like that night. I was bouncing off the walls.
The random drunk sophomores were freaked out by my behavior, because I kept talking to them (and in a rapid manner) and touching the girls' hair and clothes, especially one specific corduroy jacket. I also would ask everyone for a hug about every five minutes.
At some point I connected with Christy, Brian[1]'s girlfriend. She became my roll buddy for the night. She gave me massages, and I laid my head down on her belly while Brian[1] gave me a light show. She also grabbed the 'Party Monkey' and put it around my neck, where he hung for most of the rest of the night. She also put some vicks in a mask and gave it to me, which I have to say felt amazing!!!
Christy and I danced around outside like faeries, which she said she does and no one else indulges her. I enjoyed it greatly, and I felt everything with child-like wonder and amazement.
Time seemed to pass rather quickly now... we talked, listened to music, I generally bounced around from person to person.
At one point Brian[2], Christy, and I went for a journey outside. I was leading them on a quest. Everything was beautiful and amazing to me, I just so incredibly curious. I saw a lawn chair and knew that I had to sit down in it. Every action I took felt good and it was simply breath-taking to participate in living this 'life.'
Things started to calm down a bit and we were all sitting down. I was right next to Christy, leaning my head on her shoulder. She then took my head and cradled it in her arms and rocked back and forth with me. That was one of the most amazing and pure love actions I've ever experienced. After that I just looked at her with a heretofore unknown level of fascination.
I told her this and said to her, "There is a concept of a woman... and you personify that." At the time I didn't express exactly what I felt, but what I meant is that there are certain characteristic and attributes that define a woman, and she definitely personified those characteristics. I also told her that her skin was so soft, her hair was pretty (and soft), and she was very beautiful. I believe that I told all of the ladies there that night that they were beautiful. I was just full of pure love and beauty that night.
I began to come down between 2:30 and 3:00 AM. And we all sat around for the next hour, listening to music and chatting. At 4:00 AM, Brian[2] and I left for my place and we both promptly fell asleep.
I woke up the next morning at 10:00 AM, somewhat tired, but unable to sleep. We went to McDonald's to get some food, and I found myself wanting to be extremely social with everyone. All day long I felt like that... like I had drank a huge amount of caffeine. I was rather hyper and very talkative.
~~~
Things I learned:
I have a new respect for PLUR. Although I knew that my path was leading me in this direction, it still was an amazing experience.
We are all connected through a fabric of human emotion, energy, and experiences. And the actions we take do have consequences, whether they are good or bad.
I am much more social and energetic now... it's been a week since. I did not crash or have any ill feelings.
Electronic music feels so much better now than it did pre-roll. I feel more connected to it. The rhythmic, repetitious patterns are nearly enough to send me into that trance-like esctatic state produced by the mdma. Music combined with dancing while sober is a now a beautiful experience that I will have to do more of and learn more from my friends that have been in the scene for a lot longer than I have.
I shared this Holy Moment with Christy. Whenever I see her I feel like I am taken back into that state of mind. I feel like a child whos eyes have opened for the first time and I'm gazing at this beautiful world. I love her in the deepest platonic sense, love that transcends phsyical desire. I believe that everyone should feel this, because it is the most beautiful emotion.
I see now that as humans we strive for that estatic state in everything that we do. Even the socially accepted drugs produce this state, albeit in a very weak and awkward manner.
I will continue to experiment with this estatic, altered state of consciousness.
I have found a new level of peace in my life. :D:D:D
I hope they can find their own level of peace.
