Jabberwocky
Frumious Bandersnatch
Hey guys so I was diagnosed with esophagitis and a moderate esophageal stricture that makes it difficult to swallow dry/large foods, causes an excess build up of mucus in my throat, and maks vomiting a painful annoyance. It's been about 2-3 months since I've last done MDMA because my previous 3 attempts resulted in me having my normal nausea-induced come up but then no euphoric effects, a massive headache, and antisocial behavior. I've now developed a taste for LSD so I have no real interest in MDMA anymore. I'm fairly certain I took MDMA because we always tested all of the pills we got, and each time my partner and our friends had a great time as usual. It was just me who had an unpleasant time.
After the first 4-5 times of doing MDMA I had my first come up with bloody vomit (the bleeding did not continue after vomiting nor did I experience bloody stools). This was around the time I was diagnosed with the stricture in my esophagus and esophagitis, so I assume vomiting on the come up put too much pressure on my esophagus causing either blood vessels to burst or small tears to occur. (I have very deep hurls that lead to dry-heaving for a few minutes until it subsides) Each attempt to take MDMA after that had bloody vomit, though less blood than the initial occurrence (but for 1-2 rolls after that first one with blood, I lost the ability to peak). Mind you I generally waited at least 4 weeks between rolls if we did them.
FYI my norm is to vomit on the come up. I've tried to avoid vomiting to see if I could peak without doing so but it seems almost impossible. I have to vomit on the come up in order to peak.
I'm nervous about taking MDMA this Friday because I don't want to end up miserable like the last 3 times while my partner sits there blissed out. I was curious if any of you have experience taking MDMA with esophageal strictures or esophagitis, and what is that experience like for you? I am also wondering if anyone might have an idea as to why I was not be able to peak the last three times while all my friends could? My only guess is that I've burned myself out on MDMA, there's something wrong with my serotonin production/release, or I was experiencing Serotonin Syndrome. My partner thinks I just need to up the dose but he's had years of experience taking MDMA and takes about the same amount every time so I don't understand why a year long user like myself would need to up the dose more than him, unless my body just naturally builds a much higher tolerance? I'm just scared if I take more than 1 pill, I'll have even worse negative symptoms and no peak.
Any help is appreciated!
After the first 4-5 times of doing MDMA I had my first come up with bloody vomit (the bleeding did not continue after vomiting nor did I experience bloody stools). This was around the time I was diagnosed with the stricture in my esophagus and esophagitis, so I assume vomiting on the come up put too much pressure on my esophagus causing either blood vessels to burst or small tears to occur. (I have very deep hurls that lead to dry-heaving for a few minutes until it subsides) Each attempt to take MDMA after that had bloody vomit, though less blood than the initial occurrence (but for 1-2 rolls after that first one with blood, I lost the ability to peak). Mind you I generally waited at least 4 weeks between rolls if we did them.
FYI my norm is to vomit on the come up. I've tried to avoid vomiting to see if I could peak without doing so but it seems almost impossible. I have to vomit on the come up in order to peak.
I'm nervous about taking MDMA this Friday because I don't want to end up miserable like the last 3 times while my partner sits there blissed out. I was curious if any of you have experience taking MDMA with esophageal strictures or esophagitis, and what is that experience like for you? I am also wondering if anyone might have an idea as to why I was not be able to peak the last three times while all my friends could? My only guess is that I've burned myself out on MDMA, there's something wrong with my serotonin production/release, or I was experiencing Serotonin Syndrome. My partner thinks I just need to up the dose but he's had years of experience taking MDMA and takes about the same amount every time so I don't understand why a year long user like myself would need to up the dose more than him, unless my body just naturally builds a much higher tolerance? I'm just scared if I take more than 1 pill, I'll have even worse negative symptoms and no peak.
Any help is appreciated!
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