hate_the_game
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I have always wanted to try MDMA (specifically X) and this weekend, due to a failed shroom search, i got my chance. I was with a guy that i met about a month ago and have since become amazingly attached too. He promised to take care of me, being a more experienced user, and i planned to only take 1/2 pill in order to make sure i was going to be okay with it.
We drank all during the day, and had dinner around 8 pm, with more cocktails. Finally, we went back to a friend's place for "desert"-- MDMA!!!
I started with 1/3 of a pill-- i swallowed it, realized there was no going back, and then sat on the couch with my guy. I was anxious and anticipating the feeling. A friend started spinning music, and within about 20-30 minutes, everyone was rolling but me. While i felt a little different, i didn't feel like i would have liked. Everyone kept saying to give it time, i'd feel it. They said i should walk around, which i did, and that helped a bit. I decided to take another 1/4 pill.
I knew i was feeling it when my guy rubbed my foot and i felt like sex! I sat there and started to really feel good. I was flying and it felt like waves of pleasure all over my body. We made out a bit, and then all just sat around feeling the music. Incredible.
After about 20 minutes of this feeling, i began to hit a peak (or so i was told). The sudden rush freaked me out, and i started to feel myself losing control and getting scared. The others could tell, and this girl pointed out my sudden wierdness to my guy and he immediately reached over and coddled me, told me everything would be fine, and i felt MUCH better. He told me just to enjoy it because i would regret it after it was gone, so i did my best. We snuggled and listened to more music. I called a friend, and while i was talking in the bathroom, i got this amazing rush of self-assurance. When i went back out and we watched a video of a club the guys had gone to, i didn't even care about the half naked girls. I knew he liked me and not them...it was amazing how good i felt about myself... totally confident and beautiful!
Then we all decided to have some more (1/4 for me) and head to the beach.
On the beach i bonded with this guy like you wouldn't imagine. We sat in the sand for a couple of hours, ingesting another little bit (1/4 for me). We had an amazing talk and enjoyed eachother's company and the ocean atmosphere.
Eventually we ran out of water, went inside to get more, and i took a hit of weed because they said it would help me sleep. I had only about 30 minutes earlier taken the last 1/4 of the pill, so about the time the weed hit me, so did the small rise in my X exprience. It was the wierdest feeling i've ever felt! I'm not a big weed smoker (probably been high twice) and all of a sudden i felt completely disoriented and confused. I would start to talk and forget the point of my sentence after 3 words.
We decided to head back out to the beach, at which point it got really wierd. I had just wanted to go back out and continue our awesome conversation, but i couldn't hold one or keep my thoughts together. We tried to find the same spot we'd been in before (i'd dug a massive hole in my drug-induced foot rubbing) but we couldn't find it anywhere. Every spot i'd walk up to thinking it was the one woud disappear. I thought i saw weeds and pelicans and really started to get wierded out. We sat down finally and tried to talk but couldn't focus and almost fell asleep. We finally decided to go in and call it a night.
All in all, i enjoyed the experience. I wish i hadn't taken the weed so soon at the end because it just tripped me out, i could have done without the visuals and just enjoyed the euphoria. But i was too focused on the imaginary seagulls to worry about being on top of the world!
I definitely want to try agian, although i am concerned about the health effects. It was incredible to bond with my guy like that, and i look forward to a fun experience sometime in the future, probably dropping half at first and half later. I can't imagine the intense feelings of a whole pill!
~
me
We drank all during the day, and had dinner around 8 pm, with more cocktails. Finally, we went back to a friend's place for "desert"-- MDMA!!!
I started with 1/3 of a pill-- i swallowed it, realized there was no going back, and then sat on the couch with my guy. I was anxious and anticipating the feeling. A friend started spinning music, and within about 20-30 minutes, everyone was rolling but me. While i felt a little different, i didn't feel like i would have liked. Everyone kept saying to give it time, i'd feel it. They said i should walk around, which i did, and that helped a bit. I decided to take another 1/4 pill.
I knew i was feeling it when my guy rubbed my foot and i felt like sex! I sat there and started to really feel good. I was flying and it felt like waves of pleasure all over my body. We made out a bit, and then all just sat around feeling the music. Incredible.
After about 20 minutes of this feeling, i began to hit a peak (or so i was told). The sudden rush freaked me out, and i started to feel myself losing control and getting scared. The others could tell, and this girl pointed out my sudden wierdness to my guy and he immediately reached over and coddled me, told me everything would be fine, and i felt MUCH better. He told me just to enjoy it because i would regret it after it was gone, so i did my best. We snuggled and listened to more music. I called a friend, and while i was talking in the bathroom, i got this amazing rush of self-assurance. When i went back out and we watched a video of a club the guys had gone to, i didn't even care about the half naked girls. I knew he liked me and not them...it was amazing how good i felt about myself... totally confident and beautiful!
Then we all decided to have some more (1/4 for me) and head to the beach.
On the beach i bonded with this guy like you wouldn't imagine. We sat in the sand for a couple of hours, ingesting another little bit (1/4 for me). We had an amazing talk and enjoyed eachother's company and the ocean atmosphere.
Eventually we ran out of water, went inside to get more, and i took a hit of weed because they said it would help me sleep. I had only about 30 minutes earlier taken the last 1/4 of the pill, so about the time the weed hit me, so did the small rise in my X exprience. It was the wierdest feeling i've ever felt! I'm not a big weed smoker (probably been high twice) and all of a sudden i felt completely disoriented and confused. I would start to talk and forget the point of my sentence after 3 words.
We decided to head back out to the beach, at which point it got really wierd. I had just wanted to go back out and continue our awesome conversation, but i couldn't hold one or keep my thoughts together. We tried to find the same spot we'd been in before (i'd dug a massive hole in my drug-induced foot rubbing) but we couldn't find it anywhere. Every spot i'd walk up to thinking it was the one woud disappear. I thought i saw weeds and pelicans and really started to get wierded out. We sat down finally and tried to talk but couldn't focus and almost fell asleep. We finally decided to go in and call it a night.
All in all, i enjoyed the experience. I wish i hadn't taken the weed so soon at the end because it just tripped me out, i could have done without the visuals and just enjoyed the euphoria. But i was too focused on the imaginary seagulls to worry about being on top of the world!
I definitely want to try agian, although i am concerned about the health effects. It was incredible to bond with my guy like that, and i look forward to a fun experience sometime in the future, probably dropping half at first and half later. I can't imagine the intense feelings of a whole pill!
~
me
