dpd_mnk92
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Hi guys!
Just wanted to start a thread about cognitive deterioration experienced by SOME users, following regular MDMA use/ high dose MDMA binges. This seems to be one of the less prominent symptoms of MD abuse, but in my particular case it is unmistakeable and a serious bummer as it has forced me to withdraw from my university for the rest of the academic year.
I guess what I want to ask is if there are people out there who have suffered from cognitive deficits following MD abuse. If so, have you made a partial or full recovery, and how long did it take you to do so? Any advice related to cognitive recovery (for e.g. use of supplements/ nootropics, diet regimens, helpful activities) or any scientific theories about the nature/ cause of MD-related cognitive problems are also within the scope of this thread. Discussions can also include the regular debates about the extent to which these problems are cause by negative thinking/ anxiety/ hypochondria as opposed to some sort of physiological damage. I personally believe the answer, like with most things, lies somewhere in the middle.
I am fully aware that MOST people do not experience cognitive deficits to a NOTICEABLE extent, but there are clearly some out there who have emerged from their partying days feeling a little "e-tarded"! I'm also aware that some studies have shown no/ a weak link between MD and cognitive problems, but to be perfectly honest, available studies on MDMA come to all sorts of conclusions, and results appear to be as influenced by agendas and methodological faults as they are by MDMA itself. I'm convinced by my own subjective experience that if MDMA is abused hard enough, it has, at the very least, got the potential to do SOME damage to SOME people's ability to think (although, MDMA CAN be used relatively safely by someone with reasonable amount of knowledge about harm reduction).
My Situation:
Used to be an occasional user, but fell into the weekend roller bandwagon for around 3 months. This, along with the fact that I - more or less - unconsciously consumed my entire personal stash of MD in one final session (intended for use over a very long period) was the nail in the coffin for me . 4 months later all symptoms have improved, but remain to a noticeable extent. Aside from my cognitive problems, I'm having trouble with social anxiety, depression, HPPD, sexual dysfunction, intense bruxism, difficulty feeling positive about anything and the list goes on... At least the deafening tinnitus has finally decided to stfu to some extent.. but it's still kinda there, constantly reminding me that i'm a big ol' e-tard
Cognitive Aspect
Only thing I can compare this to is having a really old, slow computer for a brain. Relevant information/ memories take at least 3-4X as long to retrieve, and sometimes they simply refuse to come to light. Problem solving, and all other aspects that characterise intelligence, have been affected. A few examples:
- being asked what my age is and not knowing whether I was 20 or 21 (had to do the maths at the time to figure it out...)
- Forgetting the surname of a very good friend, had to find out via facebook
- English language, or language in general, feeling incredibly foreign. Used to be a flawless when it came to spelling/ grammar. I now have to pay close attention to everything I write. This has improved a lot though. In my first month of recovery, I could BARELY follow simple conversations with friends. Felt like a 4 year old kid trying to keep up with young adults.
- This post has taken around 5x longer to write than it would have before this all happened, no exaggeration at all.
I feel the same frustration felt by people around the world using dying, outdated computers, only a MUCH more profound version. People will throw a fit/ swear/ turn into animals over a file opening in 10 seconds, instead of the standard 2 or 3... In my case, the shitty, old computer IS MY FUCKING HEAD and the file could very well be a memory that I desperately need (to pass an exam, for instance).
So now that you are familiar with my personal experience of e-tardation, feel free to discuss. This can include your personal experience of it, the severity of your symptoms (ranging from mild brain fog to brain death), how much you have recovered and how long it has taken or ANYTHING ELSE related to the topic of MDMA-induced cognitive problems.
THANKS!
Just wanted to start a thread about cognitive deterioration experienced by SOME users, following regular MDMA use/ high dose MDMA binges. This seems to be one of the less prominent symptoms of MD abuse, but in my particular case it is unmistakeable and a serious bummer as it has forced me to withdraw from my university for the rest of the academic year.
I guess what I want to ask is if there are people out there who have suffered from cognitive deficits following MD abuse. If so, have you made a partial or full recovery, and how long did it take you to do so? Any advice related to cognitive recovery (for e.g. use of supplements/ nootropics, diet regimens, helpful activities) or any scientific theories about the nature/ cause of MD-related cognitive problems are also within the scope of this thread. Discussions can also include the regular debates about the extent to which these problems are cause by negative thinking/ anxiety/ hypochondria as opposed to some sort of physiological damage. I personally believe the answer, like with most things, lies somewhere in the middle.
I am fully aware that MOST people do not experience cognitive deficits to a NOTICEABLE extent, but there are clearly some out there who have emerged from their partying days feeling a little "e-tarded"! I'm also aware that some studies have shown no/ a weak link between MD and cognitive problems, but to be perfectly honest, available studies on MDMA come to all sorts of conclusions, and results appear to be as influenced by agendas and methodological faults as they are by MDMA itself. I'm convinced by my own subjective experience that if MDMA is abused hard enough, it has, at the very least, got the potential to do SOME damage to SOME people's ability to think (although, MDMA CAN be used relatively safely by someone with reasonable amount of knowledge about harm reduction).
My Situation:
Used to be an occasional user, but fell into the weekend roller bandwagon for around 3 months. This, along with the fact that I - more or less - unconsciously consumed my entire personal stash of MD in one final session (intended for use over a very long period) was the nail in the coffin for me . 4 months later all symptoms have improved, but remain to a noticeable extent. Aside from my cognitive problems, I'm having trouble with social anxiety, depression, HPPD, sexual dysfunction, intense bruxism, difficulty feeling positive about anything and the list goes on... At least the deafening tinnitus has finally decided to stfu to some extent.. but it's still kinda there, constantly reminding me that i'm a big ol' e-tard

Cognitive Aspect
Only thing I can compare this to is having a really old, slow computer for a brain. Relevant information/ memories take at least 3-4X as long to retrieve, and sometimes they simply refuse to come to light. Problem solving, and all other aspects that characterise intelligence, have been affected. A few examples:
- being asked what my age is and not knowing whether I was 20 or 21 (had to do the maths at the time to figure it out...)
- Forgetting the surname of a very good friend, had to find out via facebook
- English language, or language in general, feeling incredibly foreign. Used to be a flawless when it came to spelling/ grammar. I now have to pay close attention to everything I write. This has improved a lot though. In my first month of recovery, I could BARELY follow simple conversations with friends. Felt like a 4 year old kid trying to keep up with young adults.
- This post has taken around 5x longer to write than it would have before this all happened, no exaggeration at all.
I feel the same frustration felt by people around the world using dying, outdated computers, only a MUCH more profound version. People will throw a fit/ swear/ turn into animals over a file opening in 10 seconds, instead of the standard 2 or 3... In my case, the shitty, old computer IS MY FUCKING HEAD and the file could very well be a memory that I desperately need (to pass an exam, for instance).
So now that you are familiar with my personal experience of e-tardation, feel free to discuss. This can include your personal experience of it, the severity of your symptoms (ranging from mild brain fog to brain death), how much you have recovered and how long it has taken or ANYTHING ELSE related to the topic of MDMA-induced cognitive problems.
THANKS!
