tathra
bluelighter
mdma+2cb+ketamine - exeperienced - orgasmic -> ego loss
these events transpired saturday.
at about 3pm, i insufflate 15mg morphine and 30mg amphetamine to help pass the time while we wait for everyone to show up to our little house party.
skip ahead to 10pm, everyone has arrived. i eat 2 pills, which were most likely mdma. the effects come on really slow and weak, so at about midnight, i eat half a pill and let the other half disolve sublingually.
a friend mentions that he wants to go get some ass, so we head off to the strip club. we enjoy the strippers for awhile and he tells me we need to come back before 3; horray. finally some effects are starting to kick in. enhanced sense of touch, jaw chattering like crazy, dialated pupils. so we head back to the house.
i stay in the kitchen to chat with another friend, who's birthday was the previous day. he tells me he's gotta head home in a few hours so i go ahead and give him his present - 20mg of 2cb. we chat for awhile about how etarded our friends are, with their glowsticks, kandy bracelets, and pacifiers.
around 2am, we head out to give birthday boy a ride home, and everyone (except our driver) gets some 2cb. i snort about 20mg myself. 2:45, we've got him dropped off and get back to the strip club to pick up the stripper, but the doors are locked. by this time, the 2cb is really starting to kick in, and the best euphoria i've ever felt begins to encompass me. i crawl into the back seat and lie down, practically orgasming because of how good it feels. we return to the house.
now around this time, i honestly cant remember much that actually happened. i just remember the amazing euphoria. my visual field is really distorted and foggy, and the orgasmic feeling takes up most of my focus. i spend a large portion of the next hour just lying on the floor, moaning and enjoying. i do remember lying on the bed, chatting with my best friend and his girl. he mentions the ketamine, so we head to the kitchen and dry out 50mg, and i promptly snort up half. not too interesting, i dont really notice much from it. somewhere around this time, i realize i'm tripping too hard to piss, so i have somebody mix me up a drink (alcohol is a diarhetic and cns depressant). unfortunately it didnt help any. we head back into the back room and chat some more. after about 15 minutes, (should be around 3:30-4am by now) i tell my friend what i'm gonna go do so that he knows whats going on. i head into the bathroom and IM 50mg of ketamine.
fast forward about 5-10 minutes. the ketamine hits. i drop to the floor, as i suddenly obtain ego loss. i can only remember bits and pieces of what happened. i remember my visual field being expanded to where i can see in at least a 270 degree field of vision. i remember my visual field becomming skewered, seeing everthing tilted up, down, and to the side (2cb can sometimes cause your vision to roll or tilt, its hard to explain). i also remember seeing myself from outside my body, and at one point i saw myself multiplied. it feels like hours that i'm in this state, and at one point i begin grasping for reality, to find baseline, so that i would have something to hold on to and stabalize me.
i believe around 4:30, enough of the k wore off so that i could control my body again. i can hardly interact with anyone else tho; my hearing is just as distorted as my vision. i sit down and get a massage from a friend. several times i went limp and almost "fell" out of my body again. the euphoria from before is still there.
eventually i head back into the back room to chat with some people and we discuss things. one person tells me that i scared the shit out of everyone earlier. apparantly i went totally limp and spasmed while i was out. nobody else there was really aware that ego loss was possible on psychedelics. its such a rare event and you dont really hear about it too much.
4:30, i snort 1/4 pill to try to maintain my euphoric state.
6am or so, we head back to my house (only 6 blocks away) and get some more 2cb. i snort another 20mg and return completely to my euphoric state. i notice that if i sort of nod off (my body is extremely tired), the pleasure is increased, so i snort 15mg of morphine. i lay some glow sticks over my eyes and trance out to a near-orgasm several times.
my friend and his girl tell me they're leaving at about 8am, and she gives me 10mg of valium to help me sleep, which i hang on to until later.
11am, somebody talks me into doing more 2cb, so again we head back to my house and get some. i snort another 20mg. my vision begins "echoing" when it kicks in.
the rest of the day is spent lounging around watching movies, my jaw still shaking, still intensely euphoric.
3:30pm, i head home, snort 2.5mg valium, and pass out.
these events transpired saturday.
at about 3pm, i insufflate 15mg morphine and 30mg amphetamine to help pass the time while we wait for everyone to show up to our little house party.
skip ahead to 10pm, everyone has arrived. i eat 2 pills, which were most likely mdma. the effects come on really slow and weak, so at about midnight, i eat half a pill and let the other half disolve sublingually.
a friend mentions that he wants to go get some ass, so we head off to the strip club. we enjoy the strippers for awhile and he tells me we need to come back before 3; horray. finally some effects are starting to kick in. enhanced sense of touch, jaw chattering like crazy, dialated pupils. so we head back to the house.
i stay in the kitchen to chat with another friend, who's birthday was the previous day. he tells me he's gotta head home in a few hours so i go ahead and give him his present - 20mg of 2cb. we chat for awhile about how etarded our friends are, with their glowsticks, kandy bracelets, and pacifiers.
around 2am, we head out to give birthday boy a ride home, and everyone (except our driver) gets some 2cb. i snort about 20mg myself. 2:45, we've got him dropped off and get back to the strip club to pick up the stripper, but the doors are locked. by this time, the 2cb is really starting to kick in, and the best euphoria i've ever felt begins to encompass me. i crawl into the back seat and lie down, practically orgasming because of how good it feels. we return to the house.
now around this time, i honestly cant remember much that actually happened. i just remember the amazing euphoria. my visual field is really distorted and foggy, and the orgasmic feeling takes up most of my focus. i spend a large portion of the next hour just lying on the floor, moaning and enjoying. i do remember lying on the bed, chatting with my best friend and his girl. he mentions the ketamine, so we head to the kitchen and dry out 50mg, and i promptly snort up half. not too interesting, i dont really notice much from it. somewhere around this time, i realize i'm tripping too hard to piss, so i have somebody mix me up a drink (alcohol is a diarhetic and cns depressant). unfortunately it didnt help any. we head back into the back room and chat some more. after about 15 minutes, (should be around 3:30-4am by now) i tell my friend what i'm gonna go do so that he knows whats going on. i head into the bathroom and IM 50mg of ketamine.
fast forward about 5-10 minutes. the ketamine hits. i drop to the floor, as i suddenly obtain ego loss. i can only remember bits and pieces of what happened. i remember my visual field being expanded to where i can see in at least a 270 degree field of vision. i remember my visual field becomming skewered, seeing everthing tilted up, down, and to the side (2cb can sometimes cause your vision to roll or tilt, its hard to explain). i also remember seeing myself from outside my body, and at one point i saw myself multiplied. it feels like hours that i'm in this state, and at one point i begin grasping for reality, to find baseline, so that i would have something to hold on to and stabalize me.
i believe around 4:30, enough of the k wore off so that i could control my body again. i can hardly interact with anyone else tho; my hearing is just as distorted as my vision. i sit down and get a massage from a friend. several times i went limp and almost "fell" out of my body again. the euphoria from before is still there.
eventually i head back into the back room to chat with some people and we discuss things. one person tells me that i scared the shit out of everyone earlier. apparantly i went totally limp and spasmed while i was out. nobody else there was really aware that ego loss was possible on psychedelics. its such a rare event and you dont really hear about it too much.
4:30, i snort 1/4 pill to try to maintain my euphoric state.
6am or so, we head back to my house (only 6 blocks away) and get some more 2cb. i snort another 20mg and return completely to my euphoric state. i notice that if i sort of nod off (my body is extremely tired), the pleasure is increased, so i snort 15mg of morphine. i lay some glow sticks over my eyes and trance out to a near-orgasm several times.
my friend and his girl tell me they're leaving at about 8am, and she gives me 10mg of valium to help me sleep, which i hang on to until later.
11am, somebody talks me into doing more 2cb, so again we head back to my house and get some. i snort another 20mg. my vision begins "echoing" when it kicks in.
the rest of the day is spent lounging around watching movies, my jaw still shaking, still intensely euphoric.
3:30pm, i head home, snort 2.5mg valium, and pass out.
