Jus' another thing...
I've "withdrawn" from marijuana countless times, and I'd say the most prevalent withdrawl effects can be divided into three simplie-to-remember categories:
1. *Mild* Insomnia
You're not going to be up all night, grinding your teeth and constantly rinsing your aching, bloodshot eyes with Visine, but it certainly may take longer than normal to shut those peepers with any sort of finality.
2. Light to Heavy Depression
This one really kick me square in the balls when I quit smoking. I'm left a socially paranoid mess who loves nothing more than to lie on a much-too-comfortable couch, order delivery Cheesesteaks and surf bluelight. I stay in the house way too often, which sucks, because I only get six television channels. Two of which are in different languages and one of which is Public Broadcasting.
3.Lethargy!
This one also gets me too. You probably won't feel like going out much and interacting with people for a few days, but this is completely normal. In a sense, I used to feel like I'd have to counteract this effect by giong out as much as posible to avoid the feeling of isolation, but then I realized its best to just lay around and purposely act like a slob for a few days to replenish your energy and mind.
btw, knumb, I just re-read your post... do NOT consider suicide. Give it one to three weeks for the shit to clear out of your system,and quite honestly, you'll feel like a new person. Last year I quit and the fist two weeks were hell. After the 14th day, I realized what a waste I'd let myself go to and quit smoking for five months! Stay strong, dude. Best of luck.
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