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So we've been doing the monthly themed threads since OctSOBER & I really like the concept. It doesn't look like one has been started for March yet, so here it is! No fancy titles, just staying or getting clean support.

I've finally come to the realization that I'm ready to get sober. I'm done with drugs. Some of you probably know from my other posts that I wasn't fully ready yet- but now I'm 100% determined. (I posted under a different name and recently changed it for privacy...I don't think many know my previous name but if you're curious ask me in a PM =D

Also, just a suggestion- what do the mods think of making a Mega staying clean thread? (I checked the stickies and couldn't find one, but I think it'd be a great idea!) If not, the monthly threads are still cool :)
 
How's it going rx prn? When you say ready, do you mean you're off them already? Or you're going to try? Either way, hope it goes/is goin well.

I dont know if this qualifies for a staying clean thread,

I've been tapering consistently for a couple weeks now, down to half my regular daily dose (opiates).

I've finally moved out as well. Knowing what poor really is has given me a bit more hustle than I used to have I guess. No comforting opiate feeling due to tolerance, and no safety net... shits kinda scary when I think about how one little bit of bad luck could financially crush me.

I can't say for sure, until I make it out the other side.. but I feel like this is it for me. I've been around the circuit so many times, it's not like the old 'gotta clean up my shit' talk.. its not even the old 'not even the old 'gotta clean up my shit talk' talk'... its just happening on its own, I guess. there's no joy there anymore, no comfort. I guess you teach yourself for so long that putting that stuff in your body makes you feel good.. even for years after it doesnt, it takes a while to realise you're just pissing away money for no benefit, or worse.. you're more agitated than you normally would be, you just dont notice because the rest of the time youre even *more* agitated.

Anyway, with some luck I'll be nearing zero dose by the end of march. will be the first time I've been sober for more than 24 hours in at least 3 years... and I'm kinda looking forward to it.
 
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I've been on benzodiazepines since I was 17 (so almost 5 years) and addicted to opiates since 2011. I'm going to start my taper so I can be free of the substances. They've done enough damage to my life and I need to find other ways to deal. I'm currently still addicted but I'm starting my taper today :) I wasn't ready to leave my substances before, but now I am. I want to be clean.

We can do it Cartesia. What you said certainly qualifies for the staying/getting clean thread. This a support thread for those (like you and I) trying to get clean.

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nice one! and thanks. I've tried tapering before, the toughest part is when you get through a chunk... then start to think 'imagine the effect it would have now' .. I guess you just gotta try and remember that it's gonna take you straight back to the place you were at before when you decided getting off it was for the best. The good thing about tapering is if you screw up, you can just start back up again as soon as you realise.. none of this 'im done, its all over.. nooo i fucked up, been on a bender' just.. tomorrow im gonna take less than i did last week/3 days ago/yesterday/whatever

Keep checkin in, I will try to do the same a couple times a week..

What's your plan? I'm cutting back quite quickly I suppose, 10% every 2 days. I know I could go a bit faster and not suffer much in the way of withdrawals, but at the same time.. I'm hoping to gradually ease back into life rather than crashland and then get myself all excited and back on it a week later.
 
rx_prn said:
So we've been doing the monthly themed threads since OctSOBER & I really like the concept. It doesn't look like one has been started for March yet, so here it is! No fancy titles, just staying or getting clean support.

I've finally come to the realization that I'm ready to get sober. I'm done with drugs.
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Good for you!! I wish you the best of luck!
 
Thank you for making this rx_prn. <3 FebNEWary was a, well...new, experience for me and even though I didn't stay absolutely clean it did help me to be mindful of how much I was drinking and how bad my benzo addiction actually is. I'll be joining you in March and hopefully will have more success.

Congratulations on being ready to get sober. That is something HUGE that I think a lot of people don't realize is essential to reaching sobriety.

Happy March everyone. We can all improve with the support of each other. <3
 
Neversick here.. staying strong.. Took a crazy 6 year SB addiction down to a exTARcuric.. up to a methadone, exTAR, roxy, xannax addiction and in august after a three week taper I came off 150mgpd Methadone, 260mgpd roxy, 6mgpd xanax.. and now i'm rolin clean lookn at getn on six months.. have to remember that becoming a junkie doesn't cure me of my love of alcohol.. Thanks to everyBLiter that's fightin and supporting everyone whose taken a place on our line of this battle field.. <3
 
I'm so happy to hear others are doing it with me <3

This is my first day without opiates in years. I'm extremely sick but it's okay. The end result is what I'm after, not the nasty details in the middle. I'm determined.
 
You're stronger than me. I am finally clean - no kratom, no nothing, after a kratom taper from harder stuff - and while I am grateful to have come out the other side of the worst of WDs, I feel like I am facing a huge, gray future where I can't seem to get either warm or motivated. I hope my brain gets its crap together sooner rather than later.
 
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You're stronger than me. I am finally clean - no kratom, no nothing, after a kratom taper from harder stuff - and while I am grateful to have come out the other side of the worst of WDs, I feel like I am facing a huge, gray future where I can't seem to get either warm or motivated. I hope my brain gets its crap together sooner rather than later.
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It'll get better for us, just like neversickanymore said. It looks daunting, but we can do it. If others can do it so can we. I'm trying to keep a positive frame of mind despite how awful I feel.
 
neversickanymore said:
^^ i know i say it allot but clonidine worked wonders for me. Non narcotic non habit forming, easy to get a script for.. check it out. <3<3<3

IT TAKES BUT A FEW DAYS TO WALK OUT OF HELL
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I'm going to try that. I have a PCP appointment Thursday so hopefully we can look into that. Thank you <3

Captain.Heroin said:
I went 26 hours without Suboxone yesterday and I was amazed at how well I handled it.

I'm still continuing my taper and hope to be off of this by Summer.
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That is awesome.

You will do it <3 <3
 
I'm really proud of everyone in this thread and hope you guys stay strong for this month. One day at a time. I was smoking pot daily for 4 years and decided last week that I'm pretty over it. I don't mean to make this seem dramatic because I know it's just pot and you guys have a lot more on your plate but I'm over just smoking by myself and being in a perpetual haze and watching time pass me by. There is so much in the world I haven't seen or experienced. I think I smoked pot so I could continue to do little with myself and just stay stagnant. I'm making a conscious effort to do new things, meet new people and just generally take myself out of my comfort zone. The last week without smoking has been great - I feel very clear headed, gained my appetite back (I actually feel hungry in the mornings!) and find joy in little things again. I think this was a really good decision and this will be an awesome year. I hope this isn't offensive to any pot smokers, I really enjoyed the things I learnt whilst smoking and I in no way blame pot, but rather my addictive personality towards it. Good luck everyone!
 
Eric B said:
I think I smoked pot so I could continue to do little with myself and just stay stagnant. I'm making a conscious effort to do new things, meet new people and just generally take myself out of my comfort zone. The last week without smoking has been great - I feel very clear headed, gained my appetite back (I actually feel hungry in the mornings!) and find joy in little things again.
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that's awesome. It sounds like you have some really great insight into yourself/what makes you tick too, which is also awesome. And I am sure not gonna minimize anybody's experiences quitting anything at all, because to my mind and in my experience, it's the psychological addiction that's the real obstacle. Physical WD ends, has an expiration date. the psychological stuff? Supposedly that has an expiration date too, but I'll be damned if I've ever met it, I just always go back to using. But I need to shut up because I'm depressing myself, so anyway I think I'll just go back and reread these motivated things you guys are writing and hoping some of it will rub off on me one of these days. Good luck and congratulations.
 
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