Recovery Mania during PAWS

[LucidSDreamr]

I'm like 5 or 6 weeks off methadone. I feel very stimulated almost like mdma all the time where I talk to total strangers which I never did before. It has also manifested as a social media addiction. Also music seems so full of emotion now...making me tear up at times.

It very awkward after because I was never a social person on my main drugs of weed and opioids. I wonder if this is who I really am as a person no on drugs or if it's just part of PAWS.

I don't feel like I'm in my own skin anymore.

The positive part of it is that I've reconnected with my family.

 

[n3ophy7e]

I also expereince this when I am freshly clean and sober. It's like my brain is getting high on the natural release of neurotransmitters and endorphins through normal activities like socialisation and exercise and healthy food etc. It's like a rebound high after my brain being numbed for so long.

The social media addiction thing is easily explained, you get a dopamine rush every time you get notifications, "likes", comments, messages, so your brain literally gets addicted to it. It's like any other behavioural addiction like gambling or sex, it's the exact same mechanism in the brain.

 

[Hexenstahl]

Hah, during my last Heroin withdrawal I accidentally stumbled on this track and couldn't stop crying. Especially at 2:23 I teared up everytime. I remember exactly how the music made me feel. I was stomping the ground, full of sweat and backpain and when I heard this part of the track, it was as if the universe was trying to tell me in a musical way "hey, it's all right, you will eventually beat this addiction and be free. I'm always there with you". I cried tears of joy and never felt so loved in my life. No drug ever gave me such an intense euphoria. I felt like god himself directed his love to me to make me feel better.
I know it sounds ridiculous and melodramatic, but I'm always extremely emotional when withdrawing and everything feels so intense. I don't feel a bit moved by this when I listen to it now. It's really crazy how opioids affect the brain's chemicals.

 

[RC-Lover123]

Well, doesn't sound too bad, your new condition. Besides the social media addiction, that is...Channel it into something positive, ideally outside of the internet.